'' You said what?! '' Ryan accidentally shouts, I look at him with a disgusted look. '' What? What's wrong with helping her? She's my employee. '' I say while driving the car home. '' Yes, your right she's your employee. But she isn't your sister, not your cousin, not your childhood friend and not your wife or girlfriend. '' He says, I felt my heart drop. He's right she's just my employee, she's not anything special to me. But something makes me want to help her. I have the money for it, so why won't she let me?

'' Bro, do you like her or not? '' He asks me looking so serious. I sigh, '' How does It feel like when you like someone? '' I ask him looking so dumb. It's true, I've never liked a person before. All these exes were just because of status, I've never felt anything for them. '' Here's two examples, One, You think about them a lot, 2, you're heart beats really fast when you see them or touch them. ''

Everything he just said makes sense, I think about her a lot, my heart beats faster than ever when I see her. Does that mean that I have feelings for her, but how? How? How can I have feelings for a Muslim girl? '' So? '' He stares at me. I turn around to look at him,

'' You need to help me lose these feelings for her, I can't have feelings for Nawal. '' I say looking so serious. I hear Ryan gasp, '' I knew it! I knew! But why do you want to lose feelings for her? '' He asks cluelessly. Is he serious?! Does he not know why?!

'' Ryan! She's Muslim! ''

'' Does Matthew want to help you? Isn't that good?! '' Saja asks, I look Saja who's looking all dumb. '' Are you dumb? How can I let my boss help me? '' I say frustrated. '' But what's wrong with that? He looks like he really cares about you. ''Leila says, Saja looks at Leila with furrowed eyebrows. '' What does that mean? '' She says crossing her arms, '' Saja, not in that way. '' Leila chuckles. '' Girls! Don't lose focus, now what should I do? '' I ask them.

'' Hmmm... Don't you know anyone who was friends with Sejad? '' Saja asks me. She's right, If I contact them they may tell me where my brother is. '' I knew many of them but I never had a great contact with them, my brother would kill me If talked to them or something. '' I explain.

'' But I know one of them really good, he was a childhood friend of Sejad and me. '' I continue. They look at me confused, '' Who is it? '' They ask looking at me.

'' Afif... '' I say and they look at me shocked, '' Wait! Isn't he the one who liked you when we were 9 years old but you rejected him? '' They ask me. '' Yes It's him, he was my brother's closest friend and best friend. He may know where he is so I need to contact him. '' I tell them, '' No! You're not meeting him! He may rape you or something! '' They freak out and I chuckle. '' He won't, I'll tell him to meet me in the company tomorrow. '' I tell them and they calm down.

'' Good then. Then you are you going to Matthew's house because of Ryan and Loren? '' Leila asks me and Saja looks at Leila confused. '' House?? What do you mean house? '' She asks confused.

'' Nothing Hayati (), nothing. '' Leila says and I laugh.

I walk into the company, I hear my phone ping. '' Probably Leila '' I say underneath my breath. I take up my phone from my bag.

- Unknown number. Ohhh It must be Afif.

- Nawal.

- Unknown number.

- Nawal.

- Unknown number.

. - Nawal

- Unknown number.

I smile at his message. Aww, I'm cool now. '' Why are you smiling at your phone? '' A familiar voice says. I turn around and see Matthew standing in front of me. '' Oh boss, um It's nothing... '' I fake smile. He looks at me frustrated. '' What are you waiting for then, bring me my coffee. '' He says coldly, what's up with him? '' Sorry boss. '' I nod and walk away.

A few minutes later I walk into his office with his coffee, I look at him working. He doesn't look up like he always does. '' Boss your coffee. '' I say walking towards his desk. '' Just put it here and leave. '' He says looking down at his work. Why is he being so cold? '' Boss- ''

'' Nawal I said leave! '' He shouts and stands up from his chair. I felt my heart jump, why is he acting like this? '' Matthew... what's wrong with you? '' I ask him while my body's shaking of fear. '' Don't call me by my name! Who are you to call me by my name?! Who?! You're just my shitty employee! '' He yells, I feel tears filling up in my eyes. He looks at me like he's disgusted, '' You should leave before I break you. '' He narrows his eyes at me.

I walk out of his office with tears flooding from my eyes, what did I do? I don't understand? And why am I so weak? Why am I crying? I usually talk back when someone shouts at me, but why am I weak when It comes to Matthew?

What happened to me, why did I yell at her? Why am I acting so cold towards her? I see Ryan walking into my office, '' Bro? I heard you yell? What's wrong? '' He asks me breathlessly. I take a deep breath, '' I don't know... '' I say and take a sit on my chair. '' Who were you yelling at? '' He asks.

'' Nawal. '' I say looking down at my desk. '' What? '' Ryan shouts. '' Why? '' He asks me again. '' I don't know. '' I say cluelessly. '' Bro, what's wrong with you? Why are you suddenly acting like this? '' He asks me, '' I don't know. '' I say again. '' What do you mean you don't know? Go apologize now before she'll hate you! '' He says and I roll my eyes. '' I don't have time for that, we have a meeting with the designers. Be ready, I'll meet you downstairs in 10. '' I say putting all the paper in my bag. Ryan nods and walks out of my office.

I look at myself in the toilet mirror, thank god I didn't wear makeup today. * Pling * I take up my phone from my bag and see that Afif has messaged me.

- Afif.

- Nawal. I fix my hijab and everything else. I'm really nervous, I don't know why, but I'm nervous.

I walk out of the elevator and see him waiting beside the entrance. Wow, he's gotten hotter, he used to look really ugly. That's so rude! Shut your mind!

'' Afif! '' I shout and he looks at me with his eyebrows furrowed. '' Um... Excuse me who are you? '' He asks me and I chuckle. '' Dumbo! It's me Nawal! '' I say laughing. '' Nawal? Oh shit, I didn't recognize, you've got more beautifier. '' He compliments me and I smile, '' I know right! Look at me! '' I say and he laughs.

I walk out of the elevator with Loren and Ryan. We walk towards the entrance, '' Oh, what's Nawal doing there. '' I hear Loren say, I look up and see her laughing with a guy, in a flirtatious way. I see her talking excitedly and I see him laughing. What the fuck is this girl doing?! I see him looking at her from head to toe, like he's attracted to her.

This motherfucker!

'' So don't you know anything about him? '' I ask him, '' Sorry Nawal, he hasn't contacted me since he left. We all miss him but he had his reasons. '' He explains and I raise one eyebrow. '' Afif, I do- ''

'' Nawal! What are you doing? '' I feel someone pulling me towards them, I look up and see Matthew holding my arm. '' Boss, what is it? '' I ask frustrated. '' Who is this man? '' He asks seriously. '' First of all, let go of me. Secondly, that's none of your business. '' I say says. '' Hey let go of her! Don't you have any respect? '' Afif says,

Crap! Why did he have to open his mouth?!

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