I couldn't believe how fast these few days have went by. The ball was tonight and I still wasn't really sure how I was feeling. Elizabeth had sent me a dress with a letter saying how much everyone missed me. I knew tonight was going to be stressful until I had to make my decision. Now with each minute going by I didn't know which way I was going. My mother was helping me get ready and it seemed like she was going the extra mile to make sure that everything went perfect tonight. I was arriving at the ball with my parents. I know Phillip wanted me to go with him but I couldn't make that commitment yet. I didn't leave my house much in the time of coming home. I knew the town was talking about how I had left the castle it seemed like that was all they did and many did come over and tried to talk to me but I wasn't seeing anyone.

"Do you know what you are going to do?"

"No I still have my doubts with either way I go. I don't want to mess up and I am sure if I go one way of another then someone will be hurt."

"Well don't sacrifice your happiness to please everyone else. You need to make yourself happy in the long run. That is all your father and I want is to make sure you are happy."

It was good to hear that my parents just wanted me to be happy. It was a little pressure off of me but I still needed to choose and it basically came down to Phillip and Adam. I turned around as my mom pulled the strings to tie my dress together. I couldn't believe how gorgeous the dress looked that Elizabeth sent me. It was a gorgeous baby blue ball gown that had stones all over that made it sparkle. Once the dress was on I put the finishing touches on my hair and I was ready to go. I made my way out to my father. My mom was behind me she was ready to head out too. The carriage was waiting for us and we made our way out of the house. It would only be a short ride to the castle.

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We made it to the castle, the footman opened the carriage door and held a hand out for me to come out. Once we were all out my father held out his arms out for both of us to take hold of them. We made our way up the steps and waited in line to be introduced into the party. The doorman greeted us and then cleared his throat and then introduced my family. Everyone turned their heads when they heard my name. It seemed like everyone was filled in on what happened and it seems they were all here to find out what was going on. I noticed Elizabeth was already enjoying the party with her being surrounded by gentlemen like she always was. But it was who was standing next to her that had my attention. Phillip was standing next to his sister talking with his friends. Once my name was said he turned his attention to me and I was wondering if he would meet me at the bottom of the stairs or if he was still mad at me. I took a deep breath and started on down the stairs. I no longer was holding onto my dad's arm. I was looking out into the crowd but my eyes kept going back to Phillip. I just wanted to talk to him there was so much in my mind. It was like he was thinking the same thing because we was waiting for me when I reached the bottom.

"Hello."

I curtsied and gave a small smile when I was in front of him. I could feel my heart to start racing and I was doing everything to hold it in. The last few days I was able to get a lot of thinking done and it was nice to get it all sorted for the most part.

"Hello."

He held out his hand and I put mine in his. He led me to the dance floor and we waited for the next song to begin. The music began and we started to dance. I wasn't sure if anything was going to be said but I could feel everyone watching us. It was like everyone was waiting to watch a show like something would happen at any moment.

"I am glad to see you again."

"I am sorry that I left but I needed to get some space to think. I had so much going on in my head and so many people telling me what to think or do. I just wanted to find myself again."

"I understood with time that you needed to be able to get away. I am sorry if I was influencing you at all. I told you that you could make your own decision and then I was in the back ground telling you to stay and how to feel."

"I am still deciding what I want to do. I know that I said I would know what I wanted to do but I don't want to disappoint anyone and I am afraid that I will do it."

"Well I won't stand in your way."

"Thank you. I promise I am just going to let this night happen and I won't try to let my mood bring anyone down."

We finished the dance and applauded the musicians. We didn't stop with just one dance we continued to dance. It felt right again to be here with Phillip. I was enjoying the night. When I wasn't dancing I was socializing with Elizabeth and having a glass of champagne. I didn't know when Phillip went off too but I wasn't trying to think of anything that evolved the guys in my life. The ball was almost over and I knew tonight was the last night I had to go home if I choose too. Talking with Elizabeth was nice I could imagine staying here and being around her. Just as she was talking to a count or some other title I didn't really pay attention. I saw Adam walking over to our group. I hadn't talk to him since that day in the pub.

"Hey Lily."

"Hello Adam."

I smiled and moved away from the group and turned more towards him. I knew I needed to be able to talk to him. He was another part that I needed to see. If I could choose going back home with Adam then I would be back to how things were before.

"I am glad to see you. You look beautiful."

"Thank you I knew I couldn't hide forever."

"Well I am glad that you aren't letting anyone hold you back. Did you think any more about what you came and talked to me about?"

"Yes I did. I am still deciding at the moment which path I wanted to take. I can see positives in both sides and I can't imagine my life without certain aspects. I just wish someone would show me what would happen once I made a decision."

"What do you need me to do?"

"You don't have to do anything. I just need you to be you and trust in my decision in the end."

They made the call for the last song of the night. It was then that Phillip came out of nowhere and was asking me to dance with him again. Adam also wanted me to dance with him. I could see the Royal Seer in the back ground watching what I decided. I knew by who I choose would seal my fate. This was the moment that I knew would come over the last few months. The conversation I had with the seer came back to my mind.

"Now my dear please tell me what your issue is?"

I was sitting at the little table that was in his room. I wondered how much he truly knew about what would happen with me and my future. I wish he could just let me know what each path would do, if I was able to see what each path would lead it would make this decision a lot easier.

"I am trying to decide how I am able to get home. You told me before it would be months before I could make my way home again. It has been months now and I am sure I know what I want to do now."

"Well if you are serious about going home your time to make the decision will be at the ball next week. This is when you will have to pick and let everyone know where you want to be."

"How will I know when the decision needs to be made?"

"It will be when you have to choose between the two guys. When Adam and Phillip are standing before you. The one you choose is the way you see your life being."

I was trying to figure out when I would have to choose between the two of them at the same time. I didn't know what I would do. I couldn't see my life with or without one of them. I knew I needed some time away to think about what I needed to do.

Standing there in front of both of them I knew this is what the seer was talking about. The one I choose is the one that would keep me here or bring me home. Seeing both of their faces I had feelings from both worlds. But I knew where I wanted to be.

"I'm sorry but I just can't choose you. I need to go back to my life and that is why I am going to dance with Adam."

I put my hand in Adam's and we moved to the dance floor. I saw the seer nod and move away from the crowd. I was going back home. I felt bad about hurting Phillip I could see his face when I didn't choose him but I didn't feel at home here anymore. Going back for the last few days with my parents made me realize I wasn't ready to be away from them. I wasn't choosing a guy in my heart I was choosing my family. The song ended and the ball was over. I made my way back to my parents and we got in our carriage to leave. They didn't ask me anything about how my night went. I am sure that the news was spreading that the treaty was over. It wouldn't be long before more girls moved in to take their claim for the throne. We made it home and I went to bed. I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I just wanted today to be over. I had feelings for Phillip but it wasn't enough to keep me from my life I grew up in. It took a while to fall asleep but once I did I was out.