We graduated today.

You kissed me again.

I don't know why,

because I thought you didn't like me.

But I guess I was wrong.

That night,

after I celebrated with my dad,

we climbed on top of my roof

and laid there for hours.

I never truly got over you,

so I'm glad you made the first move.

But then again,

it didn't really mean anything.

At least not to you.

Bullying hasn't been that common,

and I've finally sort of forgiven you.

Better times are here,

and a new life will start soon.

Forgive and forget;

that's what they all say.

But before I truly forget about everything,

there's one thing I want to say

before we permanently move on

and travel down different roads.

I love you, Nathan.

I've come to realize this,

and I can't fight it anymore.

I am in love with you,

but you will never know that.

Never.

Because you'll find another girl,

fall in love with her,

get married and have her kids.

You would never want to marry me,

to live a life with me.

All I'll ever be is your friend.

Because let's face it.

You never liked me.

I guess you just felt sympathetic

from your past,

but you never truly liked me.

Not in the way I like you.

But maybe one day,

I'll find someone.

Someone who'll make me happy.

Someone who'll want me for me.

Maybe I'll fall in love with them,

like I've sorta done with you.

Maybe I'll marry,

and have kids.

Maybe I'll finally be at peace.

And these feelings that I have for you

might just be a figment of my imagination.

They might just be a want of loving someone

rather than a raw, blissful love.

But honestly?

I don't even know what's real anymore.

And that scares me.

So I'll just be waiting.

Waiting for my time to come.

Waiting for my life to start.

So goodbye, Nathan.

It's time for us to move on.

It's time for us to forget.

So don't worry about me,

because I'm better now.

When I say these final words,

I know they're not lies anymore.

And I'd like to thank you for that.

I'm fine

I'm fine

I'll be fine.

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