I sat on the set of swings

we would always go on

before high school started.

And as I swung my legs back and forth,

air flying through my face and hair,

I couldn't help but be surrounded

by sadness.

What happened to us, Nathan?

You were always the sweet one.

Always the one looking out for me.

Back then,

we were fine.

We were naive, yes,

but we were fine.

But now age has gotten to us,

and you let jealousy wash through you.

I miss you.

I miss the times we spent together

and I miss the times when I was actually happy.

But it's different now.

We're not fine at all.

| "When you try so hard, but lies continue to spill from their mouths like vomit. When you make the time and effort to be there for them, but you're only near for their disposal and needs when the people they ditch you with leaves them in solitude. When you plead for them to just tell you the truth, but you already know it's not worth it. And I try and I try and I try. But sometimes, when you've tried just so hard, you then realize it is finally time - to cut them loose."

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I apologize for the tardiness. And I apologize for my soon to be absence the next following weeks. Updates are still going to happen, just not as frequent. I'll try post on the weekends, but I highly doubt I'll be able to do so during the weekdays. The school year's closing up, yes, but this is the time where teachers love giving out last minute tests. Stay lovely, my beauties. Stay lovely. |