No one knows I'm here. Not even Andrew. I wore a black hoodie, some light blue mom jeans, a huge sun hat to cover my face, and a pair of sunglasses. I signed in for my diamond VIP pass and followed the line where a couple of other girls were standing, walking into the Shawn Access Experience and waiting to meet Shawn.

We were in the experience where Shawn's guitars were hung up, along with some outfits he wore throughout his lifetime. The girls in front of me were almost to the front of the line and they bounced excitedly.

One of the girls looked back at me and gave me a smile, her eyebrow curved in confusion because of my state. I decided to take off my sun hat and the glasses.

Her eyes widened. "Madame Mendes! Hi!" She said with a French accent. The girls around me in the line all gasped and I smiled at them and took a couple of photos with those who asked.

I was next in line and I put on my hat and sunglasses back on. I could see Jake by the entrance of the meet and greet area.

"Jake!" I whisper yelled. He looked over at me, confused.

I brought my sunglasses down and his eyes widened. "Hi!" He whisper yelled back.

He looked over and cleared his throat. "NEXT" He yelled.

I walked into the little hallway to Jake. "This way ma'am" He motioned his hand to the entrance.

"Thanks Jake" I whispered. He gave me a pat on the shoulder.

I walked in and bright lights were set up. Shawn stood tall, wearing a white tank top underneath a denim unbuttoned button up and black jeans.

"Hi" He smiled, a glint in his eyes screamed, why is this lady wearing a huge hat.

I took of the sun hat and the glasses and plopped them on the ground in front of me. "Hi love bug" I grinned.

"Honey!" He ran over and lifted me up, giving me a spin. "What are you doing here?!"

"I decided to surprise you" He placed his hands on the sides of my head and kissed me.

"You guys don't have much time!" Jake said loudly from outside the room.

"Come on. What pose do you want to do?" Shawn led me in front of the camera. Behind us was a wall with different flowers and in the middle, it read Shawn Mendes the Tour.

"Why don't we do the classic prom pose? Where you're hugging me from behind"

He chuckled. "Cheesy" He went behind me and placed his hands on my stomach.

The photographer started to count down. "Three"

I quickly grabbed the pregnancy test and the picture of the baby from the ultrasound, from my back pocket and smiled. The camera flashed and our picture was taken. I turned around and looked at Shawn, the test and picture faced towards him.

"Surprise!" I smiled.

His eyes widened. "You're kidding?!"

"Nope" The camera flashed behind me.

"You're pregnant?! I'm going to be a dad?!"

"Yup" I nodded my head.

He stood there, silenced and shocked. "I can't believe it. You're pregnant" He gave me a large bear hug, squeezing the life out of me. He took the sonogram and looked at it.

"It's so tiny" He admired it.

"About the size of a pomegranate seed now. It's a little bigger than in that picture"

His face was soft as he looked at the photographer. "Do you mind if we take one more?"

"No problem at all! Congratulations guys!" The photographer said behind the camera.

Shawn knelt down on both of his knees and lifted up my hoodie. He kissed my flat stomach and the photographer took the picture. "Go backstage to the dressing room. Wait for me there! I should be back in an hour or two. I'll send Gerty over to keep you company"

"I bought a Q&A Pass" I whispered.

"Oh really?! Then I'll see you there" He smiled and leaned down to give me a quick peck on the lips.

I agreed and started to walk out the other door. "Hey honey" Shawn stopped me before I could leave.

"Hmm?"

"I love you" He grinned.

"I love you more, handsome"

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I now sat in a room that was lit with fake candles and weak lights in the back of the room. I was sitting right in front of the place where Shawn was going to sit.

Everyone was talking amongst themselves while other people got situated behind us. I pulled out my phone from my black bag.

Why do you always take ten years to get to the Q&As?

Just be patient

I'm literally around the corner

All of the people there were now seated and someone started singing Lost in Japan which got everyone else to start singing it.

Finally, Shawn walked into the room and sat on the equipment boxes that were set up in front of

me while everyone else was screaming. "Hey guys!" He yelled loudly and everyone began to quiet down. "It's so great to be back here. All I ask is that you are quiet while someone's asking a question so that I can hear. Other than that, hit me with some questions!"

People immediately started to raise their hands. "You" Shawn pointed to a girl with a floral dress.

"First off, I wanted to say that I love you"

"I love you too" Shawn smiled.

"My question is, if you had a baby, what would you name it?"

Shawn raised his eyebrows and looked over at me. "Hmm. If I were to have a baby, I've always liked the name Skyler for a girl. Not sure about a boy though. Alana, what do you think?"

"I don't know" I said clearly so everyone could hear me. "I never really thought about it. Definitely not Skyler though" I joked.

He pouted. "She's always so mean to me. Next question?" More people raised their hands.

Shawn picked on a boy with a plaid shirt next. "Hi Daddy Mendes" The boy said confidently. The room erupted into laughter.

The boy continued. "We all know that you're at the peak of your career and it's still getting better; when would you consider retiring?"

"First off" Shawn started. "I love how you called me Daddy Mendes" The group laughed and hollered.

Shawn continued. "I'm actually not sure when I want to retire. I do know that I love doing this for a living and can see myself doing this when I'm 80 but, I also want to start a family and that might have to factor into my decisions. Alana and I would have to talk about this sometime" He nodded his head at me.

This continued on for the next thirty or so minutes until it was time for everyone to get out of the Q&A room and Shawn and I were backstage in his dressing room, waiting for the show to start.

I sat down on the navy green couch and Shawn sat next to me. "So" He said. "Tell me everything. Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

"Well, I wanted to surprise you. I found out the day after my family and I ate at the new Korean Barbecue Place. I just kept throwing up and throwing up. So I got four pregnancy tests and all of them said pregnant. I wanted to be sure so I set up an appointment at the hospital and it turns out, I am pregnant. I told Elena and she was the only who knew until now. Now you know. Wanna guess how far I am?"

"Two weeks?"

"Mmm. Nope"

His eyes widened. "One week?"

I shook my head. "I'm going to be six weeks starting tomorrow"

"No way! So that means that you were pregnant during the wedding?"

"Mhm. Crazy isn't it?"

"I just wanna know how it happened though. I swear we were safe the whole time" He furrowed his eyebrows.

I suddenly felt my cheeks heat up. "Condoms aren't always guaranteed to work all the time"

"That's true" He nodded. "When do we get to start telling people?"

"I was thinking maybe during my second trimester. When I'm about 4 months in? The likelihood of a miscarriage is possible during the first trimester but I'd definitely want to tell our parents soon"

"Can I see the picture again?"

I pulled it out of my purse and handed it to him. He looked at it like a kid would look like standing outside of a candy store.

"So tiny" He whispered. "Would it be able to hear me if I talked to it?"

"I don't think so but it should have a heartbeat by now so the next time we get an ultrasound, we'd be able to hear it"

He lifted up my sweatshirt and put his head close to it, pressing his ear to my stomach. "Hi little baby" He said.

I grinned as I ran my fingers through Shawn's hair while he continued. "I know you can't hear me right now but in a little you will. Once your ears grow in, I'll sing to you all night long"

I haven't eaten lunch today and my stomach decided to grumble. Shawn sat up and looked at me. "Was that the baby?"

I laughed. "No. That was my stomach"

"Have you eaten anything?"

"Not since I got here, no"

Shawn gave me a look of alarm. "What do you want to eat?! Are you craving anything?"

"Actually yeah. Do you guys have hot cheetos? And how about some peach yogurt?"

"Of course! I'll get you some!" Shawn quickly got up from the couch and ran out of the room. He came back as soon as he left with a bag of extra hot cheetos and Yoplait yogurt.

"How'd you get that so fast?"

"The joys of having a backstage craft service" He sat back down and handed me the chips and the yogurt, along with a silver spoon.

I opened the bag of chips and grabbed one, popping it into my mouth. I set the bag down on my lap and opened the yogurt, eating a spoonful. I made a look of distaste.

"Anything wrong?" Shawn asked.

"I'm not getting the taste that I want" An idea popped into my head. I took a chip out of the bag and dipped it into the yogurt. I popped it into my mouth and sighed. My craving was fulfilled.

Shawn looked at me like I was crazy. "Does that taste good to you?"

"Right now it does" I said between bites.

There was a knock at the door. Andrew popped his head between the door and the opening. "Alana! You're here!"

"Hey Andrew!" I smiled at him.

He opened the door some more and walked in. "Are you eating yogurt with your chips?" He gave me a look of concern.

I chewed slowly. "Maybe" He was getting suspicious, I could tell "Should we just tell him?" I asked Shawn.

"I don't know? Do you want to tell him?" Shawn responded.

"I don't know. He's your manager"

"Tell me what, guys?" Andrew asked. He sat on the blue armchair next to the couch.

"Would you like to do the honors, love bug?"

Shawn reached over and squeezed my hand. "Here we go. Andrew, Alana's expecting"

"Expecting what?"

"A baby. What else would she be expecting? An alien?"

Andrew's mouth went agape then be covered it with his hands. "You're kidding"

Shawn shook his head. "Nope"

Andrew stood up and went over to the couch to give us a little group hug. "You guys are going to be such great parents"

We thanked him. "Just don't tell anyone though" I said. "We want to keep it under wraps for a little bit"

"Sure thing" Andrew smiled and walked out of the room, closing the door behind him as he left.

I was feeling a bit full so I set the chips and yogurt on the wooden coffee table. Shawn rested his head on my lap and looked up at me. "I hope I'm not squishing you"

"You don't have to worry about everything. I'm not made of porcelain, you know"

"I know" Shawn took my hand and placed it on his chest. "I just love you a lot"

"I love you more" I began to tear up.

"What's wrong?" Shawn sat up and gave me a soft look.

I sniffled. "Hormones. This thing baking inside of me has changed a lot of things. For instance, I have to pee every ten minutes or else I'll pee my pants"

"Aw. I wish I could do something about that, sweetheart. I'm sorry"

"It's okay. Just remember that you were the one who put me through this" I gave him sad puppy eyes.

Shawn jokingly glared at me. "I try to be sweet but you always switch it around"

"Oh, honey. Get ready for it. Pregnancy is going to make my personality go crazy. It's going to be a long ride"