Heya,

I know, I know it's been ages since my last update! As I broadcasted earlier, my computer's hard disk pretty much crashed. Which meant that for nearly a week I was very worried I'd lost ALL my files! Luckily I was smart enough to make back ups of everything :D

This is the first in a double update! To make it up to all of you.

Enjoy, comment and please don't hesitate to tell me if I left in too much details for this to be PG-13. The restricted part of this chapter can be read in the link posted on the side. Or you can find it if you go to my profile, my works and then click on the 'book' Thicker than Blood Restricted Chapters.

This is the link: http://www.wattpad.com/3963446-thicker-than-blood-restricted-chapters-chapter

Lot's of love!

Robin

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[31]

I spend all afternoon with Hayden sprawled out across the bed in my bedroom. Watching Disney movies and goofing around with him the way we sometimes did. It was nice to get a break from all the bad things of the past few days and relax.

But that all ended when Hayden turned his eyes on me with a very serious look on his face. He'd been a little more quiet at the end of the last movie we'd watched and now I could see that there was something he wanted to talk about.

I smiled encouragingly, wanting to show him that I was there for him and would not judge him for anything he had to say.

'Amy... Our father he, you know he came to me every night before. Before Nathaniel?' he said with a small voice that sounded more mature somehow than when he usually talked.

I nodded, 'Yes why didn't you tell me Giant? You could have stayed in my room every night had I known! Did he threaten you if you told someone?'

He nodded, 'Yes it was our little secret he said... He always wanted me to do things. Things I didn't want but he was stronger than just the boogeyman that you always scared away for me.'

I remembered the boogeyman Hayden always used to worry about when we were younger... Especially the one incident where I'd found that feather from Tlanextic. Had our actual father been in the room at that time? Had I nearly had a brush with the Demon?

Why didn't our grandfather protect Hayden when he did protect me? It didn't make sense to me.

'Our daddy he... He said I was special and that I'd make him proud one day, he said I was really talented Amel. He said I could do something no Demon had been able to for hundreds of years and he always made me practice, I hated practice with him. He made me hurt people!'

I tried to stifle my gasp but he still heard, 'I didn't want to hurt anyone Ame... You know that right? It hurts ME to hurt people, I always feel everyone's hurt.'

'Oh Hayden...' I tugged him into an embrace tightly. Poor boy! No wonder he was always so desperate to ease people's minds and pains. If he really felt them himself as if they were his own... How could he live with it? No wonder he didn't like interacting much with other people!

'You are not... Upset with me?' Hayden asked me timidly after a while.

'Of course not! I know you'd never hurt someone on purpose just for fun... You're a good kid and my baby brother. I love you no matter what, I'll make sure that Demon can never again come near you alright?'

'I know Ams, he won't come here with Nathaniel around, I think he's frightened of him,' Hayden said sounding happy all of a sudden. 'He showed up at school right after we moved in and I could tell... He said he was going away because he didn't want Nathaniel to find him.'

'Well that's great isn't it? We're not ever leaving Nathaniel so you don't have to worry about it any longer.' I ran my hand through Hayden's thick curls but he sighed sadly and shook his head.

'It's not that easy Amia. I'll go now, someone is anxious for your attention,' he pulled out of my arms, jumped up from the big bed and ran for the door. With a wave and a smile on his face he pulled it open right in time to reveal Nathaniel on the other side, his hand raised as if he was about to knock.

'Your timing is impeccable Hayden,' he said as he ruffled my brothers hair.

'Oh I knew you were there, bye!' he darted out the door and ran down the hall yelling for Deidre. He wanted her to take him to the practice hall on the other side of the house.

Nathaniel chuckled as he stepped inside our bedroom and closed the door behind him, 'Kids... How did he know I was there?'

I shrugged, not entirely sure myself. 'Might be that he felt your eh well emotional signature or something? He told me he can feel what others feel as his own... Or well he said he felt pain that way.'

Nathaniel sat down beside me on the bed, kicking off his boots and unbuttoning the top few buttons on his shirt. He was frowning thoughtfully as he said: 'Could be, maybe Jake can teach him some things then. Shields especially, his talents are similar I think. Jake can sense moods overall, he usually knows what your feeling.'

A laugh, 'Very annoying combined with a sister that pretty much always knows what you're thinking.'

'Well I don't know what you are thinking most of the time so you'll have to enlighten me... I still don't know what else made you so mad yesterday for example.'

Nathaniel turned around to look at me, fixing me with his stormy gray eyes. 'I did try to tell you before we were interrupted by Jaden and I was going to this morning when he yet again interrupted us...'

He breathed out heavily as if mentally preparing himself but instead of talking he crawled onto the bed completely and crowded above me so I was completely surrounded by male. His legs on either side of me and his chest pressing me back into the pillows, his face so close to mine that I could feel his breath filter across my cheeks.

'I do not wish to put even more stories of violence on you a ghrá mo chroí,' he kissed me softly for a short moment and I felt my senses go haywire. My body responded eagerly to his nearness and the gentle caress.

'Together Nathaniel! Remember?' I whispered, I meant to sound fierce but the words came out rather huskily.

'Together Amelia,' Nathaniel replied with a nod. 'But this is violence on my part and... I do not wish for your opinion of me to change.'

I understood his hesitance to share immediately, he was afraid I would be scared or horrified by what he had done that day. He was not proud of himself for whatever had happened...

'Was it necessary?' I asked him softly, wrapping my arms around his neck at the same time and curling my fingers in his thick silky hair.

He nodded slowly, 'Yes, it was necessary, but that doesn't justify any kind of violence now does it? My father always used to say that violence was never the way, if you had to resort to it, it meant you were doing something wrong. The only solution was through peaceful actions.'

'Then how did you get to be on top? How did you manage to conquer a territory of your own? I don't imagine you did that through 'peaceful actions'. Did you?' Where did this suddenly come from?

Nathaniel shook his head again and leaned down further to press his face in the crook of my neck, hiding his expression from my view. 'Of course not. It was blood and ashes and violence all the way... No supernatural creature abides to the human laws, we have our own and if we don't rule with an iron fist we'd have mass anarchy everywhere.'

I nodded as I stroked one hand down his back, marveling at the fact that he was for once showing weakness. Sharing with me his worries and his regret, he hated having to do violence because he was at heart a gentle soul like me.

'Then it's okay Nathaniel, you might do violence but it's through it that you save lives. Why the sudden conscience about it? I don't think you've thought about your fathers words for a long time... Otherwise you'd have never chosen to carve out your own territory.'

Nathaniel pulled back so he could look at me, sudden amusement twinkling in the depths of his eyes. 'Because of you a ghrá mo chroí, you made me remember, with your speech about human hearts...'

But the melancholic mood seemed to have passed now because he suddenly sat up, straddling me with his long legs and brushed his hands through my hair. 'You are beautiful.'

I felt a blush rise on my cheeks but I shook my head, 'No you don't change the subject! You still haven't told me anything!'

He laughed, 'There's no fooling you is there? Very well...'

With his hands he started undoing the belt of knives around my waist. I had been a good girl and carried it all day, with all the things I'd seen today and last night I too felt a lot safer having it nearby.

'I visited several Taoiseach yesterday, I told you that yes?' he asked as the belt came undone and he deposited it on the nightstand.

'Yes you did. They lead parts of your territory in your stead right?' I asked watching closely what he did next: unbuttoning his own shirt completely. With every button a new patch of smooth skin and rippling muscle was revealed.

'Very good, I have to keep a close watch to keep them in line. To keep them from wanting more than is their due, the seven I visited needed checking. I had reports that I needed to verify myself...'

'Were they true?' I wondered as I licked my lips to make them moist. My mouth was a little dry now at the sight of him, I could feel his erection pressed against me where he straddled me and anticipation of what he was going to do next had my blood humming.

'Some were, and I had to punish them... I will show you the reports later agreed?' he asked me, finished with his own shirt he started on mine. With his nimble fingers he made short work of the buttons.

I knew he could make our clothes vanish in an instant now but he seemed to derive pleasure from undressing me. 'I would like that. Nathaniel... Why did you decide to have your own territory if you dislike violence?'

Another short laugh, the sound a little more hoarse now as his own desire flared: 'I just woke up one day and decided I would. I was sick of running and fighting for my life and the life's of Jake and Missy.

I thought, what better way to keep them safe? The biggest, meanest, strongest creatures out there hunted me and mine. Why not become the biggest, meanest and strongest creature?'

I could see the logic in that.

'Did it work?' I wondered, my voice a little husky now that he was running his talented fingers over the bare skin of my abdomen.

'In a way...' he murmured against my stomach, brushing his lips across the skin. Goosebumps broke out all over as my body remembered only too well what he'd done with those lips of his.

'In a way?' I asked, I tried hard to focus on the conversation but it wasn't that easy. My gorgeous mate was trying his best to keep me distracted it seemed, or maybe he was busy distracting himself....

'Hush,' he told me in a whisper as he skimmed his mouth slowly up my body. Pausing at the valley between my breasts to press a soft, open mouthed kiss just above the edge of my bra there. With his tongue he ran a line along the edge of the satin, right along the slope of my breast. First left and then back to repeat the action along the right one.

I moaned at the sensation as fire sizzled through my body to awake a slow burning low in my body.

'I love your skin... So soft...' Nathaniel murmured, rubbing his face in an almost feline action against my chest. The roughness of his cheeks eliciting another moan from me, the abrasive texture felt like heaven against my skin.

Combing my fingers through his hair I arched into his caress, gasping when he took advantage of that by slipping his hands behind my back. My bra fell away from me seconds later, he held it up for a moment with a mischievous look in his eyes.

'Red looks good on you a ghrá mo chroí.' Unspoken did he leave the words: but I like you better naked. It was obvious in the way he let his eyes roam over my bared chest however.

Deciding to take action myself I ran my hands down his shoulders to slip the unbuttoned shirt off him. Delighting in the way goose bumps broke out all over his chest as I ran my nails up his back, feeling the muscle bunch and ripple beneath my fingertips as he moved.

Nathaniel's hands made their way to the waistline of my pants, the button already undone before I registered what he was doing. 'I want you naked and moaning my name a ghrá mo chroí,' a whisper against the skin just below my belly button.

He accompanied the whisper with an image of me doing just that pushed into my mind. In it I was writhing on the bed in pleasure as he drove me to my peak with his fingers. His mouth working magic on that favorite part of my neck right where my shoulder began but just above my clavicle.

'Mark me...' the words came out a breathy whisper as I pulled on his hair to get him to look at me. He groaned in response, his eyes completely black as he met mine.

'Ams...' he said, sounding in control of himself despite his desire. 'Do you know what you're asking?'

Nodding I sat up straight, brushing my bare breasts against his chest and laughing softly when that made him shiver. One large hand coming around to press against the small of my back, crushing me more tightly to him. The other he used to tilt my head upwards so he could look me in the eye. In this position his arousal was hot and hard, pressed low against my abdomen.

'You are sure?' he asked as he searched my face for any signs of doubt. His eyes were bleeding black slowly into the white now.

I was absolutely sure. I had never been more sure in my life. Why wait with the inevitable when I knew we would both enjoy it? There would be no regrets because he loved me with all that was him and he always would.

Jake and Deidre were prove that nothing could ever temper that love. So much had happened between them and they weren't exactly together right now but still they loved each other. Still they would protect each other with all that they had.

I sent him this knowledge, the certainty I felt, through our mental connection because I knew nothing less would suffice to convince him.

The moment I did I saw the last of his eyes go black, the sight eerie but also beautiful. I was reflected back in those dark pools so clearly that they almost appeared mirrors.

The last of our clothes melted away from our bodies. I gasped at the feel of him aroused against my bare skin, the velvety softness covering that thick length of steel. I actually moaned just from the feel of him.

He moved then, pressing me down into the pillows with one hand and sliding down and off me himself. 'You will let me lead Amelia,' he said, he sounded stern and I knew that if I didn't agree to this demand he would still back away. Today was not for games and teasing, for making him lose his grip on himself.

I had eternity with him to do just that, so tonight he would be in control. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that he would guide me, us, through this safely. I wasn't even afraid that it would hurt, despite his size.

I allowed the trust to be visible on my face, let the knowledge bleed into my eyes as I locked gazes with him. He nodded and slid his hands down my body in a gentle caress, rubbing his fingers across my abdomen and then down teasingly across my hips.

What happened next was unlike anything I had expected, thinking he'd take what I offered right away. Instead he slipped down and prepared my body, for the invasion that was to come.

Only when he was satisfied he wouldn't hurt me he slipped inside and took my virginity. Not moving he lifted me until I was cradled in his lap pressed against his chest.

His hair was fluttering in unseen winds and his skin was glowing, but I realized that mine was too now. I expected his eyes to be completely black still but instead they now shone with a light that reminded me of the storm in his eyes.

'We need to mark each other now Ams...' Nathaniel said, he took one of my hands in his and placed it on his heart. I could feel it beat slowly and heavily against my fingers, each thud strong and powerful.

He let go of my hand and placed his over my own heart, my own heartbeat erratic and wild. I was sure it was off the charts as fast as it was beating now, a tattoo against my ribcage. No doubt Nathaniel, with his sensitive hearing could hear it, maybe he'd even be able to without the sensitive hearing...

'Have you decided where you wish to mark me?' Nathaniel was asking and I really wondered how he managed to sound so controlled. There was an insane urge inside me that wanted my body to move against his.

I nodded and my hand immediately lifted his right hand, pressing the sensitive skin of his wrist against my lips. It was good place I had decided, because if necessary he could hide a mark there but if he wanted the world to see all he'd have to do was roll up his sleeve a little bit.

I was shocked when I felt his skin burning up at my kiss, fire sizzling between us. A second later Nathaniel was burying his face against my skin, his lips pressing against the crook of my neck. That very spot he'd once placed a hickey on, the spot he'd singled out from day one.

More fire burned between us and it felt like power was pouring out of him like a waterfall, washing over me like an avalanche. At the same time I felt like something was leaving me as well and pouring into him.

Then finally, Nathaniel started moving.

After, when the pleasure that had taken over my body seemed to subside did he roll over with me until I was lying on top him.We were both panting and hot and sweaty, my body completely relaxed as I lay there, draped across his body. He was still buried inside me somehow.

After a while Nathaniel moved his hands to stroke soft patterns across my back with his fingertips, occasionally dipping lower across the curve of my buttocks. His breathing had already gone back to normal.

My head felt heavy and drowsy as I lifted my boneless arms so I could grab his shoulders and hold onto him. 'I love you Nathaniel...'

His arms momentarily tightened around me as he hugged me close to him, 'I love you too a ghrá mo chroí.'

I fought against the sleepiness but as soon as he started humming his lullaby I was a goner. Sleep claimed me for warm and pleasant dreams as Nathaniel held me to his heart, safe and close. Both of us completely relaxed and reveling in each other's nearness now, after our love making.