"You okay?". Yoongi asked, his voice came muffled due the ruckus going behind him.

"Give me a sec".

The ruckus stopped and he moved somewhere quite I assume" I am okay".

I said, taking a breath looking around the patio. I was sitting crossed legged on the windowsill and just over the other side everyone was preparing for the dinner. Today we are going to eat outside, barbecue. Then we are going to open the gifts.

"How's Mom and Dad?". I asked after a short pause.

"Upset". He mumbled "This is the first time you were not here for Christmas now for New year". The next words he spoke I could feel his smirk "They are curious about your friend. Very eager to meet actually".

I sigh in exasperation, I miss them. No doubt all the ruckus I heard was them preparing dinner. "Is that Leah's voice?".

This is nothing new. She usually visits and has a casual dinner but here being present during New year is something unusual. "I invited her over for dinner". Now this is new.

I let out a soft laugh at Yoongi's shy tone. "Are Mom and Dad around? I need to tell you all something".

"What's wrong? Everything okay?". Yoongi's tone sounded worried "Did Nathan?". He didn't even complete it. I cut him off.

"No". I said sharply "I just have something to tell you all".

Suga breathed, replying okay. I heard him moving and calling Mom and Dad.

"Hey sweetie, how are you?". Mom's pierced through my heart feeling so nostalgic. "I am okay Mama". My voice broke halfway as I tried to compose myself.

"Hey hey my love what's wrong". I can see my Dad's eyebrows furrowed as he spoke.

"Nothing Dad, don't worry just miss you all". I said "Hello Aunty Min".

"You little brat, don't you dare cry. You ditched us". I barked out a laugh at the playful jab Aunty Min made.

"But on a serious Note darling what's wrong, you sound like I don't know different".

My flickered over to Jungkook who stood in his half pants, half sleeves shirt grilling the meat. Our eyes meet as he sends me a beautiful bunny smile. I bit my lip as my gaze fell on his lips which were on me a few hours ago.

"Different how?". I absentmindedly asked.

"In a good way". Aunty Min said "Now tell us what it is you have to say".

I took a deep breath "I am filing a complaint against Nathan". A silence, utter and complete silence followed the other side. "I want that bastard for what he did to me".

"Why?". Dad was the first one to break the silence "Don't get me wrong I am just asking what changed your mind".

I told them everything whatever happened last month from Nathan showing up at The Dance, to him stalking me, the blackmail and his claims. I could feel the anger rising, Mama and Dad, everyone was shocked yet enraged.

"Why didn't you tell us?".Mama anger is something I don't want to face especially if she is angry at me. She becomes the most dangerous Woman on the planet. "You knew Yoongi, didn't you? Leah?".

I heard a wince. I winced too. My eyes travelled to Jungkook's direction. His fluffy hair and lip bite looking concerned I shook my head giving him an okay sign.

"Mia". Dad's voice laced calmness so much that it scared me. "We are going to bring that bastard down. Wait not only him its stupid family too who is supporting his acts, and you Young lady we are going to have talk when you return. Understood".

"Yes Dad". I mumbled. My conversation continued with them, thanks to Aunty Min who quickly came to my rescue. But I very well know I am not going to let off the hook so easily.

………..

Sun seeped into the room directly on my face. I groaned, turning the other side. Jungkook's arm was thrown over my torso, making it difficult to move.

Jungkook's lips were parted, his soft exhales and tranquility on my face calmed me a little. I didn't woke up screaming from the nightmare but the tremors were still there.

Yesterday I didn't get a chance to tell him, but I am planning to tell him today. We were busy opening gifts and after Katie's pregnancy revelation I didn't want to say anything. It was his time and they were happy this could wait.

I placed my hand on his shoulder, tracing my finger on the tattoo. Danchung, a Korean traditional pattern design painted like Palace. I traced the design slowly travelling down.

Many of Jungkook's tattoos represent Korea, it shows his love for the country. The tattoos are so beautiful and the lines drawn are gorgeous and meaningful. It's so beautiful and profound, also delicate and intense.

A silver of what appeared to be to be a tiger in his inner arm, this design is also connected to his culture. The particular design is a tiger in the shape of the Korean peninsula.On his inner arm, Jungkook has a tattoo that appears to be a nautilus shell. It reportedly represents various things, like spiritual growth, perfection, and beauty.I love to admire him, every tattoo of his has a particular meaning. None of them are drawn without a thought, emotion behind them.

Just like the one under his elbow 花樣年華 "The most beautiful moment in Life". Also known as Hwayangyeonhwa. I once asked Jungkook what does that mean as it was written in chinese he explained it to me. The theme of “the most beautiful moment in life”, the start of one’s young adulthood in which beauty coexists with uncertainty. He said he got it when he finished high school.

The energy of youth barreling forward, embracing even the uncertainty and insecurity. Now beginning to taste the bitterness of grown-up life, they can easily sense that life isn't always beautiful.

I continued my path stopping at the Tiger lily. That's his birthday flower. Tiger lily represents "Please love me" in tiger lily language. He said he got it when he was at his lowest. An Eagle eyed golden coloured tattoo looks so magnificent, I was enthralled at how alive and real it looked. The eye was hell damn cool.I missed a cloud and lightning on his arm. I asked him what it meant. He just stared at me with his doe eyes with so much intensity. He didn't answer, he just stared.

I didn't want to put so much meaning to it so I didn't bother asking it again. There are two quotes "Rather be Dead than cool". Jungkook said he loses interest in things quickly,he gets bored doing it for a while. So he said rather than doing nothing or sitting ideally he wants to keep doing something, exploring things, getting out of his comfort zone and seeing what he is capable of.

"Make hay while the sun shines" is an old saying that's considered a proverb. If you make hay while the sun shines it means you take advantage of the chance to do something while conditions are good.

Three striped lines I think represent the Korean flag. The movement of Jungkook's arm caused me to cease my tracing, I closed my eyes pretending to sleep.

The sheets rustled, Jungkook pulled me closer to his side. With half opened eyes I checked whether he was awake or not. I sighed when I saw his eyes were closed.

I still heard his deep husky voice "I know you were awake". He said with his eyes still closed "I didn't want to disturb your pretending". His corner of his lips tipped" Please continue your exploring. I was very much enjoying it ".

I stared at him with wide eyes, feeling mortified that he caught me. Ducking my head under the cover trying to hide the red colour slightly taking over my cheeks. Jungkook laughed pulling down the sheets, I tightened my hold on them but he yanked them down, straggling me.

"What baby?" He smiled, nudging my nose with his "Why are you embarrassed, I love your little touch, those soft caresses." I groaned I am not going to hear the end of it. I admit it was creepy to watch him sleep, I agree touching him includes that too.

What triggered my blush was he was naked completely and utterly and his morning glory was pressed on my Lower stomach. Jungkook's eyes were hooded for sure he noticed this too just a little moment and his tip will be inclined towards my heat exactly where we both want.

Jungkook's eyes asked for permission and I nodded meekly. He growled, taking my thighs and curling them around his waist. He slowly pushed his tip inside me. My breath hitched. I never had something inside me and I know this is going to hurt me like a bitch because he is too big I don't even know if he will fit in.

Jungkook closed his eyes, nuzzling his head in my neck. His breathing was laboured inch by inch he pushed his dick into him. I bit his shoulder to stop myself from screaming, it hurts. The burning feeling and it was like someone was splitting me into two.

"Shush baby, just a little while". Jungkook said, kissing my jaw tenderly "I am sorry".

"It hurts". My voice broke, as tears streamed down my face.

"I know". He whispered, kissing my tears."Look at me love".

I opened my eyes, Jungkook's face held my intensity, his eyes held so much love and sucked in a deep breath" You are doing great".

His voice and presence was the only thing that was helping me. "That's it let go baby, relax". Until now I didn't realise my muscles were tense.

With one push he was completely inside me we both groaned at the feeling. "No, don't close your eyes". He grunted, slowly thrusting into him.

"I want you to look at me while I make love to you. I want you to see every emotion in your eyes and I want you to see mine".

I looked down between us where we were joined above me Jungkook grumble "You like to watch how I fuck you". I didn't answer, I just stared in fascination. Jungkook pulled out his dick and covered it with my cum. My breath hitched with slow thrust he moved in and out.

"Jungkook". We both moaned when he hit deep inside me. My legs tighten around me. I arched my back urging him to go deeper.

Jungkook took my cheeks in his grip, his eyes had a sensual look, a carnal need and love mirrored mine. Melting and drowning beautifully in each other's arms. Where our names became our prayers as we chased our high.

"I love you". Jungkook spoke thrusting harder and deeper. "Fuck. I love you so much".

I stared at him and shook at his confession "I will keep loving you forever. That's a promise. Even though you are with me I still keep wanting you. Needing you in my arms forever. Baby I can't describe in words how much I love you."

I grabbed his neck to pull him closer and Kiss him deeply. I tongue licked his bottom lip, biting and tasting him. He opened without hesitation" I love you ". I whispered, still kissing him. I suck his tongue as he groaned and his moments stuttered as he slowed down his thrust.

"Say it again". He pleaded, pulling out and thrusting with one deep stroke. "It sounds good".

"I love you".

His hand travelled my waist towards my clit and he rolled it applying pressure. "Again".

"I love you". I cried out as it was too much to take. I was close. He pinched my clit growling animalistically.

That's all it took for me to cum, I moaned which was silenced as Jungkook kissed me and he came cumming inside me. His warm cum was dripping down.

We panted regulating our breaths Jungkook flipped us around, he was still inside me. The feeling was so natural and weird. So full, consuming me all.

"Are you okay?". Jungkook asked, tucking my hair behind my ear.

I nodded "Never better". I sat straight to stretch which caused him to go deeper inside me. Jungkook's arms shot while holding my hips.

"I have something to tell you." I rolled my hips leisurely.

He hummed his attention on my breaths. "I am going to file a complaint against Nathan".

Jungkook's eyes snapped towards my face "You serious?".

"Damn serious. I think I am ready to face my past and leave it where it is". I nodded as if I was talking with myself just realising this should have been done way before.

"I am so proud of you baby". He flipped me over showering kisses all over my face not missing a spot. I scrunch my face smiling goofily. "So proud. Love you". It rolls so smoothly from his tongue, sounding so pleasing to hear.

"I love you". I return back as if it's my second nature to love him. And first being able to know him. "Love you very much".

This was my promise to him. I would stop hurting and be happy. Be happy with him.