"You are doing it again".

"Doing what again?". I asked washing my hand as Leah stood there with her arms crossed, eyeing me in annoyance.

"You know what I mean shutting people out". She said, frowning at me as I just ignored what she said drying my hands.

"Honestly Mia don't you think it's too much, it's not fair to Jungkook ''. She said, damn straight it's not that is why I am avoiding him.

It's not fair to him, " I don't know what you are talking about".

Ready to walk out she stopped at me, her frustration clear.

"I get it okay you are scared, it's getting old you know everytime you start liking someone you stop and shut them out. You have to trust no Learn to trust let them in. You deserve to be happy."

I stared at her " You done, let's go we are getting late for our next class".

I know she is worried, she wants me to be happy. I can't not until I let go of the past I can only if the past doesn't hold onto me. Unless Nathan Evans disappears completely even if he did the things happened would never. I am in that vicious cycle where I can't get out.

I am just walking in the maze of my past searching for a key, a door to get out. The demons, laughing at me, dragging me with them.

My behaviour and nonchalance clearly irked her seizing my hand "

I am tired of you being like these all the time. It's starting to get annoying, at first it was okay. Now it's just you are just staying in the darkhole not getting out when Jungkook is lending his hand to you. You are just stupid not taking any chance its not just him it's you, you know you can just you are not trying running away is all you can do".

I stood not interrupting letting her speak her pent up anger with me. It's fine everyone gets done with you. I don't expect anyone to stay with me forever.

"You are just destroying yourself Mia this time I won't even stop you. I don't know what's wrong with you, hurting everyone around you. People are there for you, just open your heart, don't close your eyes, see with your heart not with your mind". She continued irritatingly.

"I am seriously done with you. Sort it out don't hurt yourself".With this she left me there.

I stood there for sometime,I had nothing to say in return what she said was true. I am not even going to defend myself by giving an excuse. If I would be in her place, I would be done with myself too.

I don't want my darkness to take the light away from the people I love and are precious to me.

I reasoned this many times. What's the use? I deserve happiness. I know that, I want it too. I want to be loved without being judged because of my past.

I took a deep breath turning around.

"Oh look who it is? A number one heartbreaker and whore you have no shame at all, do you?" Sarah mockingly said.

Can this day get any worse" Not now Sarah ". I walked out not listening to her response.

Great just great makes it worse. Anyone who wants to help or team against me go ahead. Do it, I don't care Leah said pissed me off at the same time it hurted me. I deserve it,suck it up Mia you deserved it.

.........

"Hey hot stuff, why don't you sit with us?"

I ignored him, he was one of Sarah's so-called friends. Sarah snickered besides him. Everyone on the table wolf whistled.

She stood up standing in front of me looking at her manicured nails. I rolled my eyes and attempted to walk but she again stood in my way. The whole cafeteria watched silently.

I huffed crossing my arms" What is your problem? ".

She scoffed" You are my problem, you think so highly of yourself don't you. Who is next now? You have no shame, how could you do this to Jungkook? ".

The madness is sickening. The idiocy is real, it's not their business whoever I date. Oh I forgot she is one of Jungkook's admirers .

" You are such a slut dumping him and then asking Daniel in front of him. Know your place, stay where you belong, which is away from Jungkook".

News travels fast, if only they showed so much interesting passion in studies rather than my personal life. For god's sake its 21 century slut shaming now are we.

Sarah needs someone to put her in place, she always points out my relationship so I do the same sometimes when needed with the same energy.

I smirked at her " You are Jealous, get a life Sarah mine is not as interesting as yours only if you had one in first place".

She glowered at me trying to intimidate me.

"And don't worry about Jungkook, he can manage his feelings well. He doesn't need your help, he can speak for himself". I hissed at her.

Her face burned in anger " I don't even know what he sees in you".

"That's right he likes me not you". I couldn't hold my tongue back. I just said " So lay off a little, tell me why you are so obsessed with him? ". I asked as she took one step back" Is it because of the bad boy aura around him, or because he doesn't glance your way."

I stopped as she slapped me hard, throwing a drink on my top. I poked the side of my cheek, ticking my jaw. I heard the gasps around me. Swiping my thumb on the corner of my lips, I burst out laughing.

That's the last straw, all the frustration and anger I stored surfaced.

I punched her hard, grasping her hair she screamed " I told you, you don't want to see me going all dark".

She kept screaming in pain, I didn't listen to any voices trying to stop me or the chaos around me. I just stared at her bleeding nose. Slamming her face on the table bending down to whisper. " Stay where you belong , away from me and Jungkook, your claws off him".

An arm wrapped around me pulling me away from her as I was about to punch her again. I thrashed around trying to get away from Jungkook's hold. He was holding me tightly yet gently. I can recognise his hold, his touch, his presence anywhere.

"Let go". I growled.

"Calm down Mia". Jungkook said softly.

She should have seen it coming all the years I turned blind eye. She chose wrong timing to mess with me. With everything going around me I don't want her to dance with her troops making it more difficult.

I let him pull me out of the cafeteria, when we reached the hallway in front of the lockers. I broke away from his hold. Leah stood behind him along with Yoongi, Jimin and Hobi. I didn't look at anyone.

"She deserved it, you should have done it way before". I heard Yoongi mutter.

"Your clothes". Lee handed me a shirt, snatching from her hand I walked towards the lavatory to change.

I heard voices whispering outside the washroom, I changed my top, rolling my eyes.

Walking out as they saw me they stop trying not to be subtle that they are talking about me. Awkwardly they stood but suddenly they looked at me again and gaped, I looked at them confused.

Jungkook took my chin gently lifting my head, his thumb brushing slightly on my neck. I flinched, shit the marks.

"Who did this?" Jungkook asked angrily.

I cleared my throat " It's nothing I am fine".

His eyes turned dark" Nothing? Someone tried to strangle you Mia. The marks are not nothing. " He looked at me." You have been acting weird since the Dance, what exactly happened there. You scream and cry for help in sleep, the nightmares you have been having are not just nothing ".

" You have been having nightmares again". Yoongi asked, shocked and worried.

I ignored him Jungkook looked at him disbelief, I just took a step back

" It doesn't concern you, any of it."

Jungkook looked so furious as I let those words out, I turned running away from them only to be stopped after a few steps.

" Hey Mia, I saw what happened in the cafeteria, and I also wanted to check if you are okay after you found out yesterday. How's your neck? Is he still bothering you?". Daniel asked, eyeing my neck.

That's it I am doomed, I closed my eyes in exasperation. Daniel still doesn't know Jungkook and everyone are just a few steps away from us.

" What the fuck? He knows and I don't, who the heck he is talking about? Who is he?". Jungkook's question boomed.

Daniel with wide eyes looked at me apologizing as I just gestured at him it's okay. He nodded leaving us alone.

It's no use hiding anything from them" It's Nathan, he is back".

Everyone was silent, Jungkook was dazed and confused while the rest were shocked and angry. First one to break the silence was Jimin. He let out a raged scream of frustration punching the lockers before walking away. Hobi followed him worriedly.

"Did he try something again? I swear I am killing him this time". Yoongi seethed.

"What do you mean by again? Did he?" Jungkook's eyes opened in realising finally connecting the dots.

"Let's go home and discuss this, we are making a scene here". Leah said they left without being able to glance at me. Jungkook and I were the only ones left in the hallway.

I walked in front of Jungkook and reached the parking lot. Jungkook couldn't take it anymore.

Taking a hold of my arm" Why didn't you tell me this? One whole week you just pushed me away made me think I did something. One whole freaking week I am trying my best to know and sort it. You made me feel like a fool and suddenly pulled that prank card. If you told me this we could have avoided this in the first place, you know how much I suffered for not being there by your side not able to touch you. How awful I felt, do you have any freaking idea?. "

" The more you pushed me away the more you broke my heart, how could you? You just have to tell me that all of these could have been avoided ". Jungkook throwed his hands in exasperation.

I gaped at him in disbelief, out of all the reactions I thought Jungkook would give. I never expected this

" Not everything is about you Jeon, What do you want me to tell you? It's not easy. Tell you that I was almost raped and the person who raped me is back threatening me."

"Or do you want me to tell you how fucking scared I am of him".

His emotions had ranged from anger to guilt in the space of a few seconds. I didn't care, I was enraged.

"I am going to take a cab home, you can go by yourself". I mumbled.

My eyes stinged I felt his burning gaze on me.

The wounds I tried to hide are now open, now it's up to me how I will deal with it. Treat it or leave it infected.