Jungkook's POV

The sunlight seeps into the room through the curtain, since when do I have a window in my room.I wanted to groan as it was directly falling on my face but stopped as someone moved besides me.

Then I realised I was at Mia's place and all the memories of last night came crashing down.

I looked down at her as she was snuggled up against me, half of her body on top of me, her leg tossed over my torso, her face resting on my chest. Her locks delicately cascaded on her back some locks covering her face making her breathtaking. A beautiful sight to wake up. She looks so innocent only if she was half naked body said so. I could feel every curve.

Her half naked body pressed against me giving me a hard time to think straight.

Argh I need to get out of bed for my brain to function But how?!

Unconsciously my hands weaved in her silky soft hair pulling her closer towards me, intaking her scent. Her vanilla scent and addictive cologne she usually wears fills me up.

Slowly I tuck her hair, staring at her, she looks so innocent like a baby totally different from last night. The temptress I saw last night was nowhere to be seen. Can you imagine she is the same person who made me lose my mind?

Only God's know how I controlled myself. The visions from last night flashed in front of my eyes. Fuck the way her body moved against me, the sigh of pleasure whenever I kissed her neck, the way she wanted me to place my hands on her pulling me to her. I was completely when she moaned.

The real dilemma was whether I should continue or stop. One part of me wanted to continue but the other was not.

Double fuck when she boldly took off my belt I was so tempted to take her there and then but I didn't because whatever she would say I am not the one for her. I am an Asshole who doesn't care much about others. I don't care whether it's their first. I won't mean anything and for her it's something special.

But you did for her, You stopped because you know for her it means something.

Shut up! I stopped because she is my friend. Yes, I stopped.

Do all friends think of their friend as you think of her having her close to you feeling her skin kissing her being in her embrace? If yes then I guess the meaning of friend has changed.

Damn you, I think I feel something more than just lust for her. I don't know I don't want to hurt her. I did that to her. I hurt her. I have hurted her didn't you see the bruises I left on her skin? My anger is something I couldn't control.

But you are calm when she is around you, holding you.

I wanted to yell at the very moment wanting to shut that stupid voice. He sounds so right he knows that Mia means something more than I give her the credit for, she is so much more.

Can't you see I am a fucking liar, I am lying to her I am a coward I still didn't tell her about the whole JK charade. Since the first year I did nothing but make her life difficult. I was finding pleasure in teasing her.

I made her cry. She cried because she hates me. I just know who will love you when you have done nothing but hurt them. Maybe you are still hurting them. My approach was wrong. I could just let myself be how I am now, maybe she would not have hated me.

Stop assuming fucktard and ask her how she feels. Tell her the truth.

No I can't, she will never see my face if she gets to know I texted her just because of my damn curiosity wanting to know what happened between her and Jimin.

I saw how detached she was the other day, she looked lifeless, her eyes didn't hold any light, no warmth I am used to seeing. The glint in her eyes was gone. I was scared so fucking scared I never saw her like that and then Jimin he knew that's why he was so dejected.

The part she tries to hide so badly I was tricking her to tell me one way and another. Such a jerk I am thinking about my best friend behaving like a kid not talking to him, not trying to solve anything drowning in my jealousy seeing nothing ahead.

I don't want her to know this. This is making me insane. Never in my life I felt this never I thought I would have to worry what someone would think about me after high school. I don't want her to think of me as a playboy. I am how disgusting I am.

I needed to get away from her slowly and carefully. I removed her arms around me. She whined a little but didn't wake up.

I sighed getting out the bed tucking her in as she curled herself in a ball mumbling unintelligent words. I chuckled, placing a kiss on her forehead as she sighed pleased.

I sauntered to the kitchen without looking back. I don't trust my hands because I couldn't keep my hands off her. I need her close to me all the time and the need is getting stronger.

The grocery bags I bought yesterday were carelessly layed on the kitchen counter.

I took the items and stored them in the fridge. She is going to have a hella hangover so preparing her soup and light breakfast is better.

Preparing her breakfast, I thought of just going home placing the note on the breakfast but my stubborn heart won't listen.

Wanting to see her craving to be with her. Treacherous heart, even my body seems to betray me.

I was feeling jittery thinking about her. Tsk Tsk.

I took the tray of soup, ibuprofen and walked towards her bedroom. I heard a groan from inside, worried I would quicken my pace.

I saw her holding her head in her hands. I would have laughed loudly but I stopped Jesus Christ. She is still in her scandalous clothes.

Hearing me enter she looked up at me with her brown eyes and looked at me with so much pureness.

I internally let out a groan walking to her. She is going to be dead. Placing the tray on the nightstand I picked up the shirt she throwed last night handing it to her.

She looked at me Confused and then it clicked her letting a cute oh, her cheeks red. She was flustered.

Can somebody look hot and cute at the same time? How is it possible? It is when it is Mia Thorne, this wild flower can do anything which is impossible.

After all she is Ma Rose. She has that effect on me. Everything about her is just irreproachable.

Embarrassed, she just looked down playing with her fingers. In different situations I would have laughed out and teased her but now I can't. I just want to hug her tightly, kissing her whole face for being so ridiculously cute.

What are you doing to me Mia? Here I am fighting with everything in me to keep myself away from not feeling anything but here she is pulling me to her unknown force.

Taking both of me by surprise I lifted her and set her on my lap hugging her close to me. She feels so light in my arms so small, just perfect to fit in my arms. She stiffened for a while before relaxing, nuzzling her face on my collarbone.

I buried my face in her hair. This is definitely going to be different. I love how her hair smells,playing with hair we both stayed in each other's embrace for a while.

If only she didn't had a spilting headache, still keeping her in my embrace I reached for the medicine I kept in the tray with a water bottle. I tried to pull her away from me but she wouldn't budge she just nudged her nose in my collarbone denying to do so.

I was smiling like an idiot. This small gesture she does this little thing she does, she doesn't even know how it makes me feel.

"Mia you need to eat otherwise you will get sick?" I spoke softly and she just kept hugging me. I waited for a few minutes as she lifted her head and looked at me.

Slowly she took the pill from my hand and swallowed it giving me a glare. Yeah she is back

She would have preferred chocolate cake instead of this glare that meant that.

Cupping her face "That doesn't work that way if you want then you have to eat first". I frowned at her "You are so light you need to eat more, do you even eat?"

I growled worried at her. She just showed me her dazzling smile before locking her arms around my neck and hugging me.

Seems like I am not the only one who can't keep my hands to myself. She is not talking much. Let's just enjoy this is the only time when she is being so quiet. She is embarrassed and flustered.

These moments are rare, her being quiet rather than being grumpy and talking in her own language. I laughed at the thought.

"What? Why are you laughing?"

Annoyedly she looked at me but I just chuckled, nudging her nose with mine. She scrunched her nose at me.

"That won't work if you have to eat then only you will get to eat sweets".

"Bastard".

Ah Can my heart survive this, can I ever stop fighting against what I am feeling.

The answer is obvious No.

At first I wanted to stop doubting everything but now I want to try everything in my power to keep her.