❝𝙰𝚂𝙷𝚃𝚁𝙰𝚈❞

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I tell myself you don't mean a thing

And what we got, got no hold on me

But when you're not there I just crumble

I tell myself that I don't care that much

But I feel like I die 'til I feel your touch

Ashtray. People have told me i'm too good for him, i believed it at one point and tried to convince myself he didn't mean a thing to me. But ever since we kissed...it was hard to tell myself that. I'd literally die when i felt his touch, when he hugged me or simply kissed me. Oh, the butterflies that filled my stomach.

Only love, only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this

Must have been a deadly kiss

Only love can hurt like this

I guess it was the loving part. Love hurts, everyone knows that. The one kiss Ash and i shared made me not want to leave him, it was like his kiss was poisonous, deadly yet addicting. I love him and there was nothing stopping that, love hurts in different ways. Luckily, that wasn't hard to find out.

Say I wouldn't care if you walked away

But every time you're there I'm begging you to stay

When you come close I just tremble

And every time, every time you go

It's like a knife that cuts right through my soul

In our arguments, i'd always tell him "I don't care if you walked away, right now, and left for good" and when he actually goes to leave, i regret it and immediately try to get him to come back and stay with me, always. Its the feeling that he'd actually leave me that makes me feel scared, or my heart hurts, so much that it feels like a knife had been plunged into my chest. I guess i did need Ashtray?

Only love, only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this

Must have been a deadly kiss

Only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this

That feeling, that ONE feeling, is what made me fully realise how much love can do to you. How much it can hurt you, mentally and physically. Ash knew i needed him, he promised he'd never leave me. Even when he dies he wouldn't leave me, he promised and he always keeps his promises. I guess our first kiss was a deadly one.

Your kisses burn into my skin

Only love can hurt like this

But if the sweetest pain

Burning hot through my veins

Love is torture makes me more sure

His kisses. My, my, those were the best. They basically burn into my skin, they always linger afterwards. Love truly was torture, no matter how much you didn't want to like someone, love made you. Was it always bad? No. Do I regret loving Ash? At the start, yeah, but i finally understood what i loved about him, somethings nobody EVER saw. I love Ashtray and...Ashtray loves me. Always.

Only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this

Must have been the deadly kiss

Only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this

Your kisses burning to my skin

Only love can hurt like this

Only love can hurt like this (only love can hurt)

Save me, save me

Only love, only love

'Cause only love can hurt like this

And it must have been the deadly kiss......