❝𝙰𝚂𝙷𝚃𝚁𝙰𝚈❞

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I'm sorry that I did this

The blood is on my hands, I stare at my reflection

I don't know who I am, Practice my confession

In case I take the stand, I'll say I learned my lesson

I'll be a better man

Blood covered my hands, Fez stared at me in shock. Mouse wouldn't stop saying stuff about Y/n and I eventually lost it and smashed his head in with a hammer. Blood was on the floor, my hands, shirt. I was shocked at myself, I slowly looked up at Fez. "Bro..." he whispered, eyes moving towards the dead body. "I'll hide it, you clean up.." was he he said, i nodded slowly and walked off.

I got to the bathroom, looking into the mirror. I didn't recognise myself. I looked down at my soaked hands, the blood from the man i killed for the girl i love, i took a deep breath, it was an uneven one..I washed my hands, the blood washing away fast.

I'm packing up my things

And I'm wiping down the walls

I'm rinsing off my clothes

And I'm walking through the halls, I did it all for her

So I felt nothing at all, I don't know what she'll say

So I'll ask her when she calls

I rushed to my room and got changed, packing a bag, I couldn't stay here, i did something awful. It was worth it, if someone is speaking inappropriately about my girl, i'd do something about it...but I never expected to kill for her? I shoved my old clothes in the wash and left, not waiting to say goodbye to Fez.

Would you love me more

(Would you love me more)

If I killed someone for you?

Would you hold my hand?

(Would you hold my hand?)

They're the same ones that I used

When I killed someone for you

I began to panic. Would Y/n love me more? Would she love me less? She told me to never hurt anyone for her, i did something way worse. She'll probably be scared of me. Tears ran down my cheeks as I thought about it, would i lose her because of my anger and stupidity? Will she hate me? Will she even recognise me anymore...

Would you turn me in

(Would you turn me in)

When they say I'm on the loose?

Would you hide me when

(Would you hide me when)

My face is on the news?

'Cause I killed someone for you

Maybe she'd turn me in, tell them what i did wrong with no hesitation. Am I overthinking? I wouldn't blame her for doing so...but i just don't know if she would. I decided to go over to her house to say goodbye, tell her what happened so she doesn't freak out when my face is on the news.

I hear the sirens coming, I see the flashing lights

I'm driving through the suburbs

Wearing my disguise, I show up at her doorstep

To look her in the eyes, I tell her that it's me

But she doesn't recognise

It felt like i could practically hear the sirens, people looking for me. I pulled up outside Y/n's house and when she answered, her eyebrows furrowed. "Y/n.." I whispered, lips quivering. She didn't recognise me, i was wearing something i'd never wear and I was on the edge of crying, shes rarely seen me cry.

Can't you see I'm running?

Said I need a place to hide

I've gotta ask you something

Could you please let me inside?

Just let me explain, No, I wouldn't tell you lies

I know you'll understand

If you let me stay the night

"Can i stay here..for one night before i go?" I asked in a mumble. Y/n smiled gently, still not knowing what happened, she held her hand out for me to take. And i took it. We went up to her room, i took in the sight of it before i had to leave and lastly, i looked at the girl i killed for. My eyes teared up. "Ash, are you okay?" She whispered. "I gotta tell you something" I spoke without hesitation.

Would you love me more

(Would you love me more)

If I killed someone for you?

Would you hold my hand?

(Would you hold my hand?)

They're the same ones that I used

When I killed someone for you

"I-i killed someone.." her hand that was once holding mine, let go. It shattered my heart...she hated me. "My anger got the best of me..i do-i don't even recognise myself anymore, Y/n" i cried. "Ash..." she mumbled sadly, i started crying, harder than i've ever done..well- since i was a baby at least. I spent the rest of the night in her arms, she fell asleep before me and i knew that was my time to leave.

Would you turn me in

(Would you turn me in)

When they say I'm on the loose?

Would you hide me when

(Would you hide me when)

My face is on the news?

'Cause I killed someone for you

I grabbed a pen and paper then began to write a note for her, one last note before i leave, for god knows how long? I left the note on her desk, kissed her forehead before leaving...I'll miss her so much.