"Stop being a loser and just talk to him. I tired of seeing you both sulk. I know you two lameass miss each other so I don't understand this nonsense!"I exclaim.

Tom was finally out of the hospital and healing very fast. He is still weak but is getting his colouring and 'sass' back. He is staying at Amy's and I have been visiting him there for the last couple days.

Amy and I are finally on speaking terms. She told me why she was so pissed and I could totally understand where she was coming from. I truly felt guilty and a dumbass. This girl had my back since day one and the time she really needed me, I tried to run away. Again. If it wasn't for Calvin chasing me or if I didn't decide to change my mind last minute, I would have made the biggest mistake of all times.

She slapped my butt and said we were cool. I caught her in a good mood because let me tell you something, this girl can hold a grudge like nobody's business. I remember when we were five, I swapped her barbie with mine because I truly believed hers was better even though they were the exact same thing. She didn't speak to me for the whole year. A WHOLE YEAR! She would sit next to me at school, eat with me at lunch, stick up for me, come to my house for sleepovers but never said a word to me. I begged her to forgive me, I even made dad buy her another, more expensive barbie doll but the girl kept her mouth shut for a WHOLE YEAR. Then one day out of the blue she starts to talk to me. I might have cried. There was definitely snots and hugs and lots of apologies. I learnt my lesson. Don't piss of Amy. She will forgive you when she wants to forgive...not before then.

Good luck to my brother.

"Tom. Pick up your damn socks"

"Woman can't you see I'm crippled! I could barely walk"

Oh yeah...Tom has to be on wheelchair for couple more days. He has damaged his back and it is taking some while to heal. He's not always on it but he is not allowed to talk too much.

"You weren't crippled last night"

Nope. No. I'm going to pretend I didn't hear that. I'm definitely going to pretend I didn't see the heated grin my brother sent my best friend.

Delete. Delete. Delete.

"ANYWAYS!!!"I almost shout to get the attention of my brother back to me.

"You guys need to stop be immature and squash the beef"

"Squash the beef?"

"Don't be bitches and make up"

"No I'm pissed at him. I can't believe what he had done. He never even told me about you Charlie. Just kept it to himself. I was in hell and-"

"Look bro. You weren't winning any brother of the year trophy. I forgave you...I forgave him so forgive each other now. I'm not the same girl I was 5 years and neither are you two"I cut him off.

"He was going through his own shit."I say making him give me a weird look. "Don't look at me like that. I'm not making excuses for anyone. Calvin was in a shit place making him make dumb decisions. I don't know why he didn't tell you. Perhaps it was because he knew you would push him away when you clearly needed someone. He told me he never stopped looking for me"

"He didn't"Tom confirmed.

"No doubt what he done was shit. Perhaps shady in your eyes but there is no love lost in his eyes bro. It is hurting me to see you two be like this because of me."

"Fuck Charlie"he groans pulling him hair. "Look I will think about it okay?"

"Okay"

"Good...now where are the twins?"

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You would never guess where I am right now. Honestly you would never because I never imagined myself here right now.

I am having lunch with Calvin's mother. Who would have thought? Not me. Definitely not me. But here I am having a lovely lunch with my mates mum.

"It's lovely to see you here darling. I'm so glad you decided to come back"Poppy says after our meal arrived.

I placed my napkin on my lap because I didn't want to risk getting my new jeans dirty. They were already my favourite.

"Yeah me too. I'm glad I came back too. It was the right thing to do. I knew redwood pack needed help and I could give that help"

"Calvin is sure glad to have you back"

Calvin never had me for him to be 'glad'. He never missed me because I was never his to begin with. That was the truth no matter how much it hurt. And I didn't know why it hurt...why it still hurts.

I didn't reply to Poppy because I knew she was trying to matchmake. Poppy made it clear that she wants her son and I to be together but it is not something that can happen right now. I'm not sure if its something that can happen ever.

"The kids seem to really get along with him"

"The twins love their father. They loved him before they knew he was theirs so it wasn't hard for them to accept him"I replied.

"Yes. Isn't it complicated for them that their parents are not together"

This woman.

I didn't dare look at her. Instead I forced on my food but I did reply.

"No. They seem to understand. My babies are not normal children. Old souls I call them soemtimes"I chuckle.

"You raised them well. You done it alone but now they have their father too"

"They will always have him. I promise. I would never take them away from him. I can see the love he has for them and them him."I but in before she said anything more.

"Off course darling. I'm sorry about everything. As the Luna of this pack, I should have done more"she says looking down at her untouched salad.

"Poppy. It's fine. I'm not angry or upset at you. I was a kid. They were just kids. Assholes sure. But you weren't responsible for how they treated others, their parents should have done better and I should have definitely said something. I just didn't want to make it worst. They can't do it now so please don't feel guilt for how I was treated. It sucked but it also taught me something"I say giving her hand a squeeze which she returns.

She gives me a small smile and we got in to small talks. The rest of the lunch was great. I found out things about Poppy I didn't know. For instance, she is a twin. She was actually best friends with Sam before they found out they were mates. She can't cook but can bake, loves shopping and she once shaved her hair because she was bored. I found that I really liked Poppy and once you got over her fancy clothing, you would see that she's an amazing person which a cool sense of humour. She has lovely long brown hair, round hips and little freckles on her nose and cheeks. She already loves her grandchildren and hinted she would like more but I decided to ignore that.

After lunch with Poppy, I went to catch up with Mi na and Cole because I missed them so much even though I see them everyday.

Cole was cooking so Mi na and I decided to paint our nails. The kids were out with Dylan and Calvin. So how those two became tight. They even have inside jokes. Even though Cole is not saying anything, I know he is jealous but to be fair Cole has been spending time with my brother. Cole said Tom reminds him of his cousin that he doesn't see much but misses dearly.

Calvin and Cole have become friends too and Mi na decided to forgive him because he called her pretty lady once. Once. Said he was charming af. She said he was sexy too which earned her a pinch on the butt by her mate who happened to hear what she said.

Since Calvin is spending time with my friends, it means I'm spending time with him too. He is still his quiet self but I discovered couple things about my mate that I didn't know before. For instance... he's funny. Didn't know that. He's a nerd as well as been a totally badass. So I might have been watching him train with the boys time to time. He might be shirtless during this time. He might even cause butterflies in my stomach. He might even catch me staring at his sexy body time to time...maybe even send me winks. Maybe I blush... a lot.

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I woke up and looked at the clock beside me. 2:34 am. I was confused on why I suddenly woke up and why I had the urge to get up and go to the living room. After my unsuccessful attempt to go to bed, I decided it was time to get my ass up and make myself a warm milk.

Before I walked into the kitchen, I stopped to see Calvin looking at the wall unmoving. I could feel his distress from where I was standing.

I walked towards him, he didn't even move nor did he say something. Puzzled, I touched his shoulders, still nothing.

"Calvin"I say his name.

This pulls him out of wherever he had gone.

"You okay?"I asked softly, my hands still on his shoulders.

He shook his head as if to clear it. Touched my hands that were on his shoulders. He pulled them off and I can admit it hurt. I thought he was shrugging me off but instead he pulled me to him. I found myself on his lap again. His head buried to my neck, noses touching my neck, he hugged me to him. My arms moved to hug him back, hold him even he's holding me. Why do we find ourself in this position?

"Wanna talk about it?"I whisper.

He doesn't say anything for awhile, just breathes me in. I thought he was ignoring my question but he then answered it.

"Couldn't sleep. I just have this nagging feeling about something bad happening and I don't know what."

I didn't know what to say. Could this be the reason why I woke up too? Or did my wolf sense the distress coming from Calvin.

"I think something is going to happen. I just hope the pack is ready."

"They will be"I promised.

He pulled away to look at me in my eyes. His eyes were soft, warm and there was a hint of pain in them. All I wanted to do was take that pain away.

"You're great you know that."he whispers.

"Don't need you to tell me that champ"I joke.

The counter of his lips tips up but he doesn't smile nor laugh.

"Thank you"he says out of the blue.

"For what?"I ask with a raised brow.

"For being you."he replies softly.

His eyes showing admiration and never leaving mine. I suck in a breath and stare back to his intense eyes, they were tender and kind but there was something else there. The warmness of his eyes drags me in. Quite literally. I found myself leaning to him and him to me.

Damn it to hell, I'm going to kiss him. I wet my lips.

No! Don't complicate shit. Don't you dare kiss him Charlotte Jones. You guys are in a good place, could say you two are friends. You are finally on the same page. The twins love him, the twins love their grandparents too. Life is great. Don't let your lady parts and your heart mess this up.

I was a breath away from touching his lips. His eyes closed and mine focused on him.

Surprising myself -because to be frank didn't think I had it in me -and surprising him (as in scare the shit out of him not really but kinda)I jumped from his lap. I also fell but we are don't going to dwell on that.

"I am ummm"I point with my thumb to his room behind me. "I don't have a lame excuse so I'm ummm just gonna you know *yawn* I'm suddenly ever so tired *another fake yawn* so goodnight"

I quickly turn around and run to his room but before I entered I heard him say

"I will let you run now Charlotte but it's gonna happen. We are going to happen."

Damn it to hell.

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Sorry for the missed errors