Have you ever heard of the cartoon Tom and Jerry? You know Tom the dumb cat that never catches his prey (because lets be honest he loves the chase) and Jerry the cheeky mouse that has a death wish (probably likes the chase too). You have heard of it? Good. I love that cartoon and it's great because I get to see the live action.

Except it's not Tom and Jerry that I have the pleasure on seeing...because they don't really exist....but my two best friends.

Cameron, Lily, Liam and I stay seated at the front porch laughing our ass off while Dylan is getting chased by Mi na with a...chair?

"Go get him mum"Liam supports his mum.

"Come Uncle Dylan. Stop laughing"Cameron laughs out.

"Boys are so dumb"Lily comments shaking her head.

Both boys head snaps to her.

"Are not! Girls are dumb"Liam argues.

"Are too! Girls are smart. Right mummy?"

She had to get me involved. All eyes were on me now.

"Girls and boys are both very smart honey."

"I'm cool with that answer"Cam says shrugging before turning his attention back at his Aunty and uncle.

Lily and Liam glare at each other but don't say anything to each other.

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I haven't spoken to Amy yet. I don't even know if she knows I'm still here or not. I decided that I should probably man up and visit my brother. I don't know if Calvin told him I'm still here but from what I heard, Tom isn't allowing him in the room anymore. I don't know what that's about but something is telling me that I might be the cause of it.

I was walking toward his room when Amy came out. She didn't see me at first but when her gaze fell on me, I saw anger and disappointment flash in her eyes before it went blank.

She pissed at me. And let me tell you something. When Amy is pissed she's cold. She's so cold you could freeze to ice by just her glare. Not literally off course.

"Amy" I start but she cuts me off.

"I can't believe you Charlie!"she snaps.

"He finally wakes up. Something we both wanted. You know the first thing he asked for?"she asks me but didn't wait for my answer.

"You"she says coldly. "Your name was the first word he said when he woke up"

Jealousy wasn't laced in her voice. She sounded anger and tired and looked even worst.

"I wrote him a letter to explain"

"He woke up because of you. Then the second you hear he's awake you just abandoned him"

"That's not what happened"I say

She ignores me.

"I have been loyal to you to the fucking T Charlie. I have been a good friend and when we both needed you, you decided to just leave."

I didn't say anything else and neither did she. She just walked past me and I stood in the hallway.

I never thought about it in her way. I was being selfish. I was only thinking about myself. I can bullshit myself by telling myself that I was protecting my kids when in the truth... I was protecting me. I didn't for a second think about how Amy would have felt.

Her mate tried to kill himself because he thought I was dead. Probably blamed himself because he was a shit brother for no reason. He probably woke up because of my scent and I planned to disappear like nothing happened.

She was wrong about one thing. I never planned to abandon my brother. I was going to see him again but not now. I wrote him that letter to explain to him when I was leaving and that he shouldn't blame himself. I told him I forgave him and in time we could be a family again.

I was being selfish. The truth is that I'm scared shitless. I'm scared of feeling what I felt 5 years ago. I don't want to be weak anymore. I'm a Ace wolf but what I realised it that hasn't changed me from the inside but on the out. I'm physically stronger, I have skills that normal wolves don't. I can kill without even shifting. I'm fit and make sure I'm fit in my human form too. Physically I'm not that same girl but inside, I'm still hurting like I did before.

There is no doubt in my mind or heart, I forgive my brother. I know he feels like crap for what he had done but I am to blame too. I should have just told him. I should have told him about our mother but I didn't because I thought I was doing the right thing. That stupid secret made our father walk out, probably to his death and I didn't want that for my brother. I also know my brother loved my mother, flaws or not. I didn't know why because she wasn't always great. She was always gone. When she wasn't she was a bitch. At least to me she was.

Before I could chicken out, I entered the room. Tom was sleeping. It has been not more the two days since I had seen him. Not much has change, other than he's out of coma and some of his wounds have heals but not by much.

My hands are a bit sweating so I wipe them on my jeans. I swallow as I take closer steps to my brother. Someone I hadn't seen for years. Someone I have missed for more than a decade.

When he opened his eyes, I couldn't hold it in anymore. I just started crying and let me tell you something about myself, I'm a ugly crier. My eyes shut together and my lips do shit without my brain when controlling it.

I didn't know I had an ugly crying face until some kid I had crush on when I was cry straight out told me. After that, I had started covering my face every time I cried for some reason I had allowed Tom to see me like this. I always had.

It's probably how he knew it was me.

"Charlie?"he says in a weak voice.

That's all it took for me to jump on him and hug him like my life depended on.

"I'm so so sorry Charlie"he says over and over again as I cry in his arms.

It's only when he winces that I let him go. I stood near him.

"Don't do that ever again"

That's my first words to my brother that I haven't seen in five years.

"I'm sorry"he says.

I shake my head "let's just forget about that. I don't care about all that. I'm just glad you are okay" I tell him.

"I'm glad you're okay too. I thought you were dead"he whispers.

"I'm sorry I left. I had to go" I reply.

"I understand. I was a shit brother. I didn't protect you. I should have. I was so blind to everything that was in front of me. I'm sorry about Calvin too"

I froze. Did he know about Calvin already? Who had told him? Is that the reason why he isn't allowing him to enter the room? Am I the reason why two best friends who are more like brothers aren't talking?

"Calvin and I are complicated"I explained.

"It's my fault. I'm sorry he rejected you"

"I'm not"I shrugged.

And that's the truth. I'm not sorry he had rejected me because it gave me the excuse to be me now. I have great friends who I consider my family. Yes I would have been an Ace wolf whether I stayed or not but I was able to explore and find myself in the moonlight pack. I was allowed to be myself and grow as a person. I didn't have to watch my back. I'm someone that one can respect. I wouldn't have been me if I didn't leave. I would have been that stuck in that mess forever.

Tom looked in my eyes to see whether I was telling the truth or not. He had always done that...well always expect that night.

Then something changed in his face.

"Charlie?"

"Hmm"

"Why are you eyes blue..?"

"Long story. I will explain when you get better"I reply

"Why can't you just tell me now?"

"It's better to show than tell"I respond.

I take a seat next to him and that's where I sat for the next three hours as I told him everything I have been doing for the last 5 years. And I told him everything except me being an Ace wolf.

Don't judge. No one knows I am an Ace wolf except for those who found out that with me, the twins, Liam, Amy and couple of the enforcers I'm moonlight pack. I will tell him. When he heals. It can be overwhelming. Trust me...speaking from experience here.

I told him about the twins. He was fuming when he heard about what Calvin had done and I guess it was something Calvin should have told him but in my defence...I thought the jerk already told him. I don't see them talking for a long long long time, even when I explained that Calvin didn't know about the twins until a day ago and that he had been drunk. Tom refused to see reason and I have to do something about this.

Amy brought him food but didn't stop to chat. I know she's pissed at me but she's just going to have to get over it.

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Mi na were on the couch talking about our day before Calvin entered our sight. We stopped talking straightaway and both stared at the man in front of us.

His hair was messy. He had five o'clock and bags under his eyes but somehow he looks as handsome as ever. He had his dark Levi jeans, white shirt. He had his keys in one hand. He stood at the entrance just staring at me.

I hadn't seen him for two days. From what I have heard, he had been in meetings all day, probably letting people know he had children. An heir to his title. It was something you had to pronounce as soon as a child is born but since he didn't know they existed until couple of days ago he had to do it ASAP. He didn't even talk to me about it. I decided I would let this go. It wasn't a big deal or anything. It wasn't like he told the whole Werewolf world that he has an heir. Future Alpha. My son. An Alpha. Ok so I'm a little stressed because the whole world knows who I am. Who he is. My children are now targets but I will protect them.

"I will let you two talk"Mi na says suddenly like she felt the tension between us.

Traitor.

I didn't move. As soon as Mi na left he decided to say something rather than just stare at me.

"I want you and the kids to stay with me"

Out of all the things I thought he would say. I didn't think he would say that.

"It's the middle of no where"I replied.

It's not really. It's private but it's not that isolated from everything else. The land is huge.

"No it's not"

"I don't know Calvin"I start to say.

"I'm not really asking Charlotte"

"Excuse me?"

"You robbed me of 4 years with my kids. I missed their first step, their first word, their first laugh...everything"

"Is that how it's going to be? You keep throwing it in my face. I know you don't think my reasoning is invalid but it made sense at that time. It was the right thing to do at the time."I snapped.

How many times do I have to apologise for that. I'm done. I'm not doing it again. He can honestly just suck it.

"It's going to take me time to swallow the pill Charlotte. You right. If we are going to move on from this. I need to stop bring it up."

"The kids are sleeping"I decided to change the subject.

"I got their car seats in my suv."

"You got a suv?"I asked instead of responding.

I know Calvin has a motorbikes and a truck but didn't know he had an SUV.

"Thought I need something that was family friendly"he shrugged.

I didn't move and neither did he. He sighed.

"Please Charlotte. I don't want to miss any more moments"

I would be evil to refuse now.

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Sorry for the missed errors. You can point it out and I would correct. Thanks