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Tom PoV

Everything that Amy said kept repeating in my head and I knew I was going to drive myself crazy but it made so much sense. I knew Amy wasn't lying which meant that I possible made the biggest mistake of my life. I hurt my sister, my only sibling because I was convinced that she was the bad person in this story. The only thing my sister done wrong was be selfless. I treated her like hell but she still care about my feeling. She didn't tell me because she knew it would hurt my feeling. She turned out to be everything my father wished her to be whilst I turned out to be everything my father didn't want me to be.

For the first time in my life, I was glad he wasn't around to see the type of person I have become because he would have been very disappointed.

My sister was gone because of me. I don't know where she was, I didn't know what to do or where I should go to look for her. Just like my father, I couldn't smell here in the pack territory nor could I feel her. She hasn't even shifted yet, she hasn't even meet her wolf. How was she going to survive? Was she even alive? There is no way she could be alive if the rogue got to her. This is all my fault. I have been looking for here all day yesterday but no one knew where she was. She seemed to have disappeared.

-now you care?-

I am not in the mood to talk wolf.

-No fuck you Tom. I just lost the chance with my mate. I have let you control me for the past five years. Allowed you to tell me to shut up and boss me around but no anymore. I have told you thousands of times not to treat sister like that. Did you ever realise it was her 18th birthday two days ago-

Like cold water thrown at me. I straightened my back. How did I not notice my baby sister turned 18? How can I forget her birthday? What if she found her mate and they ran away together.

I got up from the couch and ran to my phone which was across the room and I quickly called my best friend and now Alpha of my pack. He picked up on the third three.

"What do you want Tom?"he answered the phone.

"Calvin, did any leave the pack today?Any males?"

"No. Why do you want to know?"

"Calvin. I fucked up"my voice broke at the end.

Calvin didn't reply for few seconds, possible confused and shock at my voice. I sound like I was about to cry- which to be honest, I was trying very hard not to but the lump in my throat was hard to control.

"I am on my way"is all he said before hanging up.

I just sat on the floor, staring at the wall.

I really fucked up.

Few minutes later, I heard the door bell ring. I knew who it was so I stood up from where I was sitting and made my way to the front door.

"Don't you ever wear a shirt?"Calvin teasily asked me walking past me as soon as I opened the door.

I didn't reply. I knew he was just trying to lighten the mood but I was even in the right state to crack a smile. I shut the door and threw myself on the couch next to him after grabbing myself a beer from the fridge. We didn't say another to which other for couple of minutes. Both just stared at the TV. I didn't even know what we were watching but I don't think any of us really cared. It seems like we both had a lot in our mind.

I could feel the side glance he was giving me. His hair was messier the usual. Calvin normally has a straight face on but today he has an ugly frown which is making me more depressed.

"What's up with your face?"

"Don't want to talk about it"he says leaning backwards whist rubbing his face.

He then faced me and gave me a questioning look. The thing about Calvin is that he never shows that much emotion. When he does, he doesn't like to talk about his problems. Which is understanding, he has been through a lot. He hates pity. He doesn't like letting people in after that incident and I can't say I blame him. He is just not an open person. This doesn't mean he's not fun or he's grumpy all the time. I know he is hurting and tries to act normal around his friends and parents but I know the truth.

He's funny when he want to be. He is fun the most when he's drunk. Total idiot he is. The drunk nights are the only nights he sleeps. After his rough past, I don't think he would be able to ever sleep.

"What about you?"he asked me snatching the remote out of my hands and stealing my beer.

I didn't have it in my to complain. I didn't care enough too. I quickly argued with myself on telling Calvin everything. Unlike Calvin, I liked to talk about my feelings, and share few things.

"I met my mate"I said with a sigh.

I could feel Calvin tense up beside me. He slowly sat straight and looked at me waiting for me to continue. I let out another sigh.

"She rejected me"I tell him.

"Oh"was all he said before staring at the TV again.

"yeah"awkward silence followed after that.

I can't help but feel disappointed at his respond but what exactly was I expecting. This is Calvin, he doesn't really react to much now days.

"I am sorry to hear that Tom. I know you wanted to meet your mate so bad."

"Yeah ... but I am their the only chance I have to having kids right?"

"Why did she reject you? Was it because she found out that you're the biggest whore"he looked at me with a small forced smile.

I shook my head return the face small smile.

"I can't believe I am saying this but I wish that was the reason"I took my beer back.

"Who is she? Is she from the back? Did she have a boyfriend.. wait is that why you asked if someone left the pack, a male?"

"Amy and she-"

"Wait as in, fearless Amy?"He asked with a sudden interest.

I just raised my eyebrow.

"Yes Fearless Amy. And by the way have you noticed how hot she has gotten..."

"Wait. You let her reject you? I thought you were so excited to find your mate"

"I don't know man. I didn't accept her rejection because I know at the end of the day she would run in my arms"I reply sending him a wink.

He just chuckled and shook he's head.

"I doubt it. Why did she reject you?"

"Man, I really fucked up"I said slip my beer again.

"What do you mean?"

"She rejected me because of the way I treated Charlie"

When I said Charlie's name. He tensed up a bit. Just enough for me to notice. I decided to ignore it again and get to my point.

"Charlie was hiding something from me. Turns out she wasn't the reason why my father is gone. Four years ago Charlie and Amy caught my mother kissing another guy. She told my father and but kept it from me because she didn't want me to lose another parent"

I was so frustrated. Just remembering what Amy told me keeps bugging me. I felt so bad.

"Wait what?"

He takes his foot of the brown leather couch and softly places it on the floor. He leans closer and snatches my beer again. Then he gobbles it down. I looked at him as if he grew another head. What's up with this dude.

"You may continue.."he says placing his feet back on my couch.

"That day she came up crying, I knew something happened because Charlie never cried. I was upstairs and I could hear dad asking her what happened, then you called so I missed the rest of their talk. After I finished the call. I walked downstairs into a intense room. Dad said..."

Then realised something as soon as I said this sentence" he was going for a walk.. And how I should take care ..of.. Charlotte"

"Tommy baby"I heard a female's voice say.

My head snapped to the door and I could feel Calvin watching me with wearily eyes.

"Tom..."

Mum.

Both Calvin and I jumped up at the same time. I balled my hands into a fist. Every thing just hit me and I was suddenly very pissed. I couldn't control my sudden anger or the change in my size. I could feel the blood rushing through my veins and my heart beating against my rips.

"Whoa dude, calm down. Look don't ......."

I zoomed out and stopped listening to him. The bitch came home. At the moment, I didn't care if she was my mother or not. I had no respect for her.

I heard her high pitch voice again. She walked in the front room and stood still when she saw how I looked. I was slowly shifting to my werewolf, I was trying so hard to not completely shift because I knew I was going to kill her on the spot. I jumped at her. I wanted to hurt her, but I noticed I was not getting any closer to her because Calvin was pulling me back. I felt my body changing faster as my anger rises and rises. I wasn't going to shift completely. I was in my werewolf form.

"What's going on here. Tommy son are you-"

"You slutty piece of shit."

"Whoa dude relax man"I heard Calvin say as he pulled and pulled me away for her.

"I will kill you. It's all you fucking fault"

"For fuck sake Tom. CALM THE FUCK DOWN YOU IDIOT"Calvin yells using his alpha voice.

My body reacted to the strength of his voice and I was back to my human body.

My mother tried to walk closer to me but I just took a step back.

"Don't you dare come near me"I say.

"Tommy, what on Earth is going on with you?"she asks.

I wanted to smack that innocent look on her face because she was anything but innocent. I couldn't hold back my growls. I had no idea where all this angry came from.

"Why don't you start on telling me where you have been Mother?"I snap.

"I have been at work, like a normal person. We don't want these humans knowing we are werewolf"

"Right"

I folded my arms and looked at her. Really looked at my mother, the woman who I thought was a blessing, an angel. She still had her jacket on, her purse was thrown across the room. She got scared when I tried to jump on her. We have this strong eye contact, none of us blink. I could tell that she was intimidated, especially in the presence of an Alpha

"Ok ok ok. I went shopping"she chocked out breaking her eye contact.

"Don't mean to interrupt this very serious moment.. Where is your shopping bags?"Calvin jumps in looking around.

"Yeah, where is the bags"

"I didn't find anything"she replied quickly, shrugging.

She was lying. I knew it, Calvin knew it.

"You know what I don't understand Calvin?"I tilt my head, my eyes never leave my mother in front of me.

"What"

"How can someone allow their own child take the blame. Allow their own child to be treated like shit. How someone could cheat on their wonderful husband, their own soul mate?"

The look on my mother's face was priceless, almost made me laugh out loud but the guilt kept me from doing anything like that.

"How can you hide that you cheated on dad? You let Charlie cover for you. She has been like a slave. You let your daughter get treated like a lap dog. What kind of a mother are you"

There was this eerie feeling in the atmosphere. So negative and tense. She stood still, said nothing, blinked not once. Then all of the sudden..

"It's her fault. Your father didn't have to find out if she kept her mouth shut"she yelled out.

"Charlotte done the right thing, something she didn't have to do. Something you should have done. You should have kept your legs close too" Calvin defends Charlie.

"I think you should leave"I say in my calm voice.

"What? You can't kick me out. This is my home"she cries out.

"I would listen if I was you lady"

"Thanks Calvin. Do me a favour and sit back down. I got this" I say to him.

He put his hand up as if he surrendered.

"It's cool. I'm sitting back down. Just don't do something stupid. I can't be asked to dig a grave"he replies which made my mother gasp.

"Tommy baby. Don't be foolish. We can be a fami-"I didn't let her continue.

"Don't finish that sentence. We stopped being family when dad walked out of that door. No scrabble that. When you kissed that man."

"Baby don't say that. It was a mistake. I won't see him again. I promise. Don't make me leave"she begs walking closer and closer to me.

"I swear if you take another step, I will kill you."

I wasn't joking. The anger that I keep holding down won't stay down for long. I wanted to rip her head off her body so much it starting to hurt me.

I can't believe I once called her mother. Hugged her, kissed her on the cheeks and told her that she was the best mummy in the world. I once believed she was. I thought she wasn't crying when dad died because she wanted to stay strong for us. Show us brave face. She wasn't mourning with us because she didn't care. She never cared.

"I'm gonna give you one chance. Leave the town. Go away with that man you cheated dad on. If I see you again. Anywhere this pack's territory. I will kill you slowly and painfully"I splat out.

This scared her as her eyes grew wider.

"Tommy don't do this. I'm your mother"

" A mother would never let her child cover for her."

" I never loved your father, you can not force love darling"

"Oh so that is good enough for you to cheat on him? I am not angry that you didn't love dad. If you did not love him then you could have broken things with him. You could have had this conversation with him. But you didn't "

"I didn't want to be the person who broke this family"she cries out.

"LOOK AROUND, BOTH YOU AND I BROKE THIS FAMILY. "I shout.

"Charlie is gone. Dad is dead. The family is already broken."I almost whispered as my voice became weak.

I had this lump in my throat. Tears were begging to escape from my eyes. I was so frustrated, angry and hurt. I didn't care if I cried my eyes out.

"Just go"I say sounding like I was a broke little boy.

"Tom-"she began to say.

"JUST FUCKING GO"I roared out.

This made her scatter around. She quickly grabbed her bag and run out of the house.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and I knew it was Calvin. I couldn't help myself, I let the tears come out. I taste the saltines of my tears. The bitter feeling in my guts burned me like fire.

I was truly alone now.

"I need to be alone. I just going to go to my room"I say quietly hoping Calvin heard me clearly because I don't want him to follow me.

I walked upstairs slowly, opened my bed room door and walked to my bed. But when I got closer and closer, I noticed there was a note left on my bed.

My heart started beating out of my chest. The first thought that came into my mind was at that Charlie left that letter.

I jumped to my bed and quickly held the note in my hand. It was definitely Charlie who left this note. I can spot her handwriting from a long distance.

The letter became blurry. I knewby now my eyes would be red. I haven't cried since father pasted away, even then I barely cried. I believed in boys don't cry shit. I didn't care if the whole pack saw me crying. For many years I have treated my sister like shit, all I got from her was respect and kindness. I have let dad down and that hurt me the most. I keep pointing fingers in who to blame for the broken family. Only now I noticed it was me.

"Mind if I join you champ"I heard Calvin say behind me.

This boys never listens, does he? I could help but let out a small chuckle. I know he was trying to be supportive like I was trying to be supportive when he was going through a rough time but just like he knew back then, I know now, there was nothing that could make me stop feeling the way I do right now.

"She left this note"I handed him the note and let a big breath out that I didn't notice I was holding.

After he finished reading it. He placed it on the bed. He didn't say anything not did he look at me. He just sat there debate whether to something to himself.

"I cried like a bitch"I say trying to lighten the mode.

"I wish I could cry"he replies.

"I'm actually alone. Argh I'm such a fool"

"You're a fool"he agrees.

I gave him a look but he didn't look at me, just stared at his hands. He is not even trying to make me feel better.

"But you are not alone. You got me and don't think you're only reason why Charlotte left... Look. She dealt with you for four years. I'm sure she could have dealt with you a bit longer. You might be part of the reason but not all."

"I am still a reason. I-I don't even know what to do. I don't deserve anything good to happy to me. I don't deserve to be your beta. I-"

Calvin cut me off.

"Tom you fucked up. Trust me I know how that feels. The guilt your feeling, I know how that feels. Listen to me Tom and listen to be very carefully... there is no one else who deserves this titles more than you. You would always be my beta"

Usually I would reply with"Is this when we kiss or.." so lighten the moment but I wasn't in the mood so I just nodded and asked to be alone.

Calvin nodded and left without saying another word.