Dear passengers ... Kindly fasten your seatbelt .. we're going to land in few seconds...

The air hostess ' s voice blanches far away from me asif I am shrunken to a spiral shell...

His diary is at my chest where I hold it still , for long time since I read those last lines.....

I clench my teeth as I can't control the tears that threatens to rush down...

I stare at the roof of the plane ...At this moment I am lost somewhere in a huge vacant island.. I search myself and try to recollect , but fail despondently..

" Ma'am... Excuse me.. please fasten your seatbelt..."

I respond to the air hostess in a jerk... Tears roll down beyond my control.. At once , I wipe it off before somone she notices...

" Yea.. " I buckle the belt around my waist , still holding the diary to my chest...

While the flight runs the runway , my heary trembles to hold my sob... I strive to hide it by clutching his diary asif its my only lifeforce...

I am clueless why I feel so sad.. why do I feel like crying...why do my throat dries out of downcast...why do I sit like melancholic...

I think a lot but fail to get the answer..

But , at this moment I want to cry ... I want to cry very badly...

The moment I get down from the plane, Shravan calls me...

Think of the devil...!

But , I don't want to talk with him... Even though he does nothing wrong , I don't want to pick his call now.. May be I need some space to get over with this..

I mute his call...

Anish anna is at airport to receive me...

There's no warm welcome as the situation is not good... He notices my sad ridden face. Tapping my shoulders , he consoles me...

" It's disheartening to all of us Suman.. This is the time we have to be strong and granny will get well soon... She's waiting to see you.. stay strong "

I nod slightly to him...

Actually , Shravan's diary equally makes me sorrowful to my Granny's health condition...

Something rolls between my cells and it suddenly gets struck at my throat.. It steadily enlarges... I need to cry out that something which makes me discomfort...

I engulf the unhappiness that provokes my insecurity..

We go to the hospital directly.. when we approach the ICU , I feel like dying...

Anna nod to go inside the room... He stays outside as the hospital policy doesn't encourage too many visitors at ICU...

I open the door to see my granny ... I hear the silence predominantly in between the occasional beep sound of the cardiac monitor...

I can bearly find my granny amidst the tubes that run around her to keep her alive...

She is so feeble ...

I touch the wrinkles on her forehead which tells her age...

" Granny...."

I whisper at her ears , hoping that she will hear me...

She's not in a state of responding... I know...

Still , I call her again...

This time , her eye lids move a bit..

" Granny...I am here ... Your suman is here ... Don't worry... You are going to be alright... "

When I begin to speak , the barrier that ties my sorrows breakers out ...All my sorrows tear out like the down pour...

At this moment ...I forget shravan ... I forget his diary... I forget my pointless confusions...

What I see infront of me is , my granny who has brought me with all her love and care... I cry out my heart , holding her hands..

I badly want her to wake up and laugh with me... She is the one who can teach me to handle my emotions..I need someone to guide me why I am like this..

She can understand me better than anybody else..

I sob , leaning my head near her shoulder...

" Suman...."

I hear her calling my name softly... Her voice is weak , shaky yet love filled..

" Granny..."

I look up with elation..

" Anna... Granny called my name..."

I shout in happiness...

My face turns bright instant to see her smiling...

She's not able to talk but can convey the message that she's happy to see me..

I press my lips on her forehead..

" Granny... You're a strong lady..."

I try to bring the normal conversation...

" Who's here to make me strong...?"

She asks me back with a smirk in her eyes...

I laugh with tears.. " Granny... You haven't changed even a bit !!"

I tease her back...

Anish anna stands aside , witnessing our conversation...

By the time , the duty doctor , checks her vitals and calls anna ...

" She's good now... But need to be under observation... we will start her oral intake ... Let's see ... Don't disturb her ... She needs rest.. "

As the doctor advices , I wink at Granny...

She close her eyes in tiresome...

" Suman... I need some homemade food.. "

" No ... We have to give you only liquid diet as of now..If your body accepts then we will go on..."

Doctor replies to my Granny's wish ...

I press her hand to reassure.

Anna has to stay at hospital ... I return home... Now , I feel light...my granny is out of danger now...

Sam... I can understand ... Take care of your granny... Just text me that you're good...!!!

I read Shravan's text...

He is able to understand my silence too...

How can he read me from distance too .!!!

I wonder at his understanding, but keep the mobile away as I can't fathom what I am upto ...

Moreover , this is the time I have to spend sometime with my family...

Amma and appa are happy that Granny is okay ...They believe that it's because of me though it's not...

I lie down after the shower...

I carefully switch my phone to flight mode before sleeping...

When I get up ,I see his number of missed calls..

His each text is requesting me to pick the call...

I know he must be scared..

The blue tick will suggest him that I have read all his messages. He will be worried than anything to see me muted..

I am in a dilema whether to talk with him... But the intellect in me stops from doing so..

First I have to be clear what I am thinking... Why I am sad after reading his diary.. otherwise ,I will create trouble for myself as well as for him..I have to be clear first..

Atleast I need someone to discuss my problem to get my mind clear...

I fiddle my fingers to feel Shravan's status..

He must be worrying a lot... scared too...

My eyes moisten to understand his love for me...

Huffing heavy hearted , I crisscross the room in distress...

" Suman..."

I turn to the voice ...

Divya akka!!!

I feel like all my burdens vanish into thin air...

" Akka..." I run to her and embrace tight...

I huff in relief in a hope that I will be okay...

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