It was a silent walk back to the mansion with me trailing behind Beatrice while Mercy and Sylvia trailed behind me. I was really tired. My body felt heavy and not from mana that was inside me. It was exhausting, feeling like I was lugging around the weight of the world. I was surprised when even my vision started to blur.

"My lady!" Someone called from somewhere and I found myself on my hands and knees on the ground, head pounding.

I looked up to see Beatrice looking down at me and Sylvia was kneeling beside me an arm over my shoulders keeping me up. "I feel really tired." I muttered confused by how heavy my eyelids felt and the rest of my body felt like it was falling asleep without my brains permission.

"You've used too much mana." Beatrice explained but didn't seem all that worried, which saddened me. "Sylvia when we get back to the mansion take her to her room and give her blood. She hasn't had any in a while if I'm correct."

"Yes my lady." Sylvia agreed helping me stand and I had no choice but to lean on her. Suddenly her scent filled my nose and my throat felt parched as my stomach clenched painfully. I needed blood. I could feel it now. The hunger for it inside of me. It was scary, but I knew that it was now a part of me so I accepted it, though didn't do anything about it in the current moment.

"Mercy, come, we're going back ahead of them." Beatrice ordered Mercy who looked at me and Sylvia worriedly before hurrying to follow just behind Beatrice as she walked away.

I couldn't really understand why it hurt so much watching her walk away, but the pain distracted me from my hunger. "We should hurry." I muttered to Sylvia as we started walking. "I don't want to attack you and I think I'm close to losing control."

"Then let's stop and you can have some now." Sylvia offered but I shook my head.

"Not here, not out in the open." I declined. "We both know what will happen when I drink our blood. You'll most probably get a bruise from the hard ground."

I didn't have to look at Sylvia to know that she was blushing at what I was implying would happen. We both know I was telling the truth. "Okay then." She agreed and basically carried me all the way to our room. Hopefully my Mistress won't be mad at me for missing dinner again.

I could barely see by the time we made it to the room and my fangs were out. Long enough to touch my bottom lip and sharp enough that a scrape from them parted the skin on my lip, though the cuts quickly healed themselves.

"My lady? Are you okay?" I heard Sylvia question as I felt her place me down on something soft and I realised that we were already in my room.

"No... I'm hungry." I heard myself murmur as I felt a darkness wash through me. My mind was becoming clouded by the second and in a split second of clearness I saw myself above Sylvia a hand around her throat and fear in her eyes. The darkness that was washing through me was having a field day seeing her fear. I was confused as to what is happening. I felt its joy as much as I felt its lust when it moved inside me making me bite down on Sylvia's exposed neck. Lust and joy exploded within me coming from the darkness when Sylvia screamed. I couldn't control myself, my mind was blurred by emotions I wasn't truly feeling. I fought the darkness inside me and searched for the mana that usually fills me. I couldn't find it, I couldn't find any pure mana and it started to make me panic.

I was hurting Sylvia, I knew that. But the darkness inside me was ripping at my consciousness. Where is it? Where is the pure mana? I couldn't see anymore. Either my eyes are shut or the darkness has taken over me. My body was numb and I couldn't hear anything but the echo of Sylvia's scream. Stop it! I'm hurting Sylvia! I need to control myself, but this darkness was making it difficult.

My body was numb but I could feel something wrap around me despite it. I tried to look but everything was dark. "Relax... search for the light in the dark." A child's voice whispered in my ear. I recognised it as the child from that vision earlier today. But what was she doing here? How was she here? "Relax, search for the light."

I don't know what she was talking about. Everything around me was dark. There was no light here. Everything was cold and beside whatever was wrapped around me I couldn't feel anything. Search for the light? What the hell does that mean? It doesn't make sense in this situation. I tried to move my body. I tried to look through the darkness, but nothing was working. My senses were failing me and all I could remember was Sylvia's scream.

I don't know what to do. Relax, that's what she told me to do, may as well do it. I made my panic leave and felt my body relax allowing the numbness of it to fill my mind as well. I could feel the darkness flowing through me like the pure mana does and I was surprised when I could feel its confusion. I couldn't feel it inside me trying to latch onto something but it kept slipping away from me. It was like the pure mana just flowing through me, but this darkness was trying to take a hold on me, to stay inside me. I felt it's confusion and its irritation at not being able to do what it wants and soon enough a light pierced the darkness. My mind recognised the warmth of the light as pure mana and latched onto it before the darkness could snuff it out.

Light and warmth filled me pushing away the darkness that clouded my mind and filled my body. The numbness dissipated and I could feel again. When I opened my eyes as the last of the darkness left I found myself outside. It was night-time and everything around me made shadows on the ground because of how bright the moon and stars were. I looked around and realised that I was at the mountain garden where I was learning to control mana earlier in the day. I was sitting on one of the stone benches.

What was I doing out here? How did I get here?

I placed my head in my hands as my head began to thumb rhythmically as an ache filled it. I breathed in deep and felt the usual mana flow in and out of me with each breath. It was heavier here in this garden but it was still comforting that I could no longer feel that darkness that had so savagely taken over my being. I ran a hand down my face and felt something sticky around my mouth. I pulled back my hand to see blood on my palm. I gasped as I remembered Sylvia's scream.

I stood up and ran as fast as I could back to the mansion that was eerily quiet during the night. Everything around was a blur as I ran and I was lucky that I didn't run into anything. I made it to my room not even panting at how fast I was running and I quickly walked in to find Sylvia fast asleep on the bed. I walked over to her quickly and found that she looked almost peaceful. I reach out a hand and touched her cheek feeling how warm it was against my cold fingers. She murmured something unintelligible and moved her head to the side where I looked at her neck only to find... nothing.

I was confused. I'm sure I had attacked Sylvia, that's why she screamed, right? What was the blood on my face if I didn't feed from her? I moved away from Sylvia and stood beside the window looking out at the star filled night sky. What had happened tonight and where did all the time go?

Sylvia grumbled something again making me look over to her only to see her curl up onto her side and sigh softly. It made me smile. I'm glad I didn't hurt her. It was a relief actually. I wouldn't have been able to forgive myself if I had hurt her.

Seeing as everything is all right in my room, I headed to the bathroom to wash the blood from my face and the dirt from my body. I placed my hand into the water of the bath and was surprised that it was cold instead of its usual warmth. I slowly slipped into the cold water and shivered. I pulled mana into me to and remembered a spell from the water book I was reading. "Affazhat eveth yath (warm water up)." I whispered as I released the mana into the water and was happy when the water warmed up. I washed my body and my face leaving the water slightly murky from dirt and blood.

I pulled myself out of the water and looked down at my wet body. I smirked slightly as I thought of yet another spell. I'm really starting to love mana. "Atholat khado ma noreth (dry body and hair)." I said while releasing built up mana from within me making the water on my body and in my hair evaporated leaving everything dry. How convenient, I thought.

I picked up my clothes and saw how dirty they were. I frowned slightly wondering if I should continue to use mana, because last time I used too much all that stuff with the darkness happened. I shook my head and decided against it. I didn't want to risk it. What had happened really scared me. It was seriously terrifying not being able to use any of my senses, especially when I'm just getting use to always being so hyper sensitive thanks to my change.

I found a spare robe in a cupboard along the wall and pulled it on. I folded my dirty clothes over my arm and walked back to my room. I placed my clothes near the door and went to my wardrobe to pull out a loose cotton shirt and pants. I went back to my bed and smiled at seeing Sylvia in the same passion as I had left her. I slipped into bed beside her and mu smiled widened when she immediately wrapped an arm around my waist and snuggled into my side. It was adorable and I took comfort in it. I've never been wanted before and it's a great feeling having someone beside you as you sleep.

I moved some of her hair out of her face andbehind her ear before I placed a kiss to her forehead. I thought of the fear Isaw in her eyes and her scream. It terrified me knowing that I could do that toher. If I seriously lost control of the hunger inside me, I knew I'd hurt herand everyone else. It scared me. "Please know that I will never hurt you onpurpose." I whispered to her and pulled her more into my side before closing myeyes and relaxing. I focused on the mana running through me and soon foundmyself in blissful darkness surrounded by warmth.

"My lady." Someone was shaking myshoulder. I opened my eyes as sleep fled from my mind. I looked up to seeSylvia dressed in a robe looking down at me.

I sat up quickly as I remembered the sound of her scream. "Are you okay Sylvia? Did I hurt you last night?" I questioned just to make sure even though I did check last night.

Sylvia gave me a confused look. "What are you talking about? You passed out last night before we could do anything."

I blinked at her in confusion. "But..." I muttered in complete confusion as the events from last night played like a broken record in my head. I shook my head pushing all thoughts of last night away. "Sorry, never mind." I got out of bed and stretched my body as Sylvia watched me.

"How are you feeling my lady? I was worried when you weren't waking up last night. Would you like some blood?" Sylvia asked stepping into my personal space and I felt my hunger crawl up my throat.

I looked at Sylvia's neck and placed a hand to it softly and I could hear her heart beat quicken. "Do I hurt you when I bite?" I asked her curiously as I ran the tips of my fingers over her soft skin.

I watched her throat as she swallowed before she shook her head. "No you don't, it's very ... pleasurable, when you bite me. I only feel a pinch when you first enter."

"I'm glad, I don't want to hurt you." I told her seriously and she smiled at me looking happy with what I said.

"Don't worry, you don't." She reassured me and stepped even closer to me so that I could feel her heat on my skin. She tilted her head to the side and I felt my stomach clench and my senses heighten. "Please take some, I don't want you passing out again tonight."

"Okay." I agreed. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her flush against me as I dipped my head and placed a kiss to her neck. She shivered in my hold and I closed my eyes as the smell of her blood filled my senses. It was amazing. Something I'm sure I will never be able to find something that could even compare to it.

I thought of the pleasure I feel when I taste blood and push that feeling into Sylvia as I bite down on her exposed neck with my elongated fangs. She hissed at first before moaning and leaning into me. I sipped at the wound I caused loving the feel of how smooth and thick her blood slid down my throat to quench my hunger. After a minute or two I pulled back and lapped up every drop that made it past my lips before willing the two holes I made close.

Sylvia was breathing heavily and her warm breath fanned against my neck. I leant back a little to look down at her flushed face. "Are you alright Sylvia?" I asked her quietly.

She swallowed and nodded her head against my shoulder. "I'm fine." She breathed out opened her eyes to look up at me, eyes dark with lust and pleasure.

"Good. We should go now. We'll bathe then head to breakfast, alright?" I told her and waited for her to regain her footing before letting her go and heading to my wardrobe to grab a set of clothes.

I turned to look at Sylvia to see that she looked disappointed about something. I walked to the door and motioned with my head towards it. "Come, I know what you want but you only feel like that because of my bite. Plus I don't feel like it this morning." I tell her, knowing that she was disappointed that I didn't sleep with her.

"Yes, my lady." Sylvia gave in sounding sad.

"I apologise, but something happened last night and I don't wish to see it again." I thought of the fear I saw in her eyes as I towered over her. I don't want to hurt her and make her afraid of me. I have to be careful when I'm around her now. She's only human and a friend. Last night terrified me and I don't want her around if that darkness ever comes back.

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