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a girlfriend now. Robin Arellano, my crush of 3 years now has a girlfriend who isn't me by the way. I see them in the halls, he pins her against a locker and they...fully make out. She patches him up after fights and kisses his knuckles. I wished it was me. But i knew from the moment i liked him, it would NEVER be me.

Her name is Blair. Her name is perfect and shes just beautiful in general. My heart broke just thinking about their whole relationship. She did things with him that i'll never do.

At lunch, i sat with Finney. We were having a nice conversation and laughing until Robin came alone, holding Blair's hand as they sat down. Finney looked at me sympathetically, he knew i liked him...he knew the moment i found out because i trusted Finney the most. "Hey Robin" Finney spoke.

"Hey Finn, Y/n" he greeted before turning back to Blair, pecking her on the lips repeatedly. I glanced at them, eyes filling with tears before I looked away, Finney caught my eye before i got up and left. "Y/n wait-" he said but i stopped him. "I-i'll be back im just not feeling too well!" I lied before walking off.

"Y/n!" Robin called out but I ignored him, pretending that i didn't hear him. I went into the all gender bathrooms, only because i knew Finney would eventually come in here to find me. I went in a stall and sat down on the toilet seat, burying my face in my arms. "Why not me..." i ask myself repeatedly, not loudly but in my head.

I began to sob, but silently incase anyone walked in...that would be hella embarrassing. "Y/n?" Oh for fuck sake. The voice belonged to Robin Arellano, why couldn't it have been Finney? "Y/n, I know you're in here" he spoke and walked over to the stall, tapping on the door.

"Go away, Robin..." I mumbled and i heard him sigh. "I wanna know what's going on with you" he said, i bit my lip. "We don't all get what we want..." i replied in a shaky voice. "Y/n...just please talk to me.." he spoke after a few seconds of silence. I sniffled and unlocked the stall, he instantly hugged me.

I was shocked since hes barely looked at me since dating Blair, let alone hug me. "Talk to me, Y/n, whats wrong?" He asked, stroking my hair gently. I couldn't hold it in, i let out small sobs and clung onto his waist. He seemed shocked but immediately went into comfort mode. "Ssh, shh.." he whispered. "Whats gotten you so upset, Y/n/n?" He asked sadly, looking down at me.

"T-theres this boy...that i really like but, he's got a girlfriend now..." i explained sadly, not making eye contact with him. "You don't deserve him, if he doesn't see how special you are now, he never will" he responded. "But..he's different to other boys, i don't want anyone else. I want him but now i can't have him" I murmured and looked at him.

His eyes met mine and i just wanted to kiss him. But obviously i wasn't going to because he has a girlfriend, you know? I quickly looked away.

"I uhh..i gotta go, class is gonna start and Blair is probably waiting for you..." I sniffled and gave a fake smile. He looked down at me, worried, not smiling back. I went to walk away but he gently grabbed my wrist. "Who's the boy?" He asked, furrowing his brows. I looked at him and shook my head.

"Someone you don't know" I mumbled before freeing my wrist and leaving, wiping the remaining tears while Robin stood there, watching as i walked off.

Robin came in 5 minutes late, he looked as if he was thinking...how unusual, he barely does that. He took his spot next to me, still zoned out. "Robin? Hello? Are you still with us?" I asked and snapped my fingers in his face, he jumped and looked at me. "Oh yeah, i was just thinking" he replied. "I know..its weird, what were you thinking about anyway?" I asked.

He rolled his eyes at my stupid comment before answering my question "Y/n, shes in love with this boy and...he completely broke her heart without knowing it and it hurts me to see her upset" he replied. Fucking dumbass. "Do you know who the boy is?" He questioned. "Yeah" he gasped. "So are you gonna tell me?" He whispered.

"No, thats Y/n's job. I cant tell other people her secrets, Robin" I complained and he rolled his eyes. "Its not like shes gonna know i know!" He tried reasoning but i shook my head. After 10 minutes of begging, he eventually stopped and frowned. Why was he so bothered?

Hes the one who made her upset..but he doesn't know that. My heart aches for Y/n. After school, me and Y/n were walking together and suddenly, Robin appeared. "Hey guys!" He greeted. Y/n stayed silent while I replied with a 'Hi'. He seemed to be hurt when Y/n didn't reply but he brushed it off.

"You two wanna sleep over at mine?" I asked and Robins face lit up like a child on their birthday. "Yeah, only if Y/n will!" He grinned, nudging her with his elbow. She gave a small grin and shrugged. "Sure" she answered making me and Robin smile.

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We arrived at Finns. His dad was out on a business trip and Gwen stayed at Susies so it was just me, Robin and Finney. I was sat on Finneys bed while him and Robin were choosing a movie. I was so out of it that i didn't notice Finn walk in.

"Hey Y/n.." he mumbled and i looked up at him. "Oh..hey Finney" I replied and looked back down. I heard him sigh and sit next to me. "I know its hard, but you'll get over him" he spoke, rubbing my back gently and i sniffled. "I don't want too...i like him so much, more than any other guy I've fallen for" i explained and wiped my tears.

Y/n and Finn were taking ages, were they making out or something? I got chainsaw massacre ready before getting up and seeing where they were. I heard whispering as i passed Finn's room and stopped to listen to them. "Robin will never like me, if he doesn't like me now, he'll never like me at all" i heard Y/n explain to Finn. She likes me?

Im the one she cried over? Im the one who hurt her? The thought of it made my heart break. I loved Y/n, but she didn't show interest in me so i gave up and started liking Blair. But now knowing that Y/n likes me back...i feel myself liking her again.

"You should move on from him, Y/n, i cant stand seeing you like this...come here" Finn murmured and it went silent but 2 minutes later, her sobs filled the room. I couldn't stand it, I opened the door and saw them cuddled up, Finn rubbing her back. I tried to act clueless. "Are you okay?" I asked, looking at Y/n. She nodded and hiccuped softly.

"Yeah, im okay..." she reassured. I turned to look at my other best friend. "Can i talk to her for a minute?" I questioned and he nodded and kissed her forehead...as comfort im sure of it. "See you guys in a second" he spoke before leaving. I moved to sit next to Y/n. It was silent until i spoke up. "Im sorry..." I whispered and she looked at me in confusion. "For what?" I turned my head to look at her.

"For not noticing how you feel about me.." I answered and her face dropped. "Y-you heard?!" She panicked and i held her hands. "Yeah, but im glad i did. Y/n, i've liked you for 2 years, okay? I thought you didn't like me so i gave up and moved onto someone else. But knowing you like me...my feelings have come back" i explained, tears escaped her eyes. "You can't do that to Blair" she whispered and shook her head gently.

"Fuck Blair, i want you." I said and she bit her lip. She started sobbing again, i took her onto my lap and held her in my arms. "I want you, Y/n..." I mumbled and kissed her forehead repeatedly. She nodded, not having the energy to speak after crying. I smiled softly and stood up, her in my arms. I walked to the living room and sat on the couch next to Finn. "Woah woah, what's happening here?"

After he asked that, i looked down at Y/n who had fallen asleep on my lap. "Oh yeah, im gonna break up with Blair and get with Y/n. Y/n's always been better than Blair. Anyway, play the movie!" I explained. Finn looked confused the entire time but nodded and played the movie. I held Y/n close the entire time, not regretting my eavesdropping.