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After ending the call I wore the clothes I took from the car’s trunk to disguise myself a little bit. I started the car and drove off in the direction shown on the map for Guaruja. There was mild traffic on the road, cars moving at a constant pace, tourist roaming around the area clicking pictures and giggling. After some kilometers of driving the engine of the car coughed, sputtered and gave out.

I tried starting the car again but to no avail. I got out the car shoving the bill of 5 and the pre-paid phone in the shorts pocket, took the map and folded it after looking at the rout to take and started walking in the direction, at least I was not walking barefoot. The people there shot me a questioning glance but soon retreated to their own matters. After walking for half hour the rout showed a mountain I had no choice but to climb that mountain and that’s what I did. I was drenched in sweat but was not giving up that fast.

Brazil is fucking hot.

After crossing two mountains I saw a little café on the side. Without thinking any further I entered it. The bell on the door chimed announcing my arrival. There was an old lady at the desk and the café had no customers. I approached the desk and the old lady gave me a smile. I hesitantly took out the crumpled 5 bill from my pocket and put it on the table, flattening it with my hands and outturned my pockets to show that it is all I have. I made a gesture of food with my hands and said “Eat?” The lady gave me a reassuring smile and vanished behind the doors and came back with a glass of water filled with ice and gave it to me. I gulped the water and never have I been so satisfied with a gulp of water. I chugged down the water and realized how thirsty I was. The lady again vanished behind the doors after motioning towards me to take a seat.

After some minutes the lady came towards me with a tray full of food. I don’t know how much the 5 bill valued but I was dead sure it was not worth this much food. I stood up and showed the lady my pockets again to indicate that I don’t have any more money. She patted my shoulder and made me sit and indicated me to eat the food. I looked at the tray of food in front of me and my stomach growled at the sight of that. The lady let out a chuckle and took her position back behind the desk.

In no time I finished the food as I was famished and finally there was some food in my stomach. I made my way to the desk but there was no sign of the old lady. Just then she emerged from the back door with a pillow and a blanket and gave them to me. She led me through the back door towards a single bed and looked at me and said “Sleep here?” tears welled up in my eyes and soon started flowing down. The old lady’s expression changed to that of a worried one as to why was I crying. She again asked “no sleep?” I shook my head and wiped my tears and hugged her so tight. She patted my back to calm me down and helped me to bed. As she was going I held her hand and gave her a smile and said “Thank you” she placed her other hand over mine holding her and said “We say obrigado” I nodded my head in understanding and said again “obrigado” his old lady who doesn’t even know me did so much for me and this showed that humanity still existed in this cruel world.

She came back with some clean clothes and offered them to me. I accepted them and she also motioned me to the bathroom to take a shower. As I entered the bathroom, one look at me and anyone could tell that I desperately needed a shower. I was covered in dirt from head to toe and all my clothes were also soiled from dirt. I felt grateful to this woman for giving me shelter for the night. I took a bit long and warm shower that relaxed my muscles from the excess exertion of the day. I avoided thinking about anything as I would end up thinking about how I killed Mike. How that pen went through his eye. How I snapped his arm in two directions and he shat himself, blood oozing out from where the pen stuck out from his skull. Shit. Shitshishit. All those memories flashed before my eyes. I shook my head to get rid of those memories, washed myself and came out I wore my clothes and went to bed. I soon slipped into a deep slumber as I was exhausted from the day.

I saw me and Jung kook holding hands and running on a beach with wide smiles on our faces, my hair blowing around in the wind and soon I was taken over by darkness again.