The most haunted fear is tormented me both internally and externally.

What's your biggest fear?

It's been two months since that last incident when I try to make my life mine. I know it's wrong to take our own life but I was helpless. Why can't he see the pain in me burning me and slowly spreading like a plague?

I sighed and look up to the night sky, he didn't try to call me nor leave me a message since that unexpected affliction meeting. His venomous words still roaming in my mind causing distress.

I still remember his words.

What does he meant by

What does he mean by all these words?

Why did he say this is nothing as I have to bear more pain and agony?

Just why?

I tried to call him but his number is showing engaged. What the hell? For two months I was trying and it's showing engagement. Then something clicked into my mind. I shiver when I think of that.

Did he block my number?

my head and console myself never, he won't do that. Never in million years. By thinking of blocking my number my heart staring aching very badly.

Did he block me?

Did he really over me?

Did he never cared about me?

Even I tried to take my life?

At least for sympathy?

Am I that bad?

Series of questions roaming in Mind as my heart started pounding and aching very badly. Hot tears started to fell from my eyes causing my eyes to burn in anguish.

I tried my sobs to be whispered as today is the weekend and yoongi Oppa is here, if he sees me like this then it would be a problem for me to answer him.

I still have to give answers about taking my life to appa and Oppa. But every time my silence irritated them and I went back to my room. I don't want to take Taehyungs name. I don't want to ruin his name for my childish act.

I heard knocking sounds at my door I immediately wiped my tears and put on a fake smile to show them.

Oppa entered and frowned at me, as I maintain my posture not making him doubt at me that I was crying. So I give him a fake smile and asked. "Is everything alright Oppa, do you need something."

I see his big sighed and answered, "appa is calling you right now come fast we have something to tell you and discuss." His tone was a little bit bitter and serious as I gulped.

Not today please, not today again these questions, again and again, I mentally prayed until I saw appa and eomma sitting on the couch Maybe waiting for me. As yoongi Oppa sat opposite of couch on the wooden chair.

I stood there silently as doing fiddling with my fingers cause I know again they would ask me those questions and I will stay like this, not giving any answers and then they get irritated with me and tell me to go back.

"Are you sure Hana, you don't want us to know for whom you wanted to take your life?." The tone of appa was hoarse and deadly serious. I still stood there not giving any answers.

"This was the last time I'm asking you, Hana ." Again I didn't the answer and I can see his expressions that he was upset with me and my gaze landed on Oppa who was also showing some kind of strange emotions that I didn't able to recognise.

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My eyes widened at his nowhere unexpected comment, my heart started pounding at a very fast pace. I try to protest but it didn't happen. "But-" I was cut off by Oppa. "What Hana? You don't want us to know that bitch name for whom you ready to take your life, not even thinking about us, not about your app and eomma, how will we survive knowing our daughter is going all through this without any knowledge about that bitch, does he ever cared about you? You just ruining your life Hana.... you should marry

Thick tears formed in my eyes and continuously falling from my eyes, I never imagined all of a sudden appear and Oppa decided me to marry some stranger for not revealing his name.

My chest tightened after hearing those awful sentences, still, in the corner of my heart I was expecting Oppa to protest so I showed my helpless yet pleading eyes at him but he ignored me.

I dropped my eyes at the floor feeling so devastated as my heartache very badly this time, this time I was not feeling any guilty nor nervousness it was a pain that my poor and weak heart is suffering.

Does he never care about it?

I ignored the tense atmosphere and ran back to my room while sobbing, I was so helpless, my heart clenched when I remembered my old memories when I see his cold mesmerising eyes. The deep velvety voice and intoxicating aroma... a sinful Aroma.

My eyes burning from continuously tearing up, I again burst into more tears. This does difficult for me to digest the painful inaudible screams. I never imagined my life took a turn like this.

I sobbed, I screamed Inaudibly, I shouted from my heart to beg and plead.

It felt like dying is easy than marrying someone else, I beat on my chest for lowering the pain in my heart but it's not happening.

I didn't know when I slept last night while just crying and doing nothing. I scoffed at the remembrance of the painful statements by my appa and Oppa. I saw yeri calling as I pick the call.

I felt so devastated and soulless, "hello Hana where were you? Why are you not picking up my call last night? Do you know how worried I was?." I gulped at the statement again recalling it in my mind.

"Hana? You there?." I stayed quiet and answered. "Yeah, I will call you later My health is not good." I lied and cut the call before she could say something.

The month passed by as the flowing water and wind blow, today it's my engagement and didn't inform yeri. I don't know how will she react to the sudden announcement.

I called her, "hello". She greeted. I closed my eyes and greeted back. " hi how are you yeri?."

"Obviously I'm good what about you? Where were you since last month? Huh didn't try to call me nor msg me nor even reply me?." Does she complain as my voice was depressed that she didn't understand this?

"Yeri today is my engagement party that's why I called you I'll send you my Venue address just come," I told her in one go and cut the call not wanting to listen to her rant. First, of fall it's killing me internally and no one is there to help me or ready to listen to my heart out.

I heard someone knock at my door, I saw eomma entering while smiling sweetly at me as I smiled back. She handed over me a beautiful dress. But I don't have any interest to compliment it and appreciate it.

I wore a red gown and make my hairstyle, I saw the time it's about 5:50 pm and at 6:30 pm we have to be at the venue. We quickly left for the venue.

My chest tightened at every step took to the person standing in front of me. I don't know how he looked and what he does. I still didn't want to look at him as my eyes are already sipped someone's intoxicating eyes.

I just inviting my dead that's all there is no happiness as I kept my eyes cold and expressions like a dead person. Emma nudged my elbow gesturing me to smile.

I forced myself to smile and stood beside that person and lower my eyes.

The engagement ritual passed away and look I'm engaged. I didn't see yeri I don't know why did she not come, I think she's angry with me. I agreed.!! In the next moment, my heart dropped and my whole existence froze when I hear his deep voice.

I lifted my gaze and see him... There he is standing with a young lady beside him like a king smiling brightly making my heart dropped instantly.