Sharing is not my thing.!!

If it's mine means it's mine but you know it hurts when the person is not only yours.

Taehyung gave me a chance actually for our relationship, I do everything for the betterment of the relationship of us and I hope it's working. It's very difficult you know from one side it's going on and only one person putting all the efforts for the relation. Sometimes I get irritated and fight with him only to receive a hard punch of line "you only started this I haven't told you to be in a relationship with me nor to love me". That's so harsh you know still I manage to smile widely and shrugged it off.

But how much should I ignore the fact only one person is working on the relationship rather than two. It hurts when he hangs out with other girls saying they are all friends of his. I can't control him... this is his decision and life rules, who to make friends with and to whom not.

My heart nowadays is not in a feeling of peace, you can say that I forget the real meaning of peace in my dictionary. The agony and pain in my heart always leave the print of steps on my destiny. Why it's so hard for me to ignore him and why it's so hard for him to love me back?

I called him like nth time in whole 24 hours, we haven't talked like a whole week and this makes me feel killed. It's so painful without talking to him for one day also. It's like he becomes my food and water. Every day food and water is necessary to live like this only for me talking to him everyone becomes necessary.

Why can't he understand that? At first, he was so flirtatious and clingy, and now he started ignoring me and that hurts the most. After that night of confession, I did everything to make him feel he's not alone and always I'll be there for him. In every situation and condition like a storm, day, night and thunder I still stand beside him and behind him like a strong pillar for him. But for me? He didn't.

I again tried to call him and this time he picked it up. Wait did he pick my call? My heart is in a race right now, I gulped when I heard his heavy breath from the next line.

"What's the matter? Hana why can't you just leave me for some time?." The tone of him is so harsh and cold that makes my heart ache so badly and my palms become sweaty. I can literally hear the sounds of a heartbeat.

"I missed you". I whisper sadly. "Did you hear my voice clearly?". His deep voice sends chills down to my spine as I stuttered. "Y-yeah I can". Gosh, it's becoming so hard for me to talk with him.

"So now what?." I furrowed in confusion what does he mean? "You hear my voice was it not enough?."His tone becomes more intimate and intense. The throat of mine becomes dried as I questioned him. "Why are you doing this to me? So harsh? Huh.? Can't you just talk with me nicely for once? Am I that bad?". My tone becomes like I was crying as I was controlling so hard from letting out my infinite tears.

I heard him sighed and answered " Your not bad Hana, your so sweet and cute." It makes my heart in little peace and blushes. " actually I'm bad, so please leave me for some time."

"Your not bad Taehyung shhi, please listen to me." I pleaded with him as he cut me off, "why are you so clingy? I'm not saying for lifetime Hana......I'm saying for sometimes."

"It's been a week Taehyung we didn't talk."

"Did you die? For not talking with me?." My eyes widened at his harsh comment. To be honest I didn't expect that from him.

"Y-yes it's k-killing me Taehyung shhi."

"Then just go and die.."My throat becomes dried and my senses become numb. Did he really tell me to die? Even in the frustration and anger he just told me to die? The tears fell from my eyes making my cheeks wet.

"I'll cut my wrist Taehyung shhi". I declared nonchalantly as he answered so coldly. "Do whatever you want, and before doing that send me a pic of it, I might not believe it." He mocked at me as I shut my eyes in agony.

He then cut the call without bidding or at least apologise for it? I hate this, I hate this relationship still I love it. I cried a lot. I stood up and went to the kitchen as I grab the knife.

I entered into my room with my knife..... he wants me to die right? Lemme show him. Let's fulfil his wish. I tightly hold the knife as I sat on the cold floor in front of the window as my back was facing the bed.

The tears are continuously falling from my eyes as I glance at the night sky before cutting it off my wrist. And I did. I cut my wrist..... to be honest, the pain on my wrist is not much in comparison to my heart. My vision becomes blurry as I clicked the picture and send him.

The last thing I heard faint voices of someone..................... " Hana what did you do?."Before falling on the floor someone grabs my back. I see my brother yoongi Oppa, he looks so devastated and shouting something as the darkness slowly welcome me in him more.

Taehyung p.o.v:

I was puffing my cigarette in frustration, why can't she just understand that I don't want her to be clingy. Gosh, she's becoming so irritated and annoying.

"Bro, what happened?". Beak Asked me as he can see the wrinkles of frustration on my forehead. "Nothing much-interested dude."

"Did she again called you?."I nodded.

"Why can't you just tell her frankly not to disturb you from next Time".

"Ahh no, I can't do that."

"Why?."

"I don't want her now, but I need her in future".

"Gosh, your so selfish man." Beakhyun mocked as I glared at him dangerously. He understood the atmosphere as he stayed silent. I then can hear the vibration of my phone but I ignored it. I knew she sends me a message on WhatsApp again about something, she rants so much and do complaints. She's becoming an irritated and annoying girl.

I never wanted this, I always wanted to have it aside from my angel. Isn't it?