The saddest part of my life is the person to whom I love the most and make beautiful memories become a memory.

What's your saddest part is?

It's been a week since Taehyung never called nor messaged me after a sweet little date of ours, I was getting worried for him as well as for our fresh and raw relationship. I look up to see the dark sky as I sighed in sadness.

Is he alright?

Did he forget me?

I don't know why I always have a feeling though he was with me still he's far away from me?

I feel distant...

And now I'm developing strange feelings like insecurity and jealousy in me and that causes to increase my obsession with him more from the previous one. The way time goes my obsession for him is also increasing .... gosh I'm so in love with him, but I need to be within limits I should not cross the limits cause of my obsession with him, it's a sin before commitment and MARRIAGE.

But also I'm developing another strange feeling in me, a kind of afraid feeling I don't know why I feel like he's not mine.? I have a fear one day he will leave me .? I can't keep myself stable as so many emotions popping in my heart and causes me anxiety. I can't leave him and I won't allow him to do as well.

Please help me and convey my feelings to him.

I'm waiting for his reply

Please I'm dying here for his one reply.

I can't imagine my life without him

Kim Taehyung I'm so in love with you please accept my feelings and confessed to me as soon as possible I can't stand by it.

I can't stand it any longer.

Gosh, I'm going crazy.

As if he becomes my breath.

Does he become my breath?

Without Breath, a person can't live, right?

So do I.

Kim Taehyung is my breath.

His voice is becoming my new addiction.

I can hear his deep like galaxy voice all day and night.

I'm so In love with his everything. Even with his voice. The smile everything.

But just protect me from doing sinning god, please.

I pleaded by looking at the beauty of the dark sky, this beauty can only understand how I'm feeling right now. So weak so vulnerable and so desperate to see him talk with him to hear his melodic voice. I can't wait anymore so I took the mobile and message him again. I messaged him like 8-10 times in this whole week but he didn't dare to look up the messages and ignored them. This leaves me more desperate for him, his ignorance making me more obsessed with him and desperate for him.

How can I live without him? There is no chance.!!

I sighed in sadness as the message being ignored again but then my face lit up once I saw him online. God, he's online after so many days. I gulped in desperation as my heartbeat increased in its pace as I was waiting for him to see the messages, waiting for the black ticks to turn into blue ticks and then typing .... but then my happily face fades away once I see next thing.. he went offline? Without glancing at my infinite messages? Did he ignore my messages? He came online but ignored my messages but why?

Two days have passed and he comes online but didn't message me nor open my chat. I was getting irritated and desperate to talk to him but he acts like the busiest person in the world. Hugh, I scoffed at his behaviour.

I put one hand on my chin and from another hand, I was holding my mobile only in the hope of he will reply to me but not. Soon after I again see he came online for like 10 minutes but didn't open my chat? What the hell his problem is? I'm getting irritated now.!! I quickly open the call log only to call him and I'll ask him why did he not responding my messages even after coming online on WhatsApp ??

After like 4-5 th ring he picks up the call and he spoke hello as I breathe in relief by hearing his deep voice. My peace, his voice becomes my relaxation and peace.

"Hello?". His deep voice is soo soothing, I was hesitating to talk back I don't know why am I reacting like this? And when I spoke my voice is cracking and my hands are started shivering in nervousness. This was the first time I was feeling like this, I never felt like this before.

"Hi". I greeted back as I breath out in relief again. "Yes, do you want to say something, Hana?". By the tone of his seems like he is busy or not interested to talk with me? "I just wanted to talk to you". I told him as I don't have many words to talk about or any topic but I wanted to talk with him. "Tell me, Hana". His tone is a bit annoyingly or was I feeling like this? Or am I thinking too deep? And yeah by his mouth my name looks soo good. I was melting in his just voice.

"Uhm I don't have any topic to discuss". I spoke honestly as I was confused about what to talk about? I heard him chuckled as I smiled satisfied, I made him laugh. The feeling is so good wow. "We are not in school or in college to discuss a particular topic". He told as I blush unknowingly I know he didn't flirt nor said some cheesy lines but a simple line also making me blush and melting for him more.

"T-Taehyung shhi did you had your dinner?". Finally, I have something to ask but then I heard another chuckle voice as I blushed more. "When did you start calling my name with so much respect and adoration?". He asks as I felt a tingling sensation in my stomach. "I don't know I just felt like". I should not say anything soon I need to take time but my heart is not cooperating with me, as I wanted to confess my feelings that how I feel for him.

"Ahh, I see Miss Hana". I smiled at his melodic deep voice when he calls me Miss Hana, wow it looks so adorable when he calls me by my name. "You didn't answer me?". I ask again as he looks but confused and ask, "what?".

"About dinner?". I make him remember and then he started with teasing mode again, as I rolled my eyes playfully. "Ahh seems like Miss Hana is worried about my eating habits?".

"It's not like that I was just asking". I replied calmly as I don't want to show how worried I'm and all. "This Taehyung shhi is a bit upset cause Miss Hana is not worried for him". He started his teasing mode again as I giggled at his cute dramatic behaviour but then I remembered something and with so much courage I ask.

"Taehyung shhi I wanted to ask something". I asked hesitantly as he hummed in response, "why are you not responding to my messages are you angry with me? You came online so many times but didn't open my chat nor replied me". I spoke in a sad tone I missing him so much even though we are not in the proper relationship or committed. "Oh, so you're stalking me?". He asks playfully as I get flustered I didn't even realise what impact it can leaves if I tell him like that.

"O-oh n-not like this I was just curious". I stammer in nervousness gosh why am I like this? "Oh, I thought you were missing me". His tone seems like a sad one, I shook my head as I can't see him upset and sad so I told him honestly, "yeah I was missing you so much". "Oh you missed me but you said -". Before he could say something more I interrupted and spoke again "I was just teasing you". Ugh Hana, what are you saying, I messed up my hair annoyingly as the correct words are not working?

"That teasing work I can only do with you baby". Shit did he just said baby to me? Omg, he said baby to me? I was jumping in happiness wow... as I forget Taehyung was listening to my unexpected childish behaviour voices...."Hana doesn't tell me your jumping in happiness cause I call you baby?". He chuckled as widen my eyes in shock wow just wow... he knew what I'm doing.!! "I-It's not like that". I said not wanting to show I happy I was now.

But then his next words make me chock on my saliva, "do you perhaps like me?". My eyes went widen and I was jungshooook... I think for two minutes before answering, it's true I started liking him but the thing is I started not only like him but also falling for him completely under his spell. The more I think about him I feel for him more, there were no limits for falling to him. Should I say the truth? I sigh in defeat and I spoke with an honest answer. "Yes, I fell for you Taehyung shhi". When I confess my true feelings I served with pure silence for few seconds then he spoke, "you what?".

"I was just asking playfully but you really said you fell for me that too I ask about liking but you boldly confessed wow that's great I appreciate your boldness baby". This is the second time he told me baby as my heart flipped multiple times. but what I felt bad cause he casually ask and here I confessed my feelings, ouch that hurts... he didn't love me back? Not at least like?

"Ahh, Hana my Dad is calling me I'll go now". I nodded sadly when he didn't respond about my feelings I feel like rejected. But then his next words make me surprise.

"Be ready at 1 pm tomorrow at tigers point I'll pick you from there baby". Baby, again he said baby I was melting for him more. "W-why?". I asked hesitantly as he chuckled and spoke again. "Don't you want to hear my answer? That I like you or not?". When I hear that I feel like my heart dropped for a second and doing backflip multiple times. "O-Ok". I responded as I was so nervous about his answer.

"Ok baby bye take care". I blush when he said me to take care. And then he suddenly cut the call without listening to my response. I feel bad when he suddenly cut the call on my face but still, I was smiling like an idiot. I lay down on my bed and mess my hair is so much happier if I'm going out with him tomorrow.