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It just can't be. But as the same time, it can, it really can. How have I been so stupid?

It was probably less then 24 hours apart, I say this to Ezra. "It's a massive possibility, I'm not gonna sugar-coat it" He sighs. I feel like crying. In the middle of Ezra's living room, in my baggiest cloths, chocolate and loads of blankets I can't stop thinking about Issac being the father.

"Why have I been ignoring it? Why haven't I ever sat and thought about this before?" I question myself, frustrated. "Because you don't want it to be true so ignoring it was easy, I guess" He sits on the sofa next to me.

I deeply exhale and throw my head back. "Could I get past it?" I'm throwing questions out that I can't answer. "I don't know, can you?" Ezra looks at me, concern on his face.

"I don't know, a baby is a big thing" I stare at the ceiling, hoping it'll give me an answer. "He'll have to be around Ellie all the time and having a baby will bring them closer" I grow tearful.

"I trust Issac, I do. But, a baby" I force my tears away. "Are you ready for a baby?" He sits next to me, taking my hand in his.

"Yes..no, I don't know, is anyone ever ready for a baby?" He tilts his head back like I have. "Why don't you be honest with him?" He asks. I can see him looking at me from the corner of his eye.

"I can't! What about if its true? How would I react? I'm freaking out now and I don't even know if its true, so imagine when I do know" I fling myself forward, collapsing my head into my shaking hands.

"You haven't got to ask him right this moment. Sleep on it for a little" I feel his palm stroking my back, comforting me. "Yeah. I just, I don't know. I don't know what to think" I slowly uncurl myself, feeling life draining from me.

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A week later my location is in Nathan's living room, just like last time, it's rather large and quite luxurious. Ellie has come down to discuss what she is going to do about the test.

"What does it even mean? I've never heard of it" He sits backwards on a chair. "Back when my mom had it done it was called an amniocentesis test. I don't know if it's still called that" She shrugs. From the first time I saw Ellie reacting to this, it seems like she's thought it through a lot more.

Nathan displays a confused expression, just like I first had. We explains what it is but he grows bored, "Okay, why are you here to talk about it?" He raises his eyebrows. I have to use all my strength to stop my eyeroll. Even if this isn't his baby, he could at least try to care.

"Because I want you to make a decision, as the father" I cringe at her words, clocking on that she's only saying that because I'm here. Looking back I've noticed just how oblivious I've been and it's rather embarrassing.

The amount of times Nathan has told me straight to my face and I've denied it is even more embarrassing, they must think I'm so stupid. I sit growing angry with the pair of them - Issac and Ellie - when are they gonna tell me? Will they ever.

I've been stewing over this for the past week but I've still maintained the routine of going to visit them most days because secretly, I'm waiting. Part of me doesn't want to face it but parts of me do.

I've slowly been trying to come to term with it, Issac being a dad? Is he ready? I knew he was lying about something months ago but stupid old Darcy ignored it like I apparently ignore everything.

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Day's roll on, still nothing.

I look over at Issac during Ellie's scan, my heart saddens. How can this be happening, how can this be happening to me? It might seem self centered but I was finally happy, in a good place, with the boy I love. And now? Living everyday with him lying to me.

I think they're so convinced it's not Issac that they're actually starting to believe it. Surely not? It's all become so clear to me so it must of to them. It was less then 24 hours apart.

I love Issac so much, to an insane level. I feel tears prick at my eyes but I force them away. "There she is" The nurse smiles. A little baby pops up on screen. I gasp, she's so big now.

Ellie starts smiling like a Cheshire cat and for a moment, a smile flicks over Issac's face. I clear my throat and excuse myself, my breath catches. I escape the room and lean against the wall.

I make my way to the toilet and splash my pale skin with water. I stare at the lost girl staring back at me. She looks tired, scared, alone. Having to bottle this within myself is stressful, I can't exactly tell everyone. Only Ezra knows and I've sworn him to secrecy.

I stand straight, smooth out my little ruffle dress and put my strongest face on. You can do this, Darcy.

When I re-enter the room Ellie and the doctor are having a conversation about the amniocentesis test. "I want to do it" She nods confidently. Issac stands next to the bed nodding his head also. I thought he was against this?

Have they spoken about it privately? Meeting up in person because it would be to risky on text? My heart drops slightly but I regain myself before they look over at me. I smile and stay in the corner.

I almost feel uncomfortable like I'm intruding on there moment it makes my eyes prick. I want to pinch myself, begging this is a dream.

They talk over the test, my mind is overlapping with thoughts to properly pay attention. Over the past few months I've helped Ellie, built her up and done anything I can for her whilst she's been sitting on the information that my boyfriend could be the father of her child.

I look over at Issac, he's paying close attention to the doctor. It's like he's trying to make it obvious, he could pass it off as a caring friend and maybe, the old Darcy would of believed that, maybe the Darcy from a week or two ago would of believed that but not now.

Not now it's slapped me in the face, all because of a flicker of guilt that crossed his face in a busy restaurant. Maybe I'm being paranoid? Overthinking it? But suddenly it all came together, it all made sense.

Does Issac even love me as much as he says he does? Because lying to my face like this definitely doesn't show it. I've tried being in his shoes, he's probably scared, a baby is a massive thing. He doesn't know what's gonna happen if he turns out to be the dad but right now, I'm too hurt to try defend him.

Will we loose each other if this baby is his? A life without Issac makes my breath catch in my throat. The only person to really help me out of my dark times, It may not be all sunshine now but Issac was the only one to stand by me in worse times and helped me, whatever I did to him.

Suddenly I'm wheezing for air. Not having Isssac by my side aches my whole body, would I survive without him? Would the heart break send me over the edge all over again?

The room becomes freakishly small and hot. I can't catch my breath and the sudden fear of death springs on me. I can't breath. Muffled voice softly ring in my ear but my vision is blurry, filled with my own tears, I blink but nothing works.

I feel someone touch my body before the whole room turns to darkness.

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I'm plunged back into the bright daylight what feels like years later. I slowly open my eyes, adjusting. "She's awake" Amelia. "Darcy, can you hear me?" Her worried little face pops into my vision, I smile weakly.

"Hey" I blink, the light making my eyes water. She laughs with relief, "You scared me to death" She shakes her head. "What happened?" I slowly sit up, my body aches slightly.

"You were at the hospital with Issac and Ellie and you had a panick attack" She frowns, kneeling at the side of the sofa. "Oh" I mumble, it all comes flooding back.

"Why am I here?" I look round, I'm in Amelia's living room. "The doctors checked you over and said you were fine and they brought you home, Issac said he didn't want you to panic if you woke up in the hospital" She looks sad, looking at me through her eyelashes.

Can you do that? Just take me home unconscious? I shrug, I much prefer waking up here. The door opens and in come Issac and Ellie. "Is she okay?" Issac sounds alarmed. Seeing them together makes me want to cry again.

"Yeah, she's okay" She smiles again with relief. He comes up to the sofa and up close, I really see how scared he is. "Could someone take me home?" I mumble, not making eye contact.

"You want to go home?" He asks, surprised. I'm feeling far to emotional right now and if I stay, I'm going to do something I regret.

"Yes, please" My voice begs, "I just want to go home and see Romeo" I start to feel panicky. "Are you sure? Mom will be home in a minute, she'll make you some food" He kneels down next to me, like Amelia.

His voice is smooth and gently but It's not calming me down, he's acting like I'm going to explode any minute. "No please, I want to go home" I plead feeling tears threaten again.

"Darcy-" He tries to take my hand but I snatch it again. "I want to go home!" I become annoyed, why wont he take me home? "Darc I think you should stay here, so I know you're okay" He frowns, looking hurt. I've never requested to go home before so he's probably confused.

"No! I'll go myself if you won't take me" A tear spills down my cheek. I get up feeling wobbly but make my way to the back door, flinging it open and exiting.

The cold air hits me like a bolt but I carry on, pushing one foot in front of the other. "Darcy" I hear Issac's voice behind me, he sounds destressed and worried. "Wait, please" His hands make contact with my sides as he pulls me back.

"No, get off! I want to go home" I fight against him but it's no use, his arms are wrapped around me. "Darcy just listen, just breath" His voice isn't very loud almost a whisper.

"Why won't you let me go home?" Tears roll down my cheeks, begging to be let free. "Because I'm worried about you!" His shout stuns me. He turns me around to face him. "Please, just calm down" My eyes are wide.

"If you'd of let me go home I wouldn't need to calm down!" My shocked state doesn't last long. "Not like this, you're shaking, crying.." His sentence trails off, a frown replaces it.

"Tell me what's wrong" He looks me in the eyes but I don't hold it. As if he doesn't know, I want to scream in his face but I know I can't. "Nothing" I mumble, looking at my shoes.

"So you had a panic attack over nothing?" He raises his eyebrows. "Yes" I nod.

"I thought we told each other everything?" He tilts my chin up, forcing me to make eye contact with me. "I've recently learnt I was the only one complying to that rule" Anger spreads through me. His face drops to terror. "W-What do you mean?" He gulps. He knows that I know.

"I'm going home" I rip myself away from him.

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