hi guys! in celebration of 20k i'm posting two characters this week! so look out for a chapter tomorrow.

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Issac's P.O.V

I'm bored, lying in bed. Darcy has left me to hang out with Ellie, apparently it was important. I don't know why they're suddenly best pals.

It's not that I don't want them to be friends, I'm just worried for Darcy. She's very bold and strong minded but sometimes she can be very easily led and Ellie can use and dominate people to do exactly what she wants.

I'm still not over calling Darcy my girlfriend, feels like I'm dreaming whenever I do. I almost have to pinch myself.

As much as I'm happy that I'm finally with Darcy my body won't let me. It's almost 3 years since Andrew died and I feel like if I'm happy, Andrew won't know that I miss him every second of the day.

If only I hadn't of gone out with my mates. I scrunch my fists up, anger bubbling in me.

"Hey sweetheart, ready to make a cake?" I hear my moms voice downstairs, is she talking to me?Ugh I don't care if she wants me, she's going to have to come upstairs to me.

"I sure am" A soft fairy like voice follows after and instantly my anger fizzles away, Darcy. I get to my feet, suddenly itching to get to her, she didn't tell me she was coming round.

A smile grows on my face until my stomach feels funny and my heart does a flip. Her little face glows up when I enter the room and I'm pretty sure I've the same reaction.

"I hear there is a cake being made?" I raise my eyebrows, "Typical, all my son has to hear is the mention of food and he's here in seconds flat" My mom rolls her eyes.

Well duh, food.

"I should of used that when I couldn't get you up in the morning for school" She flaps her tea towel around, now being switched to my turn of an eye roll.

"Haha, very funny mother, but I hated high school. Not even food would of moved me" I sit down on a high raised spiny chair.

Darcy smiles and my heart flutters. I've got to get a grip. They're making a cake for Ezra apparently from what I catch, I'm more distracted by Darcy swanning about in her thrill dress.

I love how well she gets on with my parents, she seems so comfortable and natural around them. After Andrew died I guess I shut them out a bit. I always feel like they didn't grieve, that they just went on as normal whilst I was suffering from a broken, ripped to streps heart.

"Issac, come join in" Darcy shows me her perfectly white set of teeth as she smiles. I get to my feet and walk round, "Mix this for me please, I need some muscle to make sure it's all mixed together" She hands me the bowl.

I take it from her giving a little smile before I mix the ingredients together. Next she gets the flour tipping it into a bowl.

I can't think straight at the minute. All day I've had my stupid course work on my mind. I failed my last course and that's why I've been put on an art course because my former tutor thought I was artistic or something.

If I don't pass this year I'm stuck, I need to pass I can't be stuck at college for another year. I'm 18, I wanted to leave last year and apply for flying academy but I couldn't.

Andrew always wanted to be a pilot, he dreamed of it and whenever we went on holiday he always asked the flight hostess if he could go to the pilots cabin.

If it wasn't for me Andrew would still be alive so I want to fulfil everything he wanted. I owe him that. If I could fly a plane I'd be up there with him, in the clouds with the stars.

I need to pass this year so I can apply for the academy. "Thank you" Darcy smiles sweetly at me when I've finished, I nod and take a step outside.

I ruffle through my pocket and pull out my pack of cigarettes. I don't smoke often, not around people anyways. I just smoke when I'm stressed out normally.

"Issac?" Darcy makes me jump as I quickly rip the cigarette from my mouth, hiding it to my side. "Are you smoking?" She raises her eyebrows, coming towards me.

"I haven't seen you smoke in ages, I thought you'd stopped" She frowns, tucking hair behind her ear. An electric feeling erupts through my arm and I realise she's taken my hand.

"I know, I only have one occasionally" I shrug, trying to make it sound like no big deal, but she isn't buying it. "I came out here to see if you're okay" Her little hand squeezes mine.

"I'm fine" I avoid her eye, she knows me just as much as I know her.

"Issac, you can tell me whatever is going on" She places her other hand on my upper arm and I feel like my arm is on fire, giving me goosebumps.

"It's nothing" I shrug again, embarrassed. What if she thinks I'm stupid or no good? Not being able to pass a flimsy I.T course and now an art course. I look away ashamed.

"Issac I tell you all my problems, I open up to you. We're in a relationship, you can talk to me" I can't look at her face, whenever she frowns my heart aches.

I don't say anything, kicking pedals with my feet I hear her softly sigh. "Fine don't tell me then. I just thought relationships were all about communication, being able to talk to one another about something that upset us" She drops my hand, leaving my body cold. I watch her walk back inside.

I put the cigarette back in my mouth taking it back sharply. I lean my head back against the wall, screwing my eyelids shut. Why couldn't I just tell her? She tells me everything.

I huff grabbing my football and bluntly texting Eric.

I get in my car throwing the ball in the back and starting the engine. I've been a bit on edge lately, a build up of emotions. It's nearly Andrews anniversary of death and every year I go off the rails.

Last year I got so drunk I ended up in hospital, I wish he was still here to tell me how to deal with it. It's not like I want to forget I just want to be less angry at myself for what happened, it was all my fault and if I hadn't of met up with my stupid friends, he'd still be here playing football with me instead of Eric.

I park my car staring at the empty field for a while, whenever Darcy is upset or panicking she does these breathing exercises.

Inhale for 4 seconds, exhale for 6.

It's kinda helping but not majorly, maybe kicking a ball will help. I get out the car slamming the door and making my way over to Eric, who has just arrived himself.

"You okay?" Eric squints his eyes from the sun. "Yeah, just fancied a kick about" I shrug, he doesn't question but instead follows me to the goals. I notice a little group of girls sat on the grass batting there eyelashes at us, I roll my eyes.

"You seem tense" Eric touches my shoulder making me flinch but regain myself, embarrassed, "Issac, I know what's coming up, I'm your best friend" He sadly smiles at me.

"I know it's nearly three years" His hand slowly falls, I lower my head. "Look this year you're going to be okay, everything is going to be okay. This isn't like last year, you're not alone" He moves my head to look at him.

"You've everyone around you if you actually let them get close to you, you have Darcy" He looks me in the eye. At the mention of her name I feel guilt.

"Yeah I know" I pull away, rubbing my hands over my face. "I just don't know how to deal with it" I shrug.

"Why don't you get away?" He suggests, I raise my eyebrows in confusion. "What do you mean?"

"My parents have a cottage in the country side, we used to go when we were little remember?" I nod along, "Well you could take Darcy down there for a night or two" He kicks the ball around with his foot.

I think about his suggestion, it's not a bad idea, having Darcy all to myself is so tempting. "Not a bad idea" I nod, making him smile.

"Anyways, what's going on with you?" I take the ball from him and walk out more into the field, "What you mean?" He stands the other end of the pitch.

"You're acting strange lately, especially at college" I start kicking the ball about aiming for his goal, "Am I?" He acts oblivious.

"Yes, who is it?" He defends his goal, kicking the ball away from me and running to my goal.

"Whose who?" His questions continuing, not giving up on the I-don't-know act.

"Who are you avoiding?" I try kick the ball from him but he scores in my goal, his arms go up in victory.

"No one" He gives me an odd look, I know he's lying.

"Eric, don't lie to me. You haven't forgotten that Darcy is my girlfriend so I've automatically become a part of her little clan?" I stop. putting my hands on my hips. He looks sheepish.

"I know it's one of her friends so who is it? Ellie, Amelia or Yasmine?" I ask.

"Well it's obviously not Amelia as you've giving me the my sisters off limits chat" He rolls his eyes, I laugh.

"She's gay anyways" I shake my head. Shit, I wasn't supposed to tell anyone.

"Oh my god really?" His eyes go wide, "Don't repeat that to anyone okay? I wasn't supposed to tell" I kick myself mentally.

"Damn, I didn't expect that one" Eric has an amused smile on his face, "Think she'd let me watch?" He smirks.

"Ah man, that's disgusting!" I shake my head, forcing away the mental image he's given me.

"Stop changing the subject" I huff, "Who is it?" I fold my arms, growing impatient.

He normally is very open about his females, he's never not told me what's going on in his love life.

"It's none of them" His face grows pale again, I frown my eyebrows trying to think. Who else?

It clicks, "Henry?" That explains the lack of details and why he's avoiding that little group at college. At first I thought he had the hots for Darcy and didn't know how to tell me.

"Issac you can't tell anyone, please" The desperation in his voice is worrying.

"Eric I would never tell anyone your business, so what if you're bisexual, possibly gay. Doesn't change who you are" I smile at him. I'm not going to lie it has surprised me, I never got that vibe from him but I guess that's unfair of me to say.

"Thank you. God I'm having such a dilemma, I don't know what to do" He racks his hand through his hair.

"Why, what's going on?" I frown my eyebrows. I've always been brought up in a house that accepts any type of person for whoever they are, Eric on the other hand didn't. His family are very strict and still object to sex before marriages and homosexual couples.

"Well am I gay? Bisexual? I'm attracted to him but, I don't know" He sighs, letting his emotions get the better of him.

"Has anything happened between you two?" I ask kicking the ball, trying to be casual to calm his nerves.

"Yeah" He shrugs, "We've kissed" He mumbles, I stop the ball kicking.

"You've kissed and didn't tell your best friend?" I glare at him, I don't know if I've the right to be hurt by this but I am.

"I'm sorry, I just didn't know what to do. I'm a mess" He sighs. I fold my arms, I'm supposed to be his best friend, which means he can come to me with his problems.

"I know, I should of told you and I wanted to. I just didn't know how to, we always talk about girls and all of that stuff, I didn't wanna ruin anything" He frowns.

"You're not ruining a thing, are you still attracted to girls?" I sympathise to his look of defeat and lower my arms to my sides, now feeling bad for being selfish.

"Yes" He nods, "I think" He nods again. "Then we can still talk about girls" I nod, "But I'll obviously be talking about Darcy" I smile to myself.

"As per-usual then" He smirks at me. I kick the ball into his leg, making him laugh.

"Look you've to do whats best for you. Talk to Henry, maybe just have a casual/quiet relationship and not tell anyone until you've figured it all out. This is a big thing that can't be rushed" I smile at him, the sun slowly leaving the sky.

"What about if he doesn't want that?" He frowns, fumbling the ball round with his foot.

"If he really wants to be with you, he'll do whatever it takes even if that means allowing you some time to figure things out" I reassure him.

He nods processing my words, "Thank you, I appreciate this" He looks up at me, "Its no problem, what are best friends for?" I smirk, swinging my arm around his shoulders.

"I'm hungry, let's go for some food" I lead him towards my car.

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"So have you not heard?" Eric munches on his Macdonals fries. I frown my eyebrows and shake my head.

He looks surprised, "You haven't heard about Ellie?" I mentally groan when he says her name.

Me and Ellie have known each other since we were little but she's changed a lot since last year. She used to be so bubbly and fun, but now she prances around like she owns the place always showing herself off and being verbally vicious to people who aren't on her level - including my Darcy.

After my pause Eric continues, "She's pregnant and saying Nathan's the father so she can get all his money" His face is plastered with excitement over this gossip.

Ellie's pregnant?

I gulp, I slept with her like, over two months ago? I cringe with regret just thinking about it. I wonder how far gone she is? Is it my baby? Is she saying it's Nathan's instead of mine?

"How far gone is she?" I ask, alarm bells ringing in my head.

"About two months apparently" I choke on my food, gaining a well needed back slap from Eric.

"Issac, are you okay?" Eric sounds worried.

"We need to get to Ellie's now"

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i'm posting this at the gym ahahaha, i hope you're all okay! i hope you enjoyed this chapter.

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