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"I'm nervous" Ellie breaths under her voice, everyone looks at us strangely as we walk into college with linked arms.

"It's okay, I'm with you" I smile. We walk through the automatic doors to see the refectory busy with students doing their own thing. "Guys? Over here!" Yasmine calls over to us.

"I'm gonna go find Issac, I'll be over in a minute" I smile to Ellie, she nods and makes her way over.

She's wearing the dress she brought yesterday and we straightened her hair so it slides down her back smoothly. I smile as I watch her walk away before going on my own mission to find Issac.

I hear a few male laughs and decide to follow the direction they're coming from. I see Nathan first, goofing around making the others laugh.

"Awh I spot a Darcy" Nathan points at me, I give him my best cheery smile. "Good morning" I beam up at him.

I pull a muffin out of my bag, Nathan swings his arm around my shoulder. I look at him for a minute, he thinks his life is so simple but soon it'll be turned upside down. I wonder how he'll react to Ellie's news.

I can see him as a dad, a good one actually. Underneath the class clown act he's actually very sweet, he has dazzling eyes and a wide smile.

"Darc? You okay?" He waves his hand across my eyes, I come back from my train of thoughts. "Yeah sorry" I say embarrassed, the more I look at him the more I can't stop thinking about the impression Ellie did last night of his orgasm face and I start giggling.

"What's so funny?" He raises his eyebrows and I start to laugh, "Sorry, it's nothing" I try to maintain it but I can't.

"Is there something on my face?" His question makes me laugh more, "No, you're fine it's not that" I shake my head, trying to bite my laugh.

"That what is it?" He cracks a smile, watching me laugh, "I can't tell you" I put a hand over my mouth to muffle my laugh.

"Can you at least tell me?" Issac raises he eyebrows, I had almost forgot I was on a mission to find him.

"No I'm sorry, it's strictly between us girls" I shake my head slowly bringing my giggles down, "Anyways I brought you a muffin, I accidentally packed one for Ezra for the car journey but forget he's not driving me no longer, so here" I smile handing it to him, unlatching myself from Nathan's arm.

"I thought perks of being your boyfriend is that you'd tell me this stuff" Issac narrows his eyes at me taking the muffin.

"The perks of being my boyfriend is that you get me as your girlfriend" I tilt my head smiling at him, "That's enough for me" He nods and wraps his arm around my shoulder like Nathan did, but instead cuddles me into his side.

"I can't believe you can't come on lads night anymore" Eric shakes his head.

"Why can't he?" I frown my eyebrows. "Well because he's not single anymore" Nathan huffs.

"So just because he's not single means he can't come with you?" I dart my eyes between the both of them. "Well he can come, we just thought you wouldn't let him" Eric shrugs.

"I am not his mother nor the boss of him, he can go out and have fun with you guys" I cock my eyebrow at them.

"You'd really let him come with us? To a club? Full of hot girls?" Eric raises his eyebrows.

"Yes, It's a little thing called trust. I trust him to stay loyal to me, plus I don't want him to miss out on the fun just because he's with me" I smile, they all blink at me surprised.

"Everyone needs a girlfriend like you" Nathan states. "I told you she's the best" Issac kisses my forehead, "Plus I'd just like to say, I wouldn't even look at another girl, who would go for a chicken nugget when you've a roast dinner at home?" I giggle at his quote.

"Especially if they're anything like my moms Sunday roast dinner, which are absolutely delicious" Issac skims off track, almost drooling.

"Come on, we better get to class" I remove his arm from around me and instead link our hands together. He finishes his muffin with a nod, "I will see ya later fellas" He waves goodbye as we walk up the corridor, taking a right turn up the stairs.

"What were you giggling about?" Issac asks as soon as we're out to ear shot from the rest, "I shouldn't say" I giggle.

"But you want to" He smirks wickedly after we reach the first lot of stairs. "Well, someone told me that Nathan has a funny.." I can't finish my sentence over the giggling and embarrassment of actually saying it.

"Has a funny..?" Issac raises his eyebrows smiling, "Orgasm face" I mumble, giggling. He looks surprised but laughs. "Who told you that?" We stop before taking the second lot of stairs.

"I can't tell you that, I already told you what I was laughing about" I bat my eyelashes up at him, "Fine, I'll take it" He laughs stroking my cheek. I smile up at him.

"Issac?" I mumble after some silence, my smile fades. He hums in response, "Well, I'm- You see- I don't-" I stumble for words, embarrassment slowly eating me up.

"Darcy what is it?" He starts to look worried. Stress builds in me. "Issac- I'm a virgin" I blurt out, telling him about Nathan reminded me about what Ellie had mentioned last night.

There's silence, my body starts to heat up feeling uncomfortable until his face cracks and he starts laughing. "I know. Christ Darc don't do that to me" He puts a hand on his chest.

I feel more embarrassed now that he's laughing. I'm 17 and still a virgin he must think I'm pathetic, or wondering why I still am a virgin and no boy has even taken interest in doing that with me. What if he's thinking I'm disgusting underneath my underwear because I've never done it.

"Darcy, princess I'm not laughing at you don't worry" He must of gathered from my face I'm embarrassed. "I just think it's cute you were nervous to tell me that. It's a good thing you're still a virgin there is nothing wrong with that if you are or not" He smiles, kissing my forehead again.

"I was just saying- well- I was wondering if that's what you w-wanted?" I struggle for words, I've never been in a relationship before to know how things go.

"Darcy we've only just got together, I don't wanna rush things. If you want to do that then I'd be more then happy to but for now, I'm just happy with you" He leans down to plant a small, soft kiss on my lips.

"Now whose been putting this in your head?" He raises his eyebrows, "No one- It's just Ellie was round last night and I told her I was still a virgin-" My sentence gets cut.

"I knew it, has she been filling your head with shit? Making you think that's all I want?" Annoyance crawls into his voice making me flinch, "No no-"

"Why are you even hanging out with her? Just because she's slept with multiple people-"

"Issac. Issac, please stop" I breath, "No, why should I? I don't want her ruining our relationship-"

"It's not like that!" I raise my voice, surprising him. "Why are you defending her? I thought you didn't like her?" He frowns his eyebrows.

"She's apologised, people can change. Ellie is, she's very sweet under that act she puts on" I smile to myself.

"Well I don't like her" He folds his arms, "Well good for you but that doesn't mean I can't like her. She's your oldest friend how could you say that? She's my friend and it's staying that way" I growl at him before turning to walk away.

"Darcy" He takes my wrist, "Look I'm sorry, that was harsh of me. I didn't mean to upset you" He frowns.

"Please try make up with her? Put the past in the past? For me?" I look up at him.

"I'd do anything for you" He leans down, kissing me.

"So dramatic" I giggle against his lips. I pull away to carry on walking to class.

"Or is it romantic?" He smirks following me up the stairs. I pretend a thinking face, "Both" I smile walking through doors.

"But I love it" I walk backwards so I'm facing him, giving him my best toothy smile. "Don't walk into the door" He laughs.

When we get to class Martha - our English teacher - tells us off. We giggle and sit in the only free chairs on the front table.

I look over at Ellie, she's watching Nathan laugh and talk about the party he went to the weekend. When I catch her attention I mouth over asking her how she is.

She nods an okay then points to Nathan and mouths back, asking me if Nathan had mentioned her. I shake my head with a frown, she sighs and lyes her chin on her folded arms.

Amelia and Yasmine give me an odd look, it must seem very strange that me and Ellie went from being frenemies to actual friends.

Martha gives us a writing task but I can't concentrate, I keep thinking about what Ellie and Issac said. Even though he's reassured me that he's happy to take it slow I still panic.

He's going to want that eventually and I don't know if I'll ever be ready, it's what all boys want but I know Issac isn't like all boys.

No he is. That's all he wants out of you. Who could possibly ever like you for you? Answer, no one.

I shake the thoughts trying to focus on the task, "Darcy, this is a writing task not a drawing one" Martha says sternly looking down at the doodles I'd drawn on my work sheet.

"Oh, I'm s-sorry" I clear my throat. She tuts and shakes her head giving me a new sheet.

"You okay?" Issac asks, "Yeah, I just got lost in thought" I smile at him. He nods and goes back to work. I do the same.

"So has my mom told you about the holiday to Mallorca?" I ask, after finally being able to clear my head and get back to work.

"Yeah, she rang me to sort out dates and stuff, I was surprised she asked me to come" He nods along with his words, still filling in the worksheet.

"My dad is coming as well" I huff, "I'm excited but extremely nervous" I frown.

"I know but we'll try have as much fun as possible and plus I'll be there with you" He looks down at me smiling. I nod feeling better. Issac's smile can sort anything.

He thinks your sad and pathetic.

No, he doesn't. I'm in control not this stupid little voice in my head, I'm fed up of it. Making me believe things that aren't true and dominating me. I sit silently so no one will notice and proceed to do my breathing exercises that Louise taught me.

Inhale for 4 seconds...exhale for 6 seconds.

I count in my head. Issac is leaning back in his chair to talk to Jason, I watch as the two front legs of his chair rock back and fourth.

"Okay guys, go have break" Martha smiles and we all rise from our chairs, leaving Issac behind to talk to his friends I go and find mine.

"Wait up" I call after them as I exit the classroom, they look back and smile. "C'mon slow coach" Yasmine winks. I speed up my pace until I've reached them.

"I'm gonna tell him" Ellie mumbles to me as we hang back from the rest, "Today?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Tonight"

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"Ellie! I don't think this is a good idea!" I hiss after her as we approach Nathan's house.

"You're the one whose been wanting me to tell him!" She snaps her head back to look at me with annoyed eyes.

"Yes but I didn't think you'd just turn up at his house and dump it on him" I fold my arms, she's peaking through the bushes to check if he's home before going up his drive.

"Oh would you like me to send him a formal letter?" She whisper shouts at me. I roll my eyes, "Fine just go! I'll follow you" I hush her away from the bunch and up the gates.

Nathan lives in a big house in a posh estate, both his parents are doctors so they're quite wealthy.

We get to the big gate with an intercom system, she holds her index finger down on it for a while until Nathan answers. "Yes okay I'm here, who is it?" His voice rings through the mic, he sounds irritated - not a good start.

"It's me, Ellie..and Darcy" She nods, the gate slowly opens. "How are you going to tell him?" I ask as we wait for the gate to open enough so we can fit through.

"I'm not sure, I'm just gonna wing it" She sounds more panicky with every step. She smooths her baby pink jumper out with her hands, we left college about an hour ago and Ellie had gotten changed.

"What can I do for you lovely ladies?" Nathan opens the door, shirtless. I hold back on my eye roll.

"We need to talk" Ellie's voice is strong and demanding, Nathan doesn't have a choice but to talk. "Is that a youthemism?" He cocks an eyebrow at us with a dirty smirk.

"No you sicko, this is serious plus I have Darcy with me" Ellie pushes the door open and walks in.

"Hey, I don't know what you're into" He shrugs, I huff and walk in after Ellie.

Nathan leads us to his living room where he's paused his episode of Game Of Thrones and sits down on the long stretch of sofa.

"So what's this serious talk about then?" He chuckles like it's a joke, he won't be laughing in a minute.

"It's about the last time we slept together" She mumbles embarrassed. He doesn't seem phased, he nods waiting for her to continue.

"Well that was more than two months ago" She sounds nervous now, her strong dominant tone has vanished into thin air.

"I can't remember much El, all I remember is that you were gone when I woke up" He shrugs, looking like he's watching the clock for this to be over.

"Well you mustn't of used protection or my pill didn't work because" She takes a deep breath, "I'm pregnant and it's your baby" She looks and sounds relived once it's left her mouth.

His face drops, becoming pale, "A-are you sure it's mine?" His eyes are wide with shock and maybe a ting of fear.

"Yes I'm sure! I know who I've slept with and when" She rolls her eyes.

"Well who did you sleep with before me?" He sits up, I think about the question myself. The last person to sleep with Ellie before Nathan was Issac, my heart slowly starts to sink.

"Issac but I know it's not his, he always uses protection and I know I took my pill. You on the other hand don't always use protection as from the multiple times we've slept together, I've had to force you to use one" She looks back quickly to see my pale face. "Trust me, it's not his"

"We were drunk- I must of forgotten to use one" His eyes drift off Ellie's in thought.

"How far pregnant are you?" He asks, his face forms seriousness, "Two months" She tucks hair behind her ear, clearly very nervous.

"No it's not mine" He shakes his head, "Yes it is-" He stands to his feet stopping Ellie's sentence.

"No it can't be, it isn't" His seriousness turns to anger, Ellie looks scared as her eyes look up a him, "What is it? Do you want my money, is that it? Thought you'd say you're pregnant and get my money?" He spits down at her, she flinches.

"No-" Her voice sounds insulted and outraged. "Just because your dad is broke and living in some shit house doesn't mean you can make up some pregnancy story and get my money!" He barks at her, tears spoil over her cheeks.

"My parents would kill me if they found out I'd got a girl pregnant" He sighs, "I am pregnant-" Ellie's voice is wobbly.

"Stop lying! Get out my house" He glares at her, she sits frozen for a minute and so do I. I can't believe what I've just witnessed, I can't even begin to imagine what Ellie is feeling.

"Get! Out!" He shouts in her face, she gets to her feet and storms out. I follow her immediately scared Nathan will scream at me to.

I find her outside crying, my heart breaks. She looks defeated and broken, "Are you okay?" I frown.

"How can he say that?" Tears race down her cheeks. I wrap my arms around her, feeling her shake against me.

"He's just shocked, you heard him. His parents would kill him if they ever found out" I gently stroke her back.

She leans back, wiping her tears. "I guess I'm on my own now" She hiccups, whipping her nose.

"You have me and everyone else when you're ready to tell them" I smile at her, "I don't think I'll be telling anyone after that" She calms down slightly, tears still rolling down her rosy cheeks.

"Not everyone is gonna be like Nathan, everyone is gonna support you. Trust me" I take her hand. She nods whipping her tears.

We sit in the car and talk for a bit and I try and somewhat cheer her up. It doesn't work that well but I achieve a smile out of her.

She's quiet the whole journey to Issac's, I take her hand squeezing it. Sending her a message through eye contact, she smiles at me. I smile back before getting out the car, I hear her car pull away as I walk up the drive.

"Hello kiddo" John beams at me, I give him a hug, "I love your bear hugs" I smile into his chest, I hear a gruffly laugh as he squeezes me more.

I feel so comfortable around Issac's parents I just love being around them. "Hi sweetheart, ready to bake a cake?" Sam says, coming out in an apron.

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issac's pov is coming next !! decided to do something different.