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The sun is bright in the sky, I remember lying on the grass in my garden trying to make out the shapes of the clouds, dinosaurs, love hearts, ice creams.

My light coloured hair fans around me, next to my teddy bear that I lie beside me.

"What you doing princess?" I hear my dad step outside, I sit up smiling up at him.

"Looking at the clouds, that one looks like a butterfly" I point up at it.

He crouches down to my level and looks up, "That one looks like a car" He points. I smile at him ignoring what he's pointing at.

He looks back at me with an adoring smile before scooping me up and walking me inside, "You spoil that little girl" My mom raises her eyebrows but still has a smile on her lips.

"She deserves to be spoiled" He stands in front of the mirror that's hung up on the wall. I cuddle into dad, dipping my head into his neck.

"Don't go shy" He tickles me, I giggle. "Do you know what I see in the mirror?" He asks, I shake my head.

"I see the most beautiful little girl in the world" He looks at, lightly pinching my nose, I giggle pushing away his hand.

He places me down on the ground, my dress swishing around me. Mom has dressed me in a baby pink dress, my favourite dress.

"I'm gonna go work on the car" He nods to mom, whose cooking the tea, "Okay dear" She hums.

I frown watching him disappear and decide to follow, "Daddy?" I call out, waiting for a response I never got.

I stumble out into the garage where I hear music, "Daddy?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Princess you shouldn't be out here, it's dangerous" He walks out from behind the corner, "I wanted to come with you" I frown, chewing on the ear of my teddy bear.

He picks me up and places me on a high top chair, "Don't move" He warns, I cuddle my teddy bear closer to me.

Dad always works on the car, he's fixing it up. It's his prized possession. He has pictures hung up on the wall, baby pictures of us - Me, Joseph and Ezra - and pictures of him and mom when they were young.

"Whose that?" I point, swinging my legs. "You, that's the day you were born" He looks up at it, smiling.

I nod looking at it, "It was the happiest day of my life" He smiles, walking over to grab some tools that are behind me. "What about Joseph and Ezra?" I raise my eyebrows.

"The same for them but you're my little girl" He kisses my forehead, stroking my hair, "You'll always be the biggest blessing to me, never forget that, you'll always be my little girl" He smiles.

Every night he used to say that to me, the last words I'd hear before dropping into sleep, his soft words that warmed my heart and made me feel safe, I was his little girl.

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I wake up scratching my eyes, my blinds have been opened so the morning sun soaks up my room. I yawn sitting up and stretching.

I can hear voices downstairs which is strange, everyone is normally at work in the morning. I get to my feet and walk towards my door.

I hear Ezra's voice, Joseph, Moms, Dad's, Lucy's, then a couple muffled.

I slowly walk downstairs unaware of who exactly is in my house, "Darc is awake" I hear Joseph say before he pops out from the kitchen.

"Morning" He smiles, I reply with a small smile. "We're all having breakfast, Issac's in there too" He nods.

"Issac?" My eyes light up, "Yeah, he came to pick you up for college and mom made him some breakfast" He smiles.

I run past him into the kitchen and smile when I see Issac sitting there eating toast, "Morning darling" Mom smiles.

"Morning" I mumble walking over to sit next to Issac pulling my chair closer to his, "Morning darling Darcy" He winks down at me.

I smile, his scent relaxes me. "What some food?" Dad raises his eyebrows, "No thank you" I shake my head, "I'm not hungry"

He nods, "Have this" Issac breaks half his piece of toast and passes it to me, I'm not hungry but when I smell Issac's toast, I wanna shove it in whole.

I look around the table as I munch, I see an unfamiliar face and remember it's Karen.

She smiles at me & I smile back unsure. I sit closer to Issac, "Darc, you're gonna be on my lap in a minute" He laughs, talking so only me and him can hear.

"Sorry" I look away embarrassed, "It's okay, I don't mind you being on my lap" He winks and I punch his shoulder playfully.

"Ezra, when are you moving?" Dad asks, I listen in. I can't believe Ezra is moving out and wasn't going to tell me. "Next week" He nods.

It's going to be quiet around here without him. I'm not the one moving out but I'm scared, me and Ezra watch Britain's Got Talent every year together. We always decorate the house together and cook Sunday dinners but now, he'll be doing that with Karen in his own home.

I find it so hard to deal with change but I'm going to have to try because its not fair, I'll talk to Louise about it.

"My Ezra, my baby, all grown up" My mom pretends to wipe a tear from her eye dramatically, I smile. We never normally have breakfast round the table like this.

"I'm going to get dressed" I mumble to Issac before leaving the table. I'm hoping no one notices I've slipped away.

My outfit is very simple today, I don't dress up much but I like what I'm wearing. I brush my hair making sure it frames my face perfectly, before getting my coat and bag and heading downstairs.

Issac is downstairs talking to Joseph, I nod but don't make eye contact, "You ready?" Issac raises his eyebrows. I nod.

I wave goodbye to everyone before quickly scuttling out the house, just lately I've not wanted to be at home, it feels so suffocating.

"You okay?" Issac frowns at me, "Yeah I just, don't want to be there at the minute" I mumble getting in the car.

He doesn't say anything, I stay quiet but appreciate his company. I enjoy being around Issac he relaxes me, almost as if he knows naturally what he's doing.

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After my first lesson I head down to reception to meet Louise, I'm really happy to see her. I have so much to talk about.

I smile when I reach the desk and see her face, Ive only had one session but talking to a professional helps. I know I talk to Issac and he helps me but I get a different kind of help from Louise.

"I like your bag" Louise smiles at me as she leads me to the first aid room. "Thank you" I smile.

The room looks the same as last time. I take a seat opposite Louise. "So, how have you been?" She sits back.

"I had a bit of a breakdown the other day, my dad picked me up from college and took me to go see his new family" I mumble, my small feeling of happiness quickly escaping.

"How did it go?" She frowns, "I wasn't ready, he didn't tell me. He introduced me to his daughter, my half sister and his partner. Knowing he's with someone else doesn't effect me as much as knowing he has another daughter" I look down at my feet.

"Why's that?" She tilts her head slightly, "Because I was his only daughter and I don't know, it made me feel special. I was his little girl and now, he has another one. He left me behind, I wasn't enough but now he has Adelaide" I mumble my last few words.

"That's understandable, you feel abandoned but this isn't Adeline's fault. Maybe you should try spending some time with her, build a relationship with her, you've another sibling" She smiles, she's right I do, I have a little sister.

It hadn't quite hit me. I knew she was my half sister and everything but it hadn't quite sunk in.

The session goes on, I tell her I'm not dealing very well with change because Ezra is moving out, "Ezra has always been there, we have yearly traditions and we won't be able to do them if he's not there" I frown.

"Yes you can, he can still come to your house and you can even go to his" She smiles, I sigh, I'm gonna miss him.

"He's had a girlfriend for so long and didn't tell me and I don't know why, I wouldn't of stopped them being together" I shrug.

"Why do you think he didn't tell you?" She tilts her head resting her elbows on her thighs.

"I guess he was protecting my feelings" I shrug. I haven't properly spoken to Karen and that's rude of me, I really need to make an effort.

"And why would he be protecting your feelings?" Her eyebrows frown, "Because I'm always scared people are going to leave me" I mumble unsure.

"I want you to start recognising your feelings or emotions, it's harder then it sounds" She chuckles, "I want you to think when you're feeling something, pin point what that emotion is and write it down. You'll see a pattern over the course of a few days, and then the thing that makes you feel maybe sad or angry we'll try avoid or approach differently" She nods.

Later on Louise gives me some calming methods that she told me to force myself through whatever is happening before the session ends, we normally have an hour together. I'm starting to really appreciate these sessions.

When we are finished I say goodbye and carry on to my next lesson. "Hey Henry" I sit next to him, "Oh, hey" He mumbles.

I frown, he's always so cheery and chirpy, "What's the matter?" I drop my bag to the floor and take my coat off.

"It's Eric" His voice drops quiet so Eric on the next table doesn't hear, "What's going on?" I feel sorry for Henry, but at the same time he knew Eric was straight and didn't try to stop his feelings.

"He came to my house to talk about things" He nods, "It was really good, we had so much fun. We watched a movie and ate some food and the time just flew by because we were just having such a good time, I don't think I stopped laughing" He frowns.

"That's good isn't it?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Yes but he's avoiding me again, he won't even look at me in college" His eyes find Eric on the next table, whose laughing with Issac.

"He's probably going through a confusing time" I frown, "He doesn't seem confused when we're alone, he's embarrassed of me" He takes his eyes off Eric, sadness consuming his face.

"He's not embarrassed of you, you're a good looking guy. I think maybe he just doesn't want people to know, maybe he wants to keep it a secret until he's sure of what he wants and feels" I try catch his eye. I wish I could give myself some advice sometimes.

"Maybe" He nods, "I'm sure all his friends would understand, I know Issac would" I smile, trying to make him feel better.

"Maybe I'm just expecting to much from him, I need to give him some time" He nods. Amelia walks over and joins us.

"Fancy shopping later?" She looks at us smiling, "Sure, Henry needs some cheering up" I link my arms with his, "Great will go after college and then you can stay at mine for the night" She bursts with excitement.

Lesson goes pretty smoothly after that, I catch Issac's eye a few times and give a quick smile before going back to my drawing.

Amelia makes me laugh until I'm crying and it was the best feeling ever, after my session with Louise I've been uplifted into such a good mood.

Henry cheers up and starts to crack jokes himself he even gains a few glances from Eric.

The work we're doing is planning for our art walls, a group of three people get to decorate a strip of wall with whatever they like, I think it's an amazing idea.

We came up with doing a pride wall and really shout the love is love message around. So far we've planned the location of things and what we think will look good.

Amelia looks really happy that I came up with this idea, I want to make her feel as comfortable as I possibly can. I accept her for whoever she is and I want her to know I will be her friend whatever happens.

"Okay class, you can go for the day" Kate smiles. We jump up, I fold up the designs and slot them in my bag, "What idea did you come up with?" Henry asks Yasmine when we get up from our chairs.

"I want to do a wall covered with dogs because, everyone loves dogs" She beams from the table behind us. We all walk out of class.

"That's so cute!" Amelia smiles.

"Thank you" Yasmine's cheeks turn a shade pink. "So, what are you doing for your birthday Darcy?" She turns to me.

Oh no, I didn't want anyone to know it was my birthday tomorrow. "It's your birthday?!" Henry's eyebrows raise.

"Yeah" I mumble shyly. I'm never really a birthday person, I never celebrate it.

"Why didn't you tell us?!" Amelia frowns, "We're your best friends" She folds her arms, the cold air breezes past us when we set outside.

"I don't really tell people" I shrug, "We have to do something!" Henry says excitedly.

"We should go partying" Yasmine pops an idea, "We're not old enough" Amelia sighs.

"Ellie is though, she knows all the good places and she'll get us in" Yasmine nods, I hadn't seen Ellie for a while, not since that lesson we shared and she stormed out.

"Can we? Can we? Pleaseeeee?" Henry pleads, I shrug, what's the worst that could happen? "Sure, lets do it"

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Shopping was so much fun, Yamine left us half way through saying she had to pick up her brother from school. Henry helped me pick out some nice clothes for my birthday and I even treated myself to some underwear.

I want to feel nice and luxurious. I brought them for myself not anyone else, my eyes only.

When we get back to Amelia's, Samantha - her mother - greets us all when we come in. I love to see Sam she's always so cheery. "Henry, Darcy! Lovely to see you" She gives us both a hug.

"Mom, what you cooking? Smells incredible" Issac walks in, looking like he's only just woken up. He's dressed in some cotton grey tracksuit bottoms and bare chest.

"Do you ever stop eating?" Sam raises her eyebrows. He shakes his head, tapping away on his phone.

"Oi arsehead, did you know it's Darcy's birthday tomorrow?" Amelia asks him, he lifts his eyes from his phone and smiles when we catch eyes.

"Wait what?" He snaps into attention, "Why didn't you tell me it was your birthday?!" He frowns his eyebrows.

"It's your birthday tomorrow? Why didn't anyone tell me sooner?! I have to make a cake!" Samantha suddenly starts running around the kitchen.

"You don't have to make me a cake" I laugh nervously watching her. "It's no use, when it comes to birthdays she won't take no for an answer, you'll get a cake" Issac appears behind me laughing.

"She loves to bake" He smiles watching her for a minute before averting his eyes, trying to peek into my bags. I move them from his eyes.

"Issac, stop harassing my guest" Amelia huffs at him, "Shut up pig breath, she was my guest before she was yours" He smirks.

"Actually no, I be-friended her first whilst you were to busy playing with Ellie, like a toy" Amelia takes my hand pulling me towards her.

"Oi shut up! I was the one who invited her to Nathan's party" He frowns his eyebrows, "No, Ellie was!" Amelia's voice raises.

"Issac! Amelia! Stop arguing, I'm sick of it" Sam interrupts.

"Sorry mom" They say at the same time. "Well I kissed her first" He mumbles after a moments silence, he looks proud with himself.

Amelia laughs, "Actually I kissed her first" She smirks, his eyes shoot open, "What?!"

"Yeah, we were at a party and we discovered the pool and well, I ended up kissing her" She shrugs like it's no big deal, his mouth drops to the floor.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Issac's eyes snap to mine, "I can't actually remember it happening" I mumble embarrassed.

"This is so unfair, I saw her first" He folds his arms, feeling sorry for himself.

Amelia giggles and drags me upstairs leaving a sulking Issac behind, "I feel terrible" I frown.

"He'll get over it" She shrugs, Henry lyes on her bed. "Still no text from Eric" He sighs.

"Stop that right now!" Amelia snatches the phone off him, "We're gonna have fun tonight" She says.

"I'm gonna go get changed and put my clothes down" I gesture to the bags. They both nod before resuming conversation.

I go into the spare room that I normally stay in and put my bags down. Amelia had drove me back home to pick a few things up before we arrived here, so I put my little over night bag on the bed.

I decided to change into some comfy clothes, I don't want to be sitting around in my uncomfortable jeans.

I empty my shopping bags, growing hot under the day light pouring in from the window. The room is painted white with blue decor around.

I come across my underwear set, Louise said I should buy something that will make me feel good. I don't think she meant underwear but I wanted to treat myself to some luxurious undies.

I try them on hoping I can pull them off like the model, I make sure the door is closed and no one is roaming around outside before stripping down and placing the underwear on me.

I circle around in the mirror looking at all angles, its black lace that goes with my creamy skin, making it look soft and smooth. I smile, the detail is so pretty its like a barlette, I guess you could wear it both ways.

"Darling Darc- woah" Issac walks in, I jump, "Issac!" I grab the blanket off the bed to cover myself immediately.

"What?" He smirks shutting the door behind him, "Get out!" I shout, doesn't he knock?

I glare at him trying to hide my embarrassment, "I was lonely so I came to see you, I thought you were with Amelia and Henry" He raises his eyebrows.

"I came to put my stuff in here, I just wanted to see if what I brought fit me before putting on my comfy clothes" I mumble embarrassed.

"Well I think they fit nicely" A smirk plays on his lips, "Buttt, I think I need a second look, just to be sure" He walks towards me, I take steps back.

"I don't think you do" I frown my eyebrows, my back hits the wall.

"Darc, it's not like I've not seen it before" He rolls his eyes, "That's not the point! You didn't even knock" I huff at him.

He sighs, standing in front of me he lets a moment of silence pass. "We haven't talked about that kiss the other day" He talks just above a whisper, tucking a wispy strand of hair behind my ear.

"Issac-" He cuts me off, "Darcy, I want to be with you. Ive told you so many times" He connects his eyes to mine.

"Issac" I let out a breath before carrying on my sentence, "I'm a mess, after my state yesterday how could you put up with that?" I look up at him, our faces are close.

"I want to help you, help you through this. I don't care if you break down sometimes we'll just work through it, you can beat this Darcy and I want to be here to see it" He takes my hand.

"I want you too" He bends his forehead down to mine so they're touching.

I feel his hand remove mine from the grip I have on the blanket so it falls to the floor, "You're absolutely beautiful" He whispers.