Last night, I came home walking in the cold night and weeping out my eyes all the way. Mom was still awake and I wept all night on her shoulder, hugging her and cursing life and myself for making it so fucked up. She soothed me all night, telling that everything will be alright.

At last when I ran out of tears, she tucked me to bed saying "sometimes u have to experience what u don't want in life to come to a full understanding of what u do want"

"What do you mean?", I asked with my squeaky voice.

"You are too naïve to understand what you want" , she said and went out of my room , leaving me behind strangled in the pool of questions.

All night I pondered over it. I tried to understand my life. I tried to understand myself. I tried to understand what I wanted and then I concluded that 'I never wanted him out of my life'

I wanted to yell at myself. I wanted to scream and tell the whole town that

'How much stupid I was'

'How I had dug a hole for myself'

'How I had destroyed my castle of happiness within seconds'

Now I got my whole life for myself to mourn at my misery. I was just left with regret , misery and hurt.

He would just move on and marry someone and would start his new life.

What I was going to do now? I was just going to regret all my life. I snatched my happiness from myself. I could see nothing except darkness. I was surrounded by darkness now.

I , myself, had blown the candles of my happiness. I was so naïve to even know my own self.

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Two days had passed and I was still locked in my room. Mom tried everything to make me go out and leave this hell hole. But NO! This Emily had left all hope to live. This Emily couldn't see a single reason to live.

Anna and Allen also came back from their trip. They were also worried. I could see the fear in their eyes. Derek , Anna , Allen and mom were helping me to leave that darkness.

But with each passing day , my love for this darkness was getting strong.

With each passing day, the regret was getting strong.

With each passing day , I started realizing that I never wanted him out of my life.

I was drowning now in something deep ,very deep from where my return was impossible. I was drowning in the DARKNESS.

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A week later:

I didn't hear a word about him. All my day and nights were passing with his memories haunting me. He was everywhere. I could feel him everywhere.

He was sticked to my life like a nightmare. He was now gone but forgot to give my heart back. My all five senses were aching to feel his presence around me.

Suddenly ,My phone rang startling me. I picked it up and a very unexpected number flashed on the screen. 'Stacy'

" Hello? ", I asked with my voice cracking.

"Hello ? Emily?" , her chocking voice came.

My heart started to beat faster, indicating me that something was wrong.

"Y-Yes?", I asked stuttering

"Emily? Please come here. Z-Zach-"

"What happened to him?", I started hyperventilating .

"H-He had an horrible accident. Please come here. H-He needs you"

The phone fell from my shaking hands. I could hear the faint voice of Stacy from the phone.

My world started to shatter. Everything was spinning.

No Emily! No. You should be strong. He wanted me. I stood up with my numb body and came out of my room.

"Mom!", A squeaky voice came out from my throat.

Mom came running to me. "What happened? Emily?", she rubbed my pale hands.

"I have to go!", I didn't know what to do. My mind stopped functioning and I was fearing that my body would too.

"Where Emily?", she asked worriedly.

"M-Mom Zach-"

"what happened to Zach?"

" He had an accident and h-he ",the tears started to run down my cheeks and I lost my senses.

"Get a grip Emily! You should be strong. He needs you.", she hugged me , rubbing my back.

"Y-Yes. Y-You are right. We should go to the h-hospital", I said stuttering.

Nothing bad could happen to him. No! I couldn't live without him. What game the fate was playing with me?

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