Gulf was happy to be back, he had contacted his parents when he was on the bus home and lied about needing to finish some assignments, his body was heating up again and had been very uncomfortable on the bus ride. He had taken extra scent neutralizers this time to hide it because he could even smell his own scent. It was very overwhelming and he felt people stare at him. When he finally came back home the first thing he looked up was heat symptoms. He had to know if this was what a heat felt like and he had been right. He felt the blood drain from his face as he read about his suppressant not working if coming in contact with your pair. Now everything fell in place. He was staring into the distance as he became aware of what he had done. He felt it too now. He was in heat and that man had gotten him so far. All those years of trying to deny that he was an omega came crumbling down now that he had experienced the first time. He couldn't deny it had felt amazing and he still blushed thinking back on it. But he was scared and it made him panic. He had never really known what omegas would be like and he just now started to learn about it. To his surprise, it didn't scare him as much as he had thought. It was still all new to him, and he didn't know who he could ask about it. He sighed and sat down at his little kitchen table. His apartment wasn't big, it was one bedroom and one small bathroom the kitchen and living room were one little space and just enough for one person. As he looked around, he felt lonely. Was this how it had always been? He had never thought of himself as lonely, but now he yearned for something. For someone.

He was trembling as he felt his body grow hot again. He walked over to his little bathroom to look for the suppressant that he had put there. He wasn't ready for this. For any of this at all. He took 2 just to be sure and after some time he felt his body turn back to his normal temperature.

For the rest of the days that he was home he had even more of those moments and he wanted to cry out when the only thing he could think about was Mew. He tried to relieve himself but it didn't feel half as good as with that man. He ruined him and he was scared he wouldn't be able to turn back to normal anymore. He was exhausted as he was constantly yearning for his touch. He cried as he felt his omega whimpering for said man. He didn't know how he would be able to live like this. He would need to find some distraction from his thoughts. He was determined that he would be just fine on his own. He could keep pretending he was an alpha it wasn't that hard and he had been acting like that his whole life.

As the holiday passed, his body turned back to normal again. He was relieved and happy he could just go back to his normal routine.

He walked from the stalls to the university entrance and saw Mild waving at him already. He was just the same and it made Gulf feel at ease. He could do this. He would just think of those pasts weeks as a bad memory. But just thinking about it made his heart hurt. He shook it off and greeted Mild with a big smile.

"Good morning Mild! Finished any of your work?" Gulf said and smiled.

Mild looked at him as if he saw water burning. "what happened to you. Who are you? You're never this happy in the morning..." Mild said and looked at him suspicious.

"you got laid right?" he continued and grinned as he poked Gulf shoulder. As Gulf heard Mild say that he stiffened. Was it that obvious?! He felt a blush creep up his neck and he regained his posture.

"shut up. Of course not. Can't I be happy to see you after the holidays." Gulf mumbled and quickened his pace he didn't want Mild to see his flushed face right now. Mild bounced happily after him and slapped his back as he laughed.

"hmm.. Yeah right! How was she... was she pretty, tell me. I need inspiration." Mild said and wiggled his eyebrows.

"stop that! I'm not telling you anything a-and I didn't even do anything! And how was your week. How are your assignments?" Gulf grinned getting back at Mild. Mild groaned and mumbled something about the new game he had bought and forgotten about his work.

Gulf walked in the classroom with Mild hot on his feet. He felt his heartbeat quicken as he thought back of Mew. He didn't want to be reminded of him right now. Mild had reminded him of things he rather forget just now.

He muted out Mild as he was whining behind him and pressured to tell him what he had been doing. Gulf sat down and grabbed his stuff out of his backpack and pushed Mild of and told him to get ready. Today he had only a few classes. He would go to his part time job in the evening. He was working at a convenience store close by his apartment and he would do some homework before he would have to leave for it. The classes felt like days as they groaned through them and he sighed when Mild finally fell asleep next to him at their last class. He had been talking nonstop and his head was hurting. He wasn't feeling all too well since that morning and he had been trying to not upset his stomach more so he wasn't eating much on their lunch break. He had taken some painkillers but he still wasn't feeling all too good. He was half focused on the lesson and he tried to remember as much as the professor said but he just couldn't focus. His thought constantly went back to that night. He couldn't stop thinking about it and he felt weird.

He was startled when everyone got up and packed their stuff. Well that was much for focusing on their class. He would ask one of his classmates for notes later then. He tapped Mild's shoulder as he was lightly snoring next to him and woke him up.

"come on where finished." Gulf said and stood up and walked away.

"hmm... wait! I'm coming!" Mild screamed as he packed his stuff hastily and ran after Gulf. Gulf sighed, that man needed to get laid. Was he put on earth to just make his headache worse?! He loved him though. He felt at ease in his presence and he wasn't pressured to act any different with him other people mostly expected alphas to be mean and bossy but Mild had accepted him as the soft and grumpy alpha.

Gulf sighed as he closed the back door of the convenience store. He was finally finished and he was happy to go home. He was still feeling sick and he wanted nothing more than sleep right now. He walked the little distance to his apartment and enjoyed the fresh night air. It made him feel a little better and lifted his mood a bit. As he was walking back, he felt like someone was watching him. He looked around but didn't see anything suspicious. He couldn't shake of the feeling until he finally locked his door behind him. He threw his bag somewhere in the corner and walked to his bathroom to take a shower. He wanted to sleep as soon as possible. He only had afternoon classes tomorrow and he was happy to be able to sleep in. It was already past 12 before he came back home and he just wanted to sleep. Maybe he would feel better tomorrow. He closed all his curtains and made sure he had locked his door before heading off to bed. It still felt like someone had been watching him but he could also just be a bit paranoid. Mew wouldn't be able to find him. He hadn't given him his name and he had no other way to link him to anyone. He should be save here...

The next morning didn't start that well. Where he thought he would be feeling better he was now heaving over the toilet and puked out what he had eating the day before. He probably had eaten something bad and he would need to take it easy today. It was still so early but he couldn't go back to sleep at all anymore. He passed the time in the morning by getting notes from the classed from yesterday that he wasn't able to concentrate in and tried to finish some of his work. Every few moments he would run to the toilet to puke up anything he still had in his stomach or he would just gag from the smell of food. He couldn't handle the smell of his breakfast and the only thing he was able to eat before he headed off to classes in the afternoon was an apple. He felt a little better now that he had a bit of energy to go by. He was drinking a lot of water to try and keep his fatigue and nauseous at bay. He was not himself as he struggled to get through classes and he wasn't really talking as Mild was blabbering away next to him and had finally finished some of his assignments. He was so proud of it he had to tell him every 5 minutes. It was good that he still had Mild to distract himself because it helped to get his mind of Mew.

This went on for the rest of the week. He would be throwing up in the morning and try to take it easy throughout the days. He just thought of it as a stomach bug and he would just endure it. It could mostly take about a week for it to get better so he wasn't too worried. Another weird thing was that when he took his suppressants, he would become very dizzy his headaches would intensify even more than usual. That did worry him though. He would wait for it all to get better and see if it had just been from his stomach bug and he would feel better in about a week. He tried to take it easy for the rest of the week and luckily at night he would start to feel better and he would eat as if he hadn't eaten for a day. It was though as he still couldn't eat anything in the morning other than an apple. He was craving fried chicken so much he mostly took some home after his part time job. The feeling of being watched didn't disappear. He still felt like someone was following him when he went home at night and he just blamed it on his paranoid thinking about Mew finding him. He just had to clear his mind and stop thinking about all this. He had better things to worry about and he just ignored his omega whining and whimpering all the time. His heart was hurting but it would fade with time. He couldn't focus on his life of he kept thinking about him.

Night were the worst though. He would have dreams about being with Mew and those dreams had his heart soaring. They were beautiful and felt so real he often thought about it and a small smile would pull on his face. He would be in the man's arms. Mew kissing him softly as they enjoyed the sunset on a beach. They kept returning every time until even his daydreams were only consisting of the man. He lived and breathed on those thoughts and he felt comfortable and less sick when he was thinking about it. He felt less scared and more curious about his omega side...

As 2 weeks had passed, he still wasn't feeling any better. What had he done to be feeling so sick! The nauseous feeling had now only moved to the mornings and if he smelled coffee. That smell could make him feel awful in second even though he loved coffee.

It gotten so far; he was now bouncing his leg nervously in a doctor's office. He needed to get some antibiotics or something for his bug and he wanted to ask about his suppressants. He needed to know why he was feeling this way. Maybe he needed stronger once. who knew? He was called out and he walked after the doctor he had been with for the past few years. He was the one who always prescribed his suppressants and scent neutralizers. He sat down on that weird bed with the paper on top of it. He was biting his lip nervously and looked at Dr. Meng.

"so, tell me what's wrong." Dr. Meng said and looked at Gulf.

Gulf sighed and told him about his symptoms for the last few weeks. How he was feeling nauseous and how his suppressants were making him feel even worse.

The doctor looked at him and stayed quiet. "and they just appeared out of nowhere?" he asked.

"well, yeah I just thought it was a stomach bug but it would not pass after a week.

Gulf was getting even more nervous as he was telling this. Was he sick? Was he dying?! He saw the worried look on the doctor's face and he saw his life flash before his eyes, he was too young to die!

"what is it? Am I going to die?" Gulf asked and he felt panic rise in his chest. His heartbeat quickened and he was bouncing his leg even harder. The doctor chuckled as he grabbed a few papers. "I don't think so, as of your symptoms... it could be that you are taking the wrong suppressants but there's something else that could cause it. I'll just take some tests to see if there's something wrong. It's completely harmless so don't worry."

Gulf was relieved he felt his nerves die down a bit and he nodded and the doctor give him a plastic cup to pee in after he had drawn some blood. It felt weird to do all this. He could have just given him the new pills but he did it all anyway. Better safe than sorry (well... that's what they should have done.)

He waited back in the waiting room as the doctor would call him when he got the tests results in. He just texted Mild to tell him what he was doing and he texted his parents to say everything was fine after they were worried when he told him he was feeling a bit sick.

Half an hour later he was called back by a grinning doctor. It seemed as if nothing was wrong at all! Gulf smiled back and sat down on the other side of the doctor's desk and waited.

"So, we've done some tests and there's a cause why your pills didn't work. We found a high level of hCG in your blood which is probably repelling against your suppressants."

"and that means...." Gulf said with a confused look. He had never heard of it.

"you're pregnant..."

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Gulf laughed. Yeah right, pregnant. That was obviously a joke.

"that's hilarious, I can't be pregnant." Gulfs said and looked at the doctor as if he was joking with him. "well. You do have the hormones in your blood and the pregnancy test we did came back positive but if you're sure you didn't have unprotected sex then it can be wrong." the doctor said with a frown and looked down at the results.

Gulf suddenly stopped laughing and stilled. His world started to blur as he just looked wide-eyed at the doctor. Sex. Yes. He had done that. But—he couldn't be... right? He swallowed hard and felt the hairs on his back stand up in panic. No. No. No. No.

"you did I see... well congratulations!" the doctor said happily but Gulf couldn't hear a thing. His ears were buzzing and his mind was back at that night. This wasn't right. This couldn't be right! He let the doctor talk and prescribe him vitamins and something for his morning sickness and he just nodded. He was shaking as he left the clinic. A bag filled with meds in his shaking hand. What just happened. Gulf was in shock. What the fuck just happened!

This wasn't right. This was all a joke. He pregnant! But! How! Well he knew how! But!

He walked all the way back to his apartment and bumped into people on his way. He couldn't apologize. The only words he heard in his head were...

you're pregnant. You're pregnant...