《forever is an illusion ✓》love is not real
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love completes you'
love, is just an idea -
a flicker of hope
to stop souls from
cutting their lives short,
to feed them happiness
and snatch it away
- to make it real.
how can i love when
my parents fight more
often than not
how can i love when
abuse is considered
as discipline -
as long as
the bruises don't bleed;
love is all
you need.
how can i love when
old age homes are
filled with dying laughter
of our birthing fathers
how can i love
when harassment is
overlooked as a form of love
how can i love
when society doesn't accept
lovers of the same sex
how can i love
when love is nothing
but a crueler form of death.”
• Author's Note
[ TW : depression, anxiety, self harm, threats ]
- i have no idea what this is. to be honest, everything is terrible right now. as some of you may know, i relapsed a few days ago. i started cutting and things have only gotten worse. there's nights when the tears won't stop, the voices in my head just keep getting stronger and there's nothing i can do. i don't have any friend or an adult to rely upon and I'm just having a tough time with life right now lol. I don't know why but nobody believes me when i say i need help - they just think its a phase. It's so immature of me to rant here but honestly i don't care right now. all i want is to be okay. I've gotten hate on here and in real life for being too happy - apparently they think me dating someone has vanished all of my problems. Well, here's a reality check - I've gotten vulgar messages, threats from someone I know irl and also someone on here. Comments on my body, telling me to take my life. It's even harder nobody takes this seriously. The person I'm dating told me it was 'unusual' of me to struggle with mental health. I honestly am just getting worse and worse, but I'll try my best to just... hang on i guess.
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I'll try to write more. Thank you for reading, I love you all so much ❤
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