love completes you'

love, is just an idea -

a flicker of hope

to stop souls from

cutting their lives short,

to feed them happiness

and snatch it away

- to make it real.

how can i love when

my parents fight more

often than not

how can i love when

abuse is considered

as discipline -

as long as

the bruises don't bleed;

love is all

you need.

how can i love when

old age homes are

filled with dying laughter

of our birthing fathers

how can i love

when harassment is

overlooked as a form of love

how can i love

when society doesn't accept

lovers of the same sex

how can i love

when love is nothing

but a crueler form of death.”

• Author's Note

[ TW : depression, anxiety, self harm, threats ]

- i have no idea what this is. to be honest, everything is terrible right now. as some of you may know, i relapsed a few days ago. i started cutting and things have only gotten worse. there's nights when the tears won't stop, the voices in my head just keep getting stronger and there's nothing i can do. i don't have any friend or an adult to rely upon and I'm just having a tough time with life right now lol. I don't know why but nobody believes me when i say i need help - they just think its a phase. It's so immature of me to rant here but honestly i don't care right now. all i want is to be okay. I've gotten hate on here and in real life for being too happy - apparently they think me dating someone has vanished all of my problems. Well, here's a reality check - I've gotten vulgar messages, threats from someone I know irl and also someone on here. Comments on my body, telling me to take my life. It's even harder nobody takes this seriously. The person I'm dating told me it was 'unusual' of me to struggle with mental health. I honestly am just getting worse and worse, but I'll try my best to just... hang on i guess.

I'll try to write more. Thank you for reading, I love you all so much ❤