Sitting on the chair in waiting room while waiting to get the news from the doctor about My Kyara is the most hardest thing I've been through in my life. Kyara's family is here and I'm felt a little bit relief when Kyara's mother is her doctor. Now her mother is performing a surgery on my angel.

I didn't stop praying about my Kyara safety. After being hold down by 30 warriors of my pack from coming busting into the surgery room not long ago and received an injection calm my wolf down. My heart ached knowing my Kyara is positive cancer. I regret for calling her weak.

"Sorry Devin but you can't come in here"

My future-mother-in-law said to me but I don't care. All I care is about my Kyara!! And this idiots keep coming in my way towards my beautiful that is now has been laying on the stretcher. After she said that my eyes turns RED. My wolf started to take over and I feel myself changing into my Lycan form.

"I NEED MY MATE !!! F*CK YOU ALL!!! I NEED TO GO TO HER SO F*CK OFF!!"

I growled loudly making her took a step back but before I get to ran pass her I was being pulled by my warriors. Kyara's dad and brother also there helping the Warriors to pullled me from coming inside surgery room.

"I COMMAND YOU TO LET GO OF ME!! LET ME GO BEFORE I KILL ALL OF YOU "

I roared making the whole building heard my roaring and warning but they still keep pulling me. URGH!! I'm getting more and more frustrated by all these idiots. I was about to attack them but stop when I felt something sharp pain going through my skin at my arm. My wolf started to feel weak and slowly change back into my human form. One of them pass me shorts and I took it.

Kyara's father came towards and sit beside me. He slowly patted my shoulder.

"I know this is hard Devin. I completely understand you. I'm her father and trust me it's hurt to know your only daughter in the hospital. I've raise her, I was there watching her saying her first word. I was there watching her taking her first step. She is indeed a beautiful girl inside out and always be my little Kyara. I know she is now hurt but think again Devin she will be even more hurt when she knows her mate is hurt especially because of her. I know that feeling young man, I've more experience than you. It's the best if you keep praying about her safety and praying about her surgery went well. Just want to let you know, whatever happen in there, She will always love you. Remember that"

He got up but not before gave me a sad smile before leaving me alone. Oh god, Please make everything went well, I really need her to live. She is my everything my life. I don't think I can survive without her by my side. I really love her. I really do with all my heart. I sighed and rub my forehead in frustration.

Look at me, I'm helpless now. I can't do anything to save my Kyara. I'm the one who should be call WEAK. I'm f*cking weak. I should shout at myself the way I shout at her that day. She was in there battling for her life and I ? I did nothing to help her. Tears keep flowing down my cheeks. Dear god, I'm praying to you please take my soul instead of her's. She did nothing to deserve this!! It's me who you should punish!!! I kill peoples. I take a lots of people's life. I'm the DEVIL !! SHE IS THE ANGEL. She is everything but bad. Everything about her is perfect. She is the purest while i'm the tainted one. I will sacrifice everything that I had for just for her to be healthy again.

I'm sorry for shouting at you.

I'm sorry for letting out my anger on you.

I-I'm sorry ..

for breaking your heart into pieces..

Please be safe for me, Please don't leave me. This world is lonely without you. No one loves me like you do, baby.

Yeah, No one love me actually..not even my parents.

So please ...don't leave me. Silently my heart begs for my precious mate to not leave me.

I was brought back to reality when the surgery door opened revealing Jonnie in lab coat. He had a stain tears on his cheeks walking towards me. My heart beat became faster, afraid of hearing what will be the news about my Kyara. Please be a good news, I'm begging you!!

"Alpha, I'm here to tell you something that is Kyara has been forbidding me from telling you until the time has come. It's time for you to know that the day she was got admitted into the hospital is because she was coughing out blood and the results showing that Kyara is ........positive lung cancer, stage two. I'm sorry for not telling you earlier because she was commanding me to not tell you as Luna. I-i can't do anything, I'm truly sorr-"

He was cut off when I grab him by his collar. My wolf awakened after hearing the words that coming from his mouth.

"WHAT THE F*CK IN YOUR MIND TO KEEP THAT IMPORTANT THING BY YOURSELF?!!?!! TELL ME A GOOD REASON BEFORE I SNAP YOUR F*CKING NECK"

"I-I'm sorry Alpha. She was telling me that as Luna. I-i can't d-do anything about it but trust me, I really do want t-to tell y-you. P-please forgive m-me Alpha"

I tighten the hold on his collar while growling dangerously at him.

"YOU AND YOUR F*CKING MATE REALLY TESTING MY PATIENTS. FIRST YOU KEEP MY KYARA FROM ME AND NOW YOU DON'T TELL ME ABOUT MY MATE HEALTH ISSUES. I WILL F*CKING TEAR BOTH OF YOUR BODY INTO PIECES-"

"Alpha put him down!!"

My head snapped at the owner of the voice. It's Reggie, the bastard. I growled at him wanting him to back off before I kill this a$$hole infront of me.

"Alpha, I'm begging you please put him down. it's not his fault for not telling you because he only being loyal towards his Luna. He can't defy his Luna command. Please let him go"

Reggie said with pleading eyes. I started to take over and let Jonnie's collar go causing him to fall. it's true at what he just said, he only being loyal towards their Luna.

"What is the best option to cure it?"

I asked, looking straight into Jonnie's eyes wanting an instant answer to save my Kyara.

"Lung transplant, there's a victim from suicide, before she die. She made an agreement on donating her lung and liver at cancer campaign four years ago. We can do that b-but w-we need you and Kyara's family permission t-to perform a transplant surgery on Kyara"

There's a light if hope in my life about saving my Kyara. Thank god, I really need my Kyara to be save." I gave you my permission" I nodded at him but keep my cold face on.

"That's great, now we need your sign and her family's but Alpha it's a high risk. We might make it and we might not"

"So you better make it happen successfully or I swear I'll kill both of you with my bare hands"

I growled in warning and they nodded furiously.

"W-will do our best Alpha" Jonnie said carefully, fear clearly can be seen in his eyes afraid of my threat. He better be, with that I dismissed them.

She is the strongest person I ever know. She even manages to put on smile on her beautiful face after knowing she was diagnosed with lung Cancer. She also managed to make my days by hearing her laughter and endless 'I love you's. Sadness started to washed over me when I know the reason she was teaching all the things I didn't know how to do it without her help. It's like a preparation for me to survive when she is gone. My heart broke into millions pieces at the thought of me living alone in this cruel world without my angel by my side. I'm the strongest devil but I'm the weakest without my angel. My kyara. Love, please don't leave me alone in this world.

I'm being honest, I rather die than to be left alone on this world and be with her forever. I don't have anybody. Not a single soul care about me but there's only one person, James. But of course sooner or later when he meet his mate he will also leave me. I will be always a heartless person and they can't blame me from becoming heartless because my heart, she already took it and leave me.

I took a shaky breath when tears keep streaming down my cheeks at the thought of her.

It's been 9 hours now. I still patiently waiting for her in the waiting. Baby you need to survive for me. Please fight for me, love. I'm here waiting for you to come back into my arms, I silently said that wishing hard the surgery went successful. Suddenly the surgery door opened. Revealing Kyara's mother in surgery uniform. She walked up towards me and her family.

"Good news, We successfully performed a transplant surgery and bullet removal on her but she will be takes time to wake up. We just have to wait until she is fully recovered".

Wave of relief washed over me. OH god thank you ! Thank you for hearing my prayers. Don't worry, Love. Take your time. I will be by your side when you wake up. I promise to that.