Dave is Amelia's brother, and we have not spoken in years since I found him sleeping with one of the bridesmaids at there cousins third wedding. If it wasn't for me needing some air, I would've never found them out behind the bushes like some deers trying to mate.

"What about me?" I ask in a nonchalant way. Before he has the chance to reply, a small cry fills the room making my heart melt.

"Oh he's awake," says Phil, Liz's husband. As he walks to the car seat and picks up is baby boy, he starts to walk back to his seat until he looks at the eagerness on my face and smiles.

"Do you?" he asks me. My face lights up like a kid being told they can have ice cream and cake. Nodding my head yes, he walks over to me, kneels down some, and hands me the handsome baby boy.

My heart goes out in aww immediately as his cries stop and he opens his tiny eyes to reveal light green ones with a hint of blue. But the green came from his father which he carried most of his features. All except his tiny nose. That came from Liz.

As he looks into my eyes he doesn't look at them with confusion, then again, he is a baby. He only looks at me and his little lips turn up at the end. He is smiling at me.

"Look baby," Liz says shoving her husband. "He's smiling. Say hello to your aunt Irina, Theo."

"Theo," I say out loud. "That is a beautiful name."

"You can thank me for that," Liz smiles and looking at her husband.

"I don't see what was wrong with the name Billy," he tells her honestly.

"It's far to common. None of that matters now, cause if you change his name behind my back, you and I will stay married but you won't have no more kids."

Phil gulps which makes us all laugh. Liz has a bit of a temper, and sometimes when she says something harsh it is best to believe her. The last girl that didn't got the side of her hair chopped off in the eleventh grade.

"You will stop having sex with me?" her husband asks with a hint of sadness in his voice.

"Of course not baby," Liz smiles as she leans in to kiss him. Once they break away, Liz holds his chin in her hands. "I would chop your man hood off. I mean sure I can try and make into a toy for myself and you can watch or whatever, so in a way I would still be having sex with you."

Phil's eyes go wide as we all burst into laughter. "Don't y'all just love the name Theo," he says looking at us nervously.

"Better not do anything stupid," Amelia laughs.

"And to think I raised you better than than that," her mother chuckles.

Looking back down at Theo, I notice his eyes are wide open and searching my face. He reaches his tiny hand out and places it on my light complexion.

"When do you plan on getting married?" Dave asks speaking again. I try to look at Theo so I can hold my smile in place, but it still falls.

Standing from the couch, I hold little Theo close as I walk to Liz and carefully place him in her arms.

Walking back to my seat, I look Dave in the eyes. "I don't plan on getting married."

"But I know how much you want a baby," he says flatly. I curse myself under my breath for ever giving him a time of day.

"Look, just because Irina is pregnant, doesn't mean she needs a man," Amelia snaps. Once she realizes what she says, she gasp and places a hand over her mouth. "Shit, I'm so sorry Nina," she tells me. I didn't want anyone to know yet until I found out if I was pregnant or not, but then again these people are family. All but Dave.

"It's fine," I tell her.

"Irina?" says the woman that I have looked up to since I was young. Looking at her face was shock and excitement. That was the look on everyone's face, except Dave. He looked mad and hurt.

"I got artificially inseminated a couple of days ago. There is a chance I can be pregnant, and there is a chance that I won't be," I tell them.

"I'm so-," Liz starts to say with joy in her eyes but Dave cuts her off.

"You want a baby that bad you put some random guys sperm in you?" Dave asks.

"Yes. I want a baby so I put some random guys sperm in me," I say in mocking way.

"You are so stupid," Dave says. Tensing up a bit, I relax my body and show that I am not effected by his words. "What will you tell them when they find out that they are a test tube baby? Why go as far as being inseminated when you and I had something. I wanted a baby with you too!" he shouts a bit.

I feel no pain in my chest, so I know he is telling the truth. "You weren't suitable to be a father for me," I tell him.

Anger flashes in his eyes as I see his body tense up. Knowing how Dave is, he will say something small to hurt me.

"How dare you tell me that!" he shouts making Theo burst into cries.

"Dave that's enough," Amelia warns.

"What about you? Are you fit to be a mother? Your parents died in a car crash and your foster parents abandoned you with a note and money! You were never properly raised into a woman, so are you even fit to be a mother?"

Feeling like the oxygen has been sucked from the room, I find myself having problems inhaling and exhaling. Feeling a small liquid drop on my face, I realize that I am crying.

Looking at Dave his face was clear of anger, only regret and sadness was in its place. He never fully enjoyed hurting me. Looking at everyone in the room, their face was holding pity, but Amelia's face is holding pain as she has tears of her own.

Standing from the soft dark brown sofa, I rush out of the living room and hurry through the front door without stopping at my name being called by the multiple people.

I don't bother covering my eyes as no sun rays are noticeable. Instead the sky is dark with small flashing lights in the think clouds indicating a storm is coming.

Trying to keep my hands steady, I hold my keys in my hands doing my best not to drop them. I just want to get in the car and drive.

"Irina," I hear Dave call after me. "Irina wait! Irina I'm sorry," I hear he say coming closer.

Stopping in my tracks, I ball my fist up and as I turn around to face him I hear a loud smack as my fist connects with his nose. As a hear a small crack I smile in satisfaction.

Dave stumbles a bit but catches his balance as everyone rushes out of the house. Phil immediately comes between the two of us.

"Your sorry? You know what, if you wouldn't have cheated on me with that drunk bridesmaid I would've probably ended up marrying your sorry ass and having a kid by you and being stuck with you for life. I am happy you did what you did Dave because you are a low down, dirty, sorry excuse for a man!" I shout with pain in my voice, yet this all needed to be said.

"And now you see why I won't take you back? You don't care about me! You only care about yourself! I wasn't ready to lose my virginity to you and you sleep with the next thing that moved! You know what Dave? You are a sorry ass piece of shit and next time your nose is the last thing you need to worry about," I say storming off to my car.

"Leave my house now!" I hear Amelia tell her brother as she calls after me.

Without stopping I unlock the drivers side of the door, put the key into the ignition, and after cranking up the car only to pull off leaving a screech in the air.

Once Amelia's house is out distance, I stop at a stop sign and look for other cars. Seeing no cars, I turn my car off and let out a loud cry.

Feeling the tears fall down on my cheeks, and lap I start to wipe them away only to replace them with more.

Dave was right. My parents did pass away in a car accident, only leaving me as a survivor, and a little heart shaped locket that never take off. My adopted parents were good to me. But one day I came home from school and the only thing that was left was a letter and account information to their money. I didn't bother opening the letter, I was in to much pain to know the truth. I was only thirteen after all.

I have never had a family. Not in the right way. That's why I got inseminated. So I can have one. To make my own and never abandon them. To help them up when they fall, to be their best friend, but a mother too. That is why I wanted a baby. Why I need a baby.

Tears start to sting more as my vision begins to become foggy. Wiping my eyes, I try to pull myself together.

I look down at my flat stomach and sigh. "May the odds be in my favor."