❁The old adage that ‘there are two sides to every story’ is not true. There is a story for every storyteller. ❁

No matter how much I try to deny this, but I felt so good visiting church after eleven years. Sometimes, I can't even understand my own mood swings.

I didn't pick up my diary since that very night, almost three years ago. But suddenly today I picked it up. I wanted to read all the crazy things I've ever written in this.

The sky never looked so dark and peaceful. Under the glittery moonlight, on the terrace, I take a sigh after reading all the silly things I had written.

Walking over to the railing, I rest my arms on it. I've never had a happy childhood. On every other page I'd mentioned how sad I was. Until I met Hans.

He really changed my perspective towards life. I always used to cry on the bad things, he taught me how to focus on the bright side. Yes, I've cursed him more than I've asked for blessings for myself.

But I'll never regret meeting him. I had an amazing time and experience with him. We might have fallen off. But he made my life special at a certain time. We grew together, even if we grew apart.

The smile that was plastered on my face without my realisation, disturbed by someone. What the hell is Seth doing in Hans' house, on this terrace?

“ Seth! ” I shouted and he covered my mouth with his hand, hurtfully. Pushing me towards the corner, he sticks my back to the wall. “ How dare you cheat on me? ”

“ Cheat!? Who said we were dating? ” I grunt when he removes his hand from my mouth and grabs my arms. Not even Hans has ever held my arms this tightly that they'd get bruised.

“ Nora, you don't know who I am. We both know that you were with me because of your own greed. I believe in give and take. I'm willing to give you those fucking documents, just give me what I want. ”

“ Look, Seth, I know, I'm sorry. I was trying to be friends with you because of some reasons, but I maintained my limits. I never promised you anything. Be a man and accept whatever you're doing is wrong! ”

“ You doubt my manliness? ” he cocks a brow and my heart is now officially in my mouth. He looks extremely furious that he's acting insane. He has lost even that tiny speck of conscience left in him.

I try to push him away with all my guts but he has pinned both my hands on the wall. I twat him. Smash his foot with my heel. But he doesn't seem to bulge.

Instead, he brings his mouth closer to mine, so I strike my head with him in attempt to save my dignity. No use, it only returns me more pain.

You bloody bald head!

“ You wanted to see my manliness, didn't you? ”

There's no way I can stop him. I've never felt this helpless in life, ever. I close my eyes as though they would bury inside my sockets.

He kisses me.

A drop of tear rolls down my right cheek. My dignity was all I had left. I've always fought for it. I even left the person I loved the most, just for the sake of my dignity. And today, I've nothing left.

It might be just a kiss. But for me, it is a certificate that I can't protect myself. It proves I'm weak. It shattered my faith in myself.

As I come to my senses, I realise my hands are no longer being held forcefully. My eyes are still closed and his lips are still intertwined with mine. But with all the honesty, I feel as if I've kissed these lips a million times before.

Why do they feel so familiar?

He finally pulls away and I slowly open my eyes. I can't decide if I want to cry or smile. It wasn't Seth who kissed me, it was Hans. I decide to stay shocked.

“ Signore, that's my girlfriend. ” Seth shouted while standing up from the floor. Hans must have threw him on the floor to prevent him from kissing me. And then, he took the advantage himself.

Hans punches him making him again fall on the floor. He keeps punching him that Seth's face starts to bleeding. His injuries from the previous night didn't even start to heal and now Hans is giving him new ones.

“ And that's my wife you bastard. ”

The whole crowd including Andrew, Matt and some other people from office storms in and I keep standing there like a ghost thinking if I should ask Hans to stop, until I realise...

Did Hans just called me his wife?

No. No way. He did not.

As though someone cut the ground off my feet. I can feel a thousand stares at me. As Andrew and a few other men pulls Hans away from Seth, Matt walks over to me and says, “ Nora, what is going on here? ”

I literally have no idea, Buddy.

“ What happened, Hans? ” Andrew questions and Hans just stares at the half dead man, while breathing heavily. “ Take this bastard away from my sight or I'll kill him right here. ”

“ Okay, yeah. But would you tell me what happened? ”

“ I want to talk to Noriana, alone. ” he now looks at me as I still stand on the exact spot I was in, a couple minutes ago.

“ Fine. ”

Within no time, the terrace gets all vacant and silent, again. It's just me and Hans. This silence is haunting me now. I don't know how to confront him. I better leave. As I take a step away, Hans holds my elbow.

Coming in front of me, he places his hand on my face with his fingers penetrating through my hairs. “ You alright? ”

Do i look alright, you idiot?

I nod while looking away.

“ Noriana, I-- ” he tries to justify but hearing my original name from his mouth after so many days, I felt a weird sensation throughout my veins.

“ I warned you to never call me with that nam--” this time he cuts me off, “ I will call you Noriana, and you can't stop me. ”

I hate it when he retorts me. But why did I feel safe when he retorted me this time.

“ Why? Did I become your property when you appointed me as your assistant? ” I stammer with no confidence in my voice. Look around, anywhere, but Hans' eyes.

“ No. But I have my right on you. ” my eyes dramatically avert from the sky to look at Hans.

“ You had. You lost it long ago. ”, so today out of the blue, he claims his right on me. What about my rights? My claims? One he says, he shows how much he cares for me and other day he just leaves me broken.

Am I that easy to play with?

“ Love, I'm really very sorry for everythin-- ”

“ Why did you tell Seth I'm your wife? We're not, we're not married. It was a bluff, right? I signed those divorce papers. I know I did. ” the question that was swinging in my head since the second Hans said it, finally got a chance to stand out, verbally.

“ Noriana, yes, you signed the papers, but-- ”

“ But what, Hans? ” I shout.

“ I never went for the annulment. ”

“ What? Why? How dare you? ”

“ Divorce was your idea. You never asked for my opinion. ” he acts like a saint and catches me off gaurds. I can literally rip his throat out right now. “ My idea? My idea? You are the one who brought me those paper. You asked me to sign them. ”

Marvelous. Brilliant. Excellent. Now let me guess, he will act like he doesn't remember anything at all. Or even better, tell me I'm lying.

“ T-That is not true. Why are you lying? Noriana, tell me, why did you leave? Was it me? Or the deal? Or you started loving someone else? What the fucking thing came to your mind that you decided to leave suddenly.”

I knew it.

Let's just hear what this man has cooked inside his head.

“ I'm sorry. I won't yell. Just tell me if you fancied someone else. You didn't want the baby. I understand. But you could have cared to tell me this. I have always tried to understand you. You just never gave me a chance. ”

“ I came to tell you. ” I blurt. And he gasps acting oblivious. “ I even gave you another chance. I waited for you. But you made your point clear. You said it yourself that you wanted this divorce. ”

Oh Heavens, my blood pressure is rising. I need to take my meds. I ignore the conversation and the man standing in front of me, and step away.

“ You can't go like this. I never said any such thing. And when did you come to me to talk about us having a child? What point did I make clear? ”

“ That you didn't want my father's money. You wanted your life. ” I spit and storm out.

What is talking about? When did any of this happen? This woman is sick. She makes up her own fantasy stories and then lives in it.

I'm done with her.

Rubbing my eyebrows, I let out a sigh. I walk towards the chair to sit. As I go closer, I see a book kind of thing.

Holy Lord, it's her diary.

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Aloha, you magnificent beauty ٩( ᐛ )و

❁ Next to this one, is the last Dear Diary Chapter.

❁ I edited this chapter while watching a movie so I apologize if there are any errors in the typing that didn't catch my notice.

❁ What songs are you currently listening to? Do Go Yet by Camila Cabello has been my jam recently.

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If it's not in your hand. Don't give it permission to bother your brain.

- Something I remind myself everyday.