Dear..

I have seen how you were as a child.

You were the family glue.

At an early age you took care of your siblings even when you needed to be taken care of yourself.

When your parents got mad at something your siblings did, you always took the blame for them.

At age 12 you started cleaning the whole house,

like your life dependent on it.

When you didn't,

You got punished.

You never even took money for yourself from birthdays and Christmas - gifts, from your relatives.

You always gave it to you father, who demanded it.

Because if you didn't, you were selfish.

When you became a teenager you always saved money to your own parents.

Because they never had enough.

Nonetheless, your father never worked.

It was only your mother who was the provider.

And this caused a lot of the fights your parents had.

It was always your mother who said something to your father and the rest was history.

Afterwards you always tried to put a smile on your mothers face.

Because who would, If you didn't.

No wonder why you feel empty inside.

You never got to be a child.

So grieve.

Grieve as much as you need, my dear.

Because you could of been a different child.

The one who got to be happy instead of the one who got to be afraid of what tomorrow might bring.

- A.M🍷