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weeks by weeks go by, and many visitors come to see me every day. kenma stayed with me every day, going away when other people come around because he was too nervous.

kenma was stood Infront of the window, looking at the glistening snow as he sniffled, wiping the tears from his eyes whilst he turned back around and walked back

the pain in my chest grew worse, my arms getting skinnier and veinier the more I moved. I was so tired, I couldn't bear not sleeping. I had purple bags under my eyes, my hands shaking from the lack of energy and body movement.

it's been about 4 weeks and kenma hasn't been to any of his classes which obviously made the school concerned considering the fact that they didn't know about what happened with you.

I didn't know what to do, I felt stuck and gross sitting in my own sweat all day as I thought. it was cold... so cold. my hands felt numb but the sting-like throbbing pounding through my fingers made me want to chop them off

"kenma" I spoke softly, looking at the boy who had just finished crying. he looked at me with a sad expression, tilting his head slightly.

"it's getting harder to breathe..." I struggled, my breath hitching a couple of times a second.

my vision started to get blurry, the light from the window shining brighter as I squeezed my eyes shut, tears rolling down my face in a panicked manner.

"y/n?" I heard kenmas faint voice that felt so far away. I couldn't move my body, head swinging low whilst my hands were shaking.

"y/n? are you okay? what's wrong?"

"y/n!"

my body feeling weak as I slumped back, my eyes following the boy running out of the room to get a doctor. my eyes started to roll to the back of my head, my hands shaking and twitching.

I still heard the faint sounds of kenmas yells and screams as the doctors shoved him out of the room, my hand slowly going out to reach out to his figure that was so far away, seeing his screaming figure trying to fight past the doctors who pushed him out.

"GET THE FUCK OFF ME! Y/N!" his voice sounded muffled, the feeling of an oxygen mask being placed on my face as my eyes started to close, a smile forming on my face as I passed out.

it all felt painful, the experience was painful. it hurt, physically and emotionally. the constant stabbing of my chest, the constant tightening of my stomach and the feeling of sleep deprivation drove me insane.

I could hear my heart beating from my chest, the sound only getting louder as it started to slow down.

'am I gonna die...?'

'what's happening to me?'

'Why did this happen to me?'

'I was so happy with my life'

'everything made me smile'

'All I can hear is the thumping sound of my heart'

'kenma...I need kenma'

'i need my friends back'

the sound of my heartbeat rapidly decreased, soon turning into 1 beat per 5 seconds until there was nothing at all but a light.

you suddenly woke up in a dark room, surrounded by nothing. you could hear your own thoughts at this point.

"y/n l/n, back again I see?" a strange voice called from behind me causing me to turn around to the strange cloaked man.

"it's good to see you again" I smiled at the man, my voice weak yet cheery.

"your a bit early...once again," the man said, the hood covering his face making it hard to distinguish his features.

"am I?"

he gave a nod in response making you chuckle a bit.

"I think I'm right on time."

"do you? that's not the y/n I know"

"it's the y/n I've tried to hide from everyone. including you, "

"I don't think you've been hiding anything. you're an open book to everyone. you know you enjoyed yourself all this time"

"have I?"

"you have, I know it" the sudden clashing of memories flooded my brain. me and my friends, parents, old pets, teachers, and random kids from school. everything came flooding back.

it overwhelmed me, seeing how happy I was and how I'll be leaving that behind.

"Are you ready to leave it all behind?" The fragile voice said, tilting his head at me.

"...I don't know"

"do you want to start over?"

"I do..."

"But you won't have the same friends as before... you won't be able to be with the person you want the most. correct?"

"...correct"

"so why not start a new life in the same body?"

"what do you mean by that?"

"keep fighting to stay alive."

"I'm already gone"

"wake up y/n"

"huh?"

"I said wake up"

"I'm not asleep...?"

"Y/N! WAKE UP! PLEASE, I CAN'T LOSE YOU!"

"what are you rambling on about?"

"y/n?!" I started to feel taps on my cheeks, the cloaked figure soon disappearing as I opened my eyes, the pain in my chest going away slowly.

"Kenma? what are you doing here?" I asked, sitting up on the hospital bed, looking at the boy who was out of control sobbing.

"I thought you were gone, you died... your heartbeat flat-lined!"

"he did it again..." you muttered, looking down at your skinny hands.

"who did what again?"

"he gave me another chance"

"who did?"

"you'll meet him someday... I feel better kenma..."

"what do you mean...?"

"I'm tired... I need sleep..." your eyes started to close again before you lay down, covering yourself with the blanket, drifting off to sleep with a blank mind.

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