Jungkook is blaming himself for your pain, "You don't deserve any of that pain, Doll and I know that I don't deserve your love."

It's been two weeks. No matter how many times he tried to meet you, he couldn't. Coz you aren't at Jimin's house anymore.

Jungkook knew that he killed your hope, trust, love and innocence and he knows that he deserves this loneliness, this pain of losing you.

He just wants to let you go and let you live your life. Without him. Without the pain. He hopes that your pain fades away.

When you loved him, he felt. Loved. Treasured. But now all he feels is Shame. Regret. Guilt.

Whenever he closes his eyes, he only sees the memories of you...

Koo, can we go grocery shopping today?

The cooking staff would've probably gotten the stuff baby.

But Koo, husband and wife also do grocery shopping. It is kinda like a date...

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A wife can cook dinner for her husband, Mr Jeon.

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You are so handsome, my husband.

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I love you, Koo.

Your every word, every breath, every giggle, every laugh flashed in his mind.

He blamed himself for overshadowing your shine with his darkness. He broke a beautiful, joyful woman. He turned her into a hopeless dead soul.

"You look like a zombie", Yoongi walked into Jungkook's study.

"Why aren't even coming out of this house, you know there's a company you got to handle right?"

He doesn't give two flying fcks about the company. Nothing matters to him now, coz he already lost the most precious thing in his life.

"I don't give a damn, Yoongi."

"The stocks are falling Kook. It's time to get serious before the situation gets worse... You cannot get stuck onto that woman..."

"She is my wife", he slammed his fist against the table, "She isn't any woman, Yoongi. She's the one I loved. This time I'd kill myself if that is what she wants...I'll disappear from her life, from this world to not cause her any slightest pain but fck, I already pained her."

Jungkook broke down into tears. No one has ever seen him this vulnerable. No one has ever seen Jungkook cry.

"Then why don't you get her back, as her for forgiveness."

"I don't deserve one, Yoongi. I'd rather stay out of her sight than hurt her again."

Jungkook is so in love that he is ready to lose you. Ready to let you go...

For the sake of your happiness.

♡

You are bored and you want to divert your mind off him. To anything but him.

You cannot believe it happened to you. You felt like you changed him, loved him but instead you were the naive one. Clueless little soul.

You went to your office to see Jimin. You don't want him to handle all the workload.

But the truth is you don't want to be alone and keep playing old scenes in your mind.

So you just went to the office and sat beside Jimin. And did nothing.

He is quiet too, sometimes trying to cheer you up by offering you food, drinks, outings...but you are not in the mood for anything.

He sighed in defeat, "I know you should take your time to heal but I don't want you to lose yourself in this process, Y/n."

You are listening to his words those are just passing in and out of your ears.

You started feeling dizzy and nauseous. Not sure why.

You are eating meals on time coz Jimin is forcing you to. But you are still feeling tired and tired for a few days.

Maybe your emotional pain is draining the strength out of you. But you felt a sharp pain in your belly...

"Jimin...", Your eyes squinted in pain.

"What's wrong, Y/n?"

"I don't know, my stomach...", And you lost consciousness.

"Y/n, open your eyes", he patted your cheeks, "Y/n, fck!"

♡

"Congratulations, she is pregnant", the doctor came out smiling from the medical examination room.

Jimin could not believe his ears. This is not the timing especially when you are going through a lot. There is no hint of happiness on his face.

"Is she fine?"

"She is alright. Just normal nausea and dizziness and some vitamin deficiency. Get her the medicines I prescribed and don't let her lift heavy things and especially, no stressing over things...make her happy and peaceful."

Peace? That is something he cannot give you.

Jimin pushed the door and went inside to see you. Lying on the bed staring at the ceiling. Lifeless.

You looked at his worried face. He doesn't know what to say too.

You kept your hand on your belly, "What would I say to my child if he/she ask about their dad..."

Your heart sank at that thought. Having a little family with Jungkook remained a dream. A sob finally broke past your lips...You cannot do it alone.

"Y/n, please calm down. Don't think about it, we'll figure it out later. The doctor told you to not stress over things."

You scoffed lightly, "I always wanted to have babies with him. Our small little family. I have the baby but I don't have him now..."

"Please, Y/n...", He has no fcking clue how to comfort you. Now that you are carrying his baby, it'll remind you of him every single day.

A part of you wishes that this little child would like Jungkook coz you can cherish the baby as his memory.

"Y/n, we have to think about the baby. You have to get better for the sake of this innocent soul growing inside you."

You felt weak all these days. You felt betrayed. You felt so small about yourself that people used you.

You ignored talking to everyone. Your parents. His parents. Jin. Jungkook.

You distanced yourself from everyone. You are living in Jimin's other apartment in Seoul. Alone.

Coz you don't want anyone to find out where you are.

Now you are not alone anymore. You have this tiny little human growing inside you. But this child needs a family, love, and care and you cannot do it all alone being far away from others.

"How will I raise this baby?", You cried out loud.

You do not have the strength to do it alone and no matter how hard you try you'll not be able to give the child a dad's love.

And you are missing him even more now.