You had to shower all over again, with Jungkook. He couldn't stop giving you butterfly kisses while in the shower.

He pampered you, cleaned you and put you to bed. And you passed out the moment you fell onto the bed.

Tonight was exhausting - the party, the incident and the bye-bye virginity.

Sleep is your only saviour but someone had other plans. Your sleep got disturbed when you felt Jungkook tossing and turning in the bed a lot.

He is mumbling something... You scrunched your brows and placed your ear closer to his mouth to clearly understand what he is saying...

"Please, don't leave me", he is having another nightmare. A similar one. Jungkook has a sad part in life that he didn't show you yet.

He buried his head in your chest and clutched the collar of his shirt that you are wearing.

Whom is he telling not to leave?

"Don't leave me. Don't leave me, Y/n", he mumbled with his eyes closed and brows scrunched.

Me? He doesn't want me to leave? Why would I leave?

He got anxious in no time, moving a lot.

"Jungkook", you patted his cheek, "Jungkook, wake up."

He gasped loudly and looked into your worried eyes. He realised that he had the same nightmare.

"Are you okay?"

He hugged you closer and buried himself in you, like a baby.

"Don't leave me, Y/n", his voice weak. Sad. Like a lonely child.

It made your heart clench, you ran your fingers through his hair, "Why do you think I'd leave you?"

"She left me", he felt like it was time to show himself to you.

"Who?"

"Hazel", was the only word that left his mouth.

You cupped his cheeks to make him look into your eyes, unable to bear the suspense.

"I loved her, in the past. We met in Japan, I fell for her. Felt like she was the one. She got pregnant", it's very hard for him to open up.

"I was startled at first about the baby news, but I got excited for the new chapter of our life", sadness speared his face.

"Yoongi found out that she used me for money, she cheated on me and the baby wasn't mine. My world crumbled. All the human emotions in me vanished. The most important one, Trust!"

"I don't believe in love anymore. I was left all alone, unable to cope with the emptiness in my life after she left, I turned to alcohol and tattoos to become numb. Nothing helped...

Nothing, until you came into my life."

He wrapped an arm tightly around your waist, "You are a completely different woman, I've never met someone like you in my life. Ever."

Now it is fascinating to you.

"You are one hell of a woman, Kim Y/n" How he said your full name made butterflies screech in your belly.

"Self-independent. You pay your own bills. Caring. You cook for me, wait for me to get home and hug me during my nightmares. Humble. The way you behave with Miss Min and others in this house."

You made him feel all the emotions again, you made him come to life.

"Trust. How you trusted me, married me, and didn't leave me, even if I was cold to you initially makes me want you more. Want you all to myself."

He captured your lips in a sweet enchanting kiss. Sucking your lips sensibly.

"You make me want to be a better person, Doll. And I want to be that person for you. For your happiness. For us."

You have no words to say. This man opened up to you about his past. It made your heart sting that he had to go through all this.

Cheating. Betrayal. No wonder he wouldn't let anyone near him. This is the reason why he put up walls around him. But never even once did he disrespect you.

Jungkook is a man of honour. He is kind and has a multi-layered heart which he doesn't show anyone...

"Then do you trust me now Jungkook?"

"I do, Doll", he caressed your cheek, "Coz you held onto me all these days."

You love him, that's why you gave this relationship more time. But he just said that he doesn't believe in love. Then what are we now?

"I'm sorry for not telling you about my past before our wedding", he didn't because he just married you for the sake of that agreement. But now that he wants a real relationship with you, so he finally opened up.

"It takes a lot to open up to someone, Koo. I'm glad that you trusted me and told me everything", you feel more special now. More closer to him. Coz you know his insecurities.

Love or not, it doesn't matter. You don't need to name this relationship. Tonight is a major step ahead in both of your lives.

The fact that you both trust each other and hold onto each other is above everything. Above every hurdle. Every insecurity.

You ran your fingers through his hair. In the middle of the night, at 3 am, having a deep conversation...knowing about his past, you only wondered how lonely would he have felt. You couldn't help but wonder what would you do if you were in his position!

If someone cheated on you and the baby part, you wouldn't have trusted anyone in your life. But Jungkook...tried to work this out with you. You are grateful and content.

Now only one thing matters to you. To love him even more and make him believe that...

He is lovable. That he is worth all your love.