Everything seemed to continue on as normal.

I just continued filming scenes.

I guess I didn't want to stop so then I didn't have time to think.

"Darling, you should take a break" Tom says to me.

"No tom, I have filming to do" I would say to him.

"But Sarah darling, you have just lost two people, you need to sit down" he says.

Then out of the corner of my eye I see someone familiar.

"Benedict?" Tom says.

"How are you doing love?" He says to me.

Just then I burst into tears.

He hugs me.

"Oh Ben, why do I keep losing everyone I love" I cry into his top.

"I know love, I know it's unfair but we are here for you, we always will be" he says.

"Where's Elizabeth?" I ask him

"She didn't agree coming down here" he admits.

"Well it's good to see you, isn't it Tom" I say.

"Uh...what?" Tom asks distracted.

"I said isn't it nice to see Ben" I tell him repeating myself.

"Yes, yes it is" he says not quite looking at us.

"Are you even paying attention" I say looking I the direction he was.

There's nothing their.

"Sorry I just thought I saw someone but never mind..hello Benedict, how's Elizabeth?" Tom says.

"Shes ok, I don't know if Sarah told you but Elizabeth and I are having a baby" Ben says

"Really?, how wonderful congratulations" Tom smiles.

It's the first time I had seen Tom smile at Ben in a long time.

"Sarah, seeing as Ben is here, do you mind If I pop to the house, I will be back by dinner" Tom asks.

"Of course Tom, you go and do whatever you need to do" I smile.

"I won't be long" he says kissing me before leaving.

"I hate this" Ben says.

"Hate what?" I ask him.

"Pretending, I want to make you happy, I want Elizabeth to be happy, I even want Tom to be happy but I can't keep ignoring my own happiness" he says.

"Then don't, be happy" I say.

"But I can't not when I can't be with you, I see you almost everyday and I just can't handle you being with Tom. Which is why I have decided I am going away for a while" he says.

"What!, no you can't!" I say shocked.

"I have to Sarah, I know I have my responsibilities, Isa can come and see me whenever she likes and I will phone and skype her whenever I can" he tells me.

"No Benedict...please don't leave me like everyone else does" I say getting upset.

He puts his hands on my cheeks.

"Sarah, you know what I noticed, you only call me by my name, Benedict, when you are angry or upset with me. Please don't be" he says.

"But everyone is disappearing. I need my best friend" I say.

"You have Tom. I may be envious of him but I can see that you will always be on safe hands with him...and I need some space from you Sarah. If I don't I will never stop being in love with you" he says.

"But what about Elizabeth?" I ask him.

"I will tell her the truth, she deserves that. I will be back in the next year or so, just give me time to..to find myself again " he says

"Please don't go Ben" I say.

"I need to" he says moving a strand of my hair.

He takes a deep breath.

"Goodbye Sarah" he says practically running away.

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*Benedicts pov*

Her eyes look so sad.

I move a strand of hair from her face.

I don't think I will be able to do this if I don't leave now.

I take a deep breath.

I can't...I can't say it.

"Go..goodbye Sarah" I say.

I have to get away as quickly as I can.

I can't believe I had the power to do that...

It really is what's best though.

I love her to much to be around her...

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*Sarah's pov*

I sit here in a Daze.

How come everyone I care and love for leaves me.

What did I ever do To deserve it.

Just then someone calls me over for filming.

Life goes on...again.

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*Elizabeths pov*

I look out the window and see Tom their.

I want to speak to him.

I go out the door and down the patio.

"Hey, Tom!" I shout.

He looks up, smiles and comes over.

"Hi their Elizabeth" Tom smiles at me.

"This has been killing me for ages. I really need to know what you do, how you can carry on, even though you know?" I ask him.

"I am sorry but I am a little confused?" He asks.

"You know how you just carry on as normal knowing about the kiss" I tell him.

"The kiss?" He asks

Oh god....

"You don't know do you?" I ask.

"Seriously this is getting strange, know what?" He asks me.

"That Ben and Sarah kissed again" I say.

"I....I never heard about that" he says.

" I'm sorry...I thought you would have been told as I was.."I say shocked.

"No no, it's not your fault. I guess if slipped her mind" he says still a little shocked.

"Um..yeah I am sure that's what it was"......

A/N- ah Ben!...but don't worry he will still be in the book...and Tom knows..what could this mean?...let me know what you think of this update. Love ya