Ben is over telling me about Elizabeth.

"And do you know what the worst part was?, I was just about to leave her" he tells me.

"Wait what, why!?" I say to him.

"Isn't it obvious" he says.

"If it was I wouldn't be asking?" I say.

"Because I am still in love with you, I always have been" he says.

I stand up.

"Not again Ben please.." I say to him.

"I know that kiss meant something, I know it did for me, I can't help how I feel Sarah, do you honestly think I would choose to be in love with a married woman?. I love, not by choice but because my heart does" he says.

"Enough!. Ben, I thought we had passed this, we moved on" I say.

"Can't you get it, I can't. You are my forever. you will always be on mind" he says.

I look at him.

He looked like he hadn't slept all night.

I have done this to him.

"What do you expect me to do Ben?. I have a family now. Yes your included but not that way" I tell him.

"Tell me you don't love me?" He says.

"Of course I love you. I am just not in love with you, theirs a difference. I am sorry Ben, but please don't throw everything away" I say to him.

"The only thing that will be thrown away, that matters to me will be Elizabeth's happiness to me. But this isn't over Sarah. I am going to tell her the truth" he tells me.

"Then you will be alone and separated from both your children's mothers as their is no us, not in that way Ben" I say

"I have to risk that, its not fair on her" she tells me.

"Then go ahead, all I am telling you is that there will no future for us when you do this" I tell him.

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I am sitting listening to music on the radio on the way to the film set.

A fault in our stars by troye Sivan comes on.

It's a beautiful song.

Just then my car phone rings.

''Mr Hiddleston is calling" It says.

"Answer" I reply.

"Hiya honey, you on your way?" He asks.

"Yes" I reply.

"Great, I am already there. It's actually quite lovely here" he says.

"Your there!" I almost scream.

He laughs.

" I said I would be, I am so tied up at work and I feel really guilty about it so I couldn't miss this" he says.

"I love you" I grin.

"I love you more" he replies.

Then the line cuts.

I feel sorry for that kiss when he left, although it was a stupid kiss, that meant nothing to me. Which proved I no longer have feelings for Ben.

My heart Belongs to Tom Hiddleston and it always will...

A/N- oh my god 100th post!, this I never thought I would post this much, you lot are so supportive as well which is awesome, so you know Love ya!