Mother is cooking dinner in the kitchen.

Laura and Jeff are out with all the kids.

I am cuddled up with Tom at the kitchen table, laughing and kissing.

"For goodness sake, you to are acting like 17 year olds" my mother says

I look up at her.

"It's called being in love, you wouldn't know about that though would you" I say to her.

Tom past my hand.

"There there Sarah, remember that's you mother your talking to" he says.

"Is it?, because she sure as hell never acted like it" I say standing up and leaving the kitchen.

Tom runs after me as I go up the stairs,

"Hey slow down" he says.

I stop, look at him and then burst into tears.

"I just can't deal with it..with anything. So many people are changing, relying I me, I am changing. I just can't handle it" I sob.

He hugs me.

"I am here for you and that Sarah I fell in love with is still their" he says.

He will say that of course but she's not, he still loves me but I am not the person he first fell in love with.

This life has changed me.

I never planned on becoming a mum, let alone to 4 beautiful kids, i never thought two film stars would fall in love with me and that I would marry one. I never dreamt that all the drama that the past few years has brought me would ever happen.

Thinking about it properly, do I really still like my life....

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I spend the afternoon in my bedroom on my own.

I needed time on my own.

I have realized how unhappy I am.

I love Tom and I love the kids but everything else just seems out of place and messed up.

I just tried to act strong but I can't hold it all in anymore.

I think filming for a little bit will help.

Someone knocks on the door.

I think it is Tom so I say come in only to find Ben.

"What do you want?" I say sitting up.

"Sarah, Tom told me about earlier is everything ok?" He asks.

"What do You care?" I say to him.

"Hey!, that's not fair you know I care, and besides I know I am not the one who got your sister pregnant" he says.

"What do you mean?" I ask him.

"I heard her on the phone talking to some guy" he says.

"And if you don't believe me, get her phone and get the number, phone it and you will know the truth" he adds.

I sigh,

See everyone gets me into their business......

A/N- how was that short update?, I would like your thoughts on Sarah at the moment please, love ya!