It feels strange to be waking up somewhere else.

I did not get much sleep, for some reason i just couldn't.

I was thinking about tom and Ben,

Is it wrong of me to feel like i love them both?.

Does this happen to other people?.

Why can i not choose...............

I do not regret meeting either of them. i never could.

I just wish my feelings did not come. Why do i have to love them both.

I get up and make my way to Rachel's Kitchen.

"Hey have a nice sleep?". Rachel says to me as i walk in.

"Anything but" i sigh.

"Well i am going to pick Isa up in a little while, why don't we go out for a bit of girly shopping" she suggests.

Why does everyone have a different nickname for my child.

"Yeah sure" i say.

I do not want to say no, i haven't spent much time with Rachel so this should be fun....

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"Oh my goodness that Pandora ring is just gorgeous" Rachel say trying it on.

"you should get it" I say to her.

She looks at the price and then gasps.

"How much is it?" I ask her.

"£390, I can never afford that" she says.

"I will get you it" I say.

"What!?, no that's far too much money I couldn't let you pay all that".

"Rachel, I have been getting a lot more money lately. I can afford it and anyway you deserve it, if it wasn't for you I don't know where I would be" I say to her.

"Aw, thank you Sarah" she says hugging me.

"Your my best friend" I say to her.

"And you are mine" she smiles.

"Forever" she adds.

"And ever" I say smirking.

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After I buy her ring we stop of at a little café for lunch. This was a mistake.

More people seem to recognize me as I have dated tom and been on a tv show with him.

People started crowding our table, asking for autographs and asking if they could meet tom.

I smile pleasantly, signing autographs and telling each one that unfortunately tom is too busy.

If only they knew the truth. The press would have a field day....

"Alright people, enough can't you see she is trying to eat her lunch" someone says from behind us.

All of a sudden all the people around us disappear.

"Thank you" both Rachel and I say to the stranger.

"It is no problem, it is a pleasure to have you in my café. I think you may have brought me a few extra customers too" he smiles at us.

"It is a very nice establishment you have here" I reply.

"It's a family business, been in the family for generations, I however will be the last".

"Oh why?" Rachel asks.

"Rachel!" I say to her.

"Sorry. If you don't mind me asking" she says to the man.

"It is fine, I can not have any children" he says to us

"But your young, you must be only 30?" Rachel says to him.

"29, Natures defects I am afraid" he says shrugging his shoulders.

"I am sorry to hear that" We both say to him.

"Well I better get back to the Kitchen, you too are both welcome to come to the Café whenever" he smiles.

"Thank you..um I did not catch your name" I say to him.

"It's Robert" he replies.

"Well thank you Robert it was very nice of you to help us in that situation back there" I smile.

"Yes it was" Rachel says.

"All part of the service" he smirks before leaving.

"He was hot" Rachel says.

"Maybe you could date him and get rid of my brother" I smirk.

"No, I could never do that , he is good looking though. if I was single" she smirks.

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I stand up as Rachel brings Isabella into the room.

"There's my little girl" I say taking her.

"I had trouble taking her, she did not want to leave Benedict". Rachel says.

"Little daddy's girl is she" I say kissing her forehead.

"She's got your fiery curls that's for sure" Rachel says.

" She has Ben's eyes" I say.

"Stare at them a lot do you" she smirks.

"It is hard not too" I admit.

"Now lets stop talking about him and lets get some food ordered" she says.

"I don't really feel like eating" I sigh.

" Was it something I said?" she asks.

"No, it not at all" I say to her.

"Ok good ill order enough for both of us if you change your mind" she says going into the kitchen.

"Isabella darling what are we going to do" I sigh.

"Daddy loves you and me both dearly but so does uncle tom......What am I to do" I add.

Before you think me mad I am not asking her....

I think I have an ideas of what I need to do, what is right for my family and maybe a little bit right for me....or maybe it isn't but I have to make sure Isabella is brought up happy.

That's what is most important.

I go into the Kitchen.

"Rachel I know what I have to do" I tell her.

"Hmm..what?" she asks me.

"I have to look after my family and I think I have always known things would end up this way I just couldn't face it in case....in case I hurt tom".

"So your going to Benedict?" she says.

I nod.

"As long as you feel it is the right choice for you".

"I do love him and it would make our family complete. I have always loved him as I do tom but I think if tom had not of gotten hurt that day he crashed I probably would of went on that plane with Ben" I admit.

"You will have to tell Tom all of this" She says.

"I know" I sigh.

"And if their is no chance for you two ever again then you have to let him know that too" she adds.

" Well I can never say never as I do not know how things will plan out but my heart is leading me to ben right now" I say to her.

"You better go to him then" she says.

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"Sarah, what are you doing here?" Ben asks confused.

Before either of us can say another thing, my lips are on his.

"Wha..what just happened" Ben says a little dazed.

"I have decided where I must be". I say to him.

"And judging by that kiss you chose me" he says.

"I haven't chosen you, I think this was the right way all along, I just couldn't see it". I admit.

He spins me around.

"Oh Sarah, I finally have the little family I have always wanted" he says kissing me again.

A/N- Ok so what do you think of the outcome, like?, Comments and votes all welcome :).If you do not want to know anything else about the book do not read on....................................................................................................................................................................

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Hiddlestoners-Do not worry this will not be the last you see of Sarah and Tom Romance........