I do not know if i want to see him. Not after last time we left it in such a bad place.

He may be my brother but i just don't know.

"Stop worrying" Tom says to me.

I stand up being careful with Isabella before replying.

"I can not help it" i say.

It has been 3 weeks since she was born,

I have only just agreed to see Michael but now i regret it,

We find out the results of the DNA test as well this week,

I am just so nervous lately.

"Here let me take her" Tom says.

I hesitate for a second before passing her over.

I do not want him to get to close..just in case.

Suddenly their is a knock on the door.

I go to the door.

I open the door expecting to see Michael to find Rachel at the door,

"Rachel!?" i say hugging her.

I have not seen her in over a month, she had been abroad at work,

"Sarah, Hi. Where is she then" she asks.

"Just come through, is my boyfriend not with you" i ask her,.

"Well about that...we broke up just before i went abroad" she tells me,

"Oh sorry rach, i know how much you really liked him".

She shrugs her shoulders, "It is no big deal, i met someone while abroad" she smiles.

"Really?, who".

"Um..Just some guy" she replies quickly.

I raise an eyebrow.

"Are you hiding something?" i ask her.

"No of course not" she says.

I show her into the living room where tom is standing with isabella.

"Aww she is so tiny" Rachel says excited.

" Isn't she just" I say.

" Rachel has a new man" i say to Tom.

"Oh really, do we know him?" he asks her.

"I..I doubt it" she says a little red.

"You are hiding something aren't you?" i say to her.

She sighs.

"Please don't get angry..it just sort of happened".

"What happened?" i asked.

"We met and well it was a real connection. I completely understand if you get angry but..".

"Who is it?" i interupt her,

"Me" i hear a voice say behind me.

"Michael!" i say surprised.

"Hello again" he says.

"But he is way older than you!" i say.

"You and tom" she raises an eyebrow.

"He is not as older for me as Michael is for you. Michael is 5 years older than tom, And my Brother!" i say.

" Please don't be like this, be happy for me" She says.

I sigh.

" Ok ok, i am happy for you but i just wish it was someone else" i say hugging her.

"Now, would anyone like to hold this little one?" Tom asks.

"Yes!, i have been waiting for ages to do this" Rachel says.

"I am sorry about before" Michael says to me.

"It was months ago, all forgotten now and you can not be blamed for my mothers mistakes".

"Our mother" he corrects.

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"Are you sure your ready to start filming?". Ben asks me.

"Of course it has been ages since i have done anything good. The tv program has aired and after falling pregnant your film was postponed. i need to start again" i say to him.

"Ok will i will phone everyone else, arrange a date and we will start shooting" He tells me.

"Great" i smile.

Just then Isabella starts crying,

"Oh bellas at it again, do you want me to see to her" Ben asks,

"No no its fine. i will do it" i say going to the stairs.

"I know what your trying to do" he says to me.

"What?".

"You dont want us to get close just in case she isn't mine well it doesn't matter because i still want to be part of her life regardless. i have told you that" he says

"I know....it is just i do not want to see you hurt if things don't turn out your way" i sigh.

"I am hoping they don't but if they do, then i will just hve to face the fact that i am not that father. As painful as that may be" He tells me.

I just smile and then go up the stairs.

I can not face this......

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2 days later...

I sit down looking through the post.

There it is.

The results.

My hands shake a little as i take it out the pile.

Neither tom or Ben are here.

Should i open it without out them?

So i know before they do.

I could easily put it in a new envelope or make sure i do not rip this one.

But would that be fair on them.....

Just then Tom walks in.

"I am home, finally. Traffic was terrible" he says.

I don't reply,

"You ok?" he asks looking at me.

"It's here" i say to him.

"The results?" he asks,

I nod.

"I will phone Benedict and get this over and done with" He says to me.

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"You ready?" Ben asks me,

"I think so" i say taking the envelope.

I open it slowly, putting the envelope in the bin.

I open the letter fully.

This, whatever the answer may be will change our lives forever.

If it is Ben's then Toms and mines relationship will change, i know it. How can he love me when i have someone Elise's child?.

And if it is Toms then yes it might be easier but Ben will be hurt.

I do not want to hurt either of them,

So who's is it.

Ben or Tom?

A/N- Hope you enjoyed this part. Question WHO's do you want it to be?, let me know below. i have not decided so it is open for discussion comments and votes very appreciated