i get my key and unlock the house door. My hands are shaking. The tears are running down my face. I slam the door shut.

I go to the couch and just sit their.

What am i going to do?.

Just then the door bell rings.

That must be him.

I go an open the door.

"Hey" he smiles going to kiss me.

"No" i say pulling back.

"Whats wrong?" he asks.

"Just sit down" i say shutting the door behind us.

I sit next to him then sigh.

"I cant believe i have to do this" i sigh.

"Do what?" he asks confused.

" I...I...Tom, i have to do this not only for me but for your own good" i say to him.

" What are you on about" he says confused.

"I Have to end us, end this before it turns into something".

"What do you mean?".

" I am breaking this up, i am ending us".

He jumps up from the couch. "What!, what do you mean?, why".

The tears are now streaming down my face.

"It is the only way to keep you safe" i tell him.

"what are you on about?, has someone put you up to this?" he asks.

"No" i lie.

"I don't believe you. I am not stupid you know" he says to me.

"I know your not, i just. I can't be with you right now. i am sorry"i say covering my face.

"I..I can't believe it, i wont believe it. less than 30 minutes ago you were all for us. you can not just change you mind like that" he says.

I sigh. "Please just get out".

"I will because i think you need time to think, i won't give up on you" he says walking out the door.

As soon as i hear the door slam shut i burst into tears. No matter how much i try to stop i can't.

Why!.

I got to my bed and lie down silently. I really can not be bothered with anything right now.

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I must have fallen asleep because when i check my clock it is 4am.

i have 3 missed calls. Two from my boss and one from tom.

What is it about my boss?, why is he making such a fuss over me and tom..

I phone him.

"Hello?". he says.

" I knew you would be awake, i just wanted to let you know it is done. I have ended it but no thanks to you, you heartless bastard".

"I am only looking out for you" he says.

" As you keep saying but i don't see why you would want to" he says to me.

There is a long pause then he sighs. "It is a long story. Maybe you will find out soon" he says.

"Whatever" i say, hanging up.

In just 2 days time i have to go in for more filming....Maybe i should just pull out....Wait!. why am i thinking, this is not my fault, none of this is!.

I get up properly and go for a shower.

Maybe i will feel better after i have had one.

After my shower i decide to phone Rachel. Maybe she can help....

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"How can you let him get away with this, Sarah!?" she asks me.

"I had no choice. I am not going to ruin his life and everything he has ever worked for".

"But if you told him the truth...

"Then he would confront Michael and he would lose everything anyway". i interrupt her.

She sighs. "You don't deserve this".

"I know".