For the rest of the practice match, Kageyama didnt go in. He refused to. I was taken out for the rest of the match after the incident with the ball and the bathroom. I wanted to go in but for some reason, it felt wrong to play without Kageyama. I tried talking to him and the smile from earlier would appear on his face but now. . . I could tell it had nothing behind it. Like he was wearing a mask and hiding his real emotions.

"Okay now, everyone is taking a shower today. First the 3rd years then the 2nd and 1st years." With that, Daichi and Tanaka walk off to the showers with there clothes and a towel.

"Hinata!" Sugawara yells in a whisper behind me.

"Yes Suga?"

"How are you gonna shower?" Then it dawns upon me. Wait. . .

"Dont the showers have covers?" He nods his head.

"But what happens if you walk out in a towel and they you know. . . see." I shake my head trying to calm myself down.

"N-no its fine." He shrugs his shoulders and nods his head.

"Good luck Hinata."

"Come on Sugawara! Time to shower." Daichi yells making Sugawara sprint to the shower with a pair of clean clothes and a towel. I get my clothes ready making sure they are loose. Kageyama walks up to me.

"Sorry about the bus. I didn't mean to bother you." I smile and shake my head.

"No worries, you didnt bother me. I'm glad you told me what was wrong." I try hiding the worry behind a smile on my face. I may act stupid and not understand a lot of things but its rpetty obvious Kageyama is really taking this hard. He turns his back to me collecting his clothes and heading to the shower. I go to reach for his shoulder but hesitate. Even if I did ask him whats wrong. . . I already know. And after that, I have no clue how to comfort him. Thats the one thing I dont understand between us. I watch as he walks away towards the showers. Darkness looms off him like when we first met. Kageyama will only say things once and likes to do things on his own. If I tried to help it could only make things worse but. . . No one ever really tries to do things with him because they are scared or. . . can't. After a few more minutes of debating in my head I decide to wait until after tomorrow to see if anything changes. If not. . . ill try to help him. I grip my clothes tightly and head into the showers. I lower my head to the floor just to make sure I did see anyone. . . you know. . . naked.

I pull off my clothes inside the shwoer along with the aid bandage. How is this gonna work. . . I hang my dirty clothes on the left rack outside of the shower with my old aid bandage wrapped up inside hidden from prying eyes. I put the new large aid bandage and my clean pajamas on the right side while wrapping that aid bandage up as well. I turn on the shower and begin letting the water poor down my curves and through strands of my hair. For some reason I hear muffled giggling but it's drowned out my a loud shush. Slowly the giggling fades and in at ease again rubbing the soap out of my hair. The smell of cherry blossoms fills my shower as I rub soap all over my body and between my boobs. I take a big wiff of the smell and exhale slowly. This shower and my house are the only two places where I can breath freely. My muscles relax as the water presses against my back in tiny droplets. Soon my back becomes numb and I flip to let the water press against my chest. After a bit, I turn off the shower and reach for my towel. I dry my hair off first then my body making sure I get my back and crevices real good.

I hang the shower over the curtain holder and reach for my clean clothes. I struggle to find the rack until I feel it. . . empty. I poke my head out covering my body with the curtain and looks to my right then my left. Someone took my clothes! Oh no. . . I look down at my body then around me. All the showers have stopped. If I step out in just a towel someone might see me. NO! The aid bandage?! What if they see it!!! AND MY BRA! I snatch the towel and dash out of the showers. I slip on the tile making my elbows clash with the floor. A shock is sent through my shoulders but the anxiety running through my veins numbifies the pain. I get back up racing through the halls looking for who could have my clothes. Just as I pass through the halls I hear loud laughter coming from our sleeping quarters. I turn and race at full speed down the hall instantly stopping at the door.

Everyone looks up tears in there eyes from laughing so hard. Tanaka holds up my bra pointing at it and laughs his butt off.

"Hinata!!! I see-I see you like double D boobs so you keep these around ya!" He wheezes out the words still laughing really hard. I try to snatch back my clothes but he holds it up really high. I try to jump and reach them but my towel begins to lift a bit showing my thigh. The towel barely reaches my knees so I cant jump or itll reveal everything.

"Give it back Tanaka!" I yell trying to snatch it back from him.

"You really ate weird Hinata!" He says laughing out loud. I look for Sugawara hoping he would help me but he is out of my sight. In here is everyone except Asahi, Sugawara, Daichi, and Kageyama. I see Tanaka lower his arm slightly and see a chance. I jump higher snatching my bra from his hands.

"Why do you want it back so badly Hinata?? Cant go without it?!" I begin to feel heart rush through my face and water fill my eyes but I hold back.

"Its none of your business!" I yell while snatching my other clothes. Thank god the aid bandage was still wrapped up inside of them. I feel my eyes beginning to water up as I make my way to the exit but I know this isnt a place to cry.

Suddenly, I feel like everything beneath me is snatched away as my foot becomes bound to a piece of clothing sending me barreling to the ground. I bend over to catch myself releasing my towel. It falls off of me and I'm met with silence. I snatch it from the ground quickly wrapping it back around my body. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. NO! I grab my clothes and turn around to see them all with there eyes wide open and there faces blood red. Tanaka is covering his mouth in shock. I cant hold back anymore. . . The tears that had been gathering my eyes begin pouring out as I turn to run out of the room.

"Hinata!" Nishinoya snd Yamaguchi yell from behind me but I dont listen. I shake everything away. I wish I could shake me away or at least this moment. My tears flood my vision as I make twists and turns through the halls into an empty janitars room. I quickly pull on my clothes and dash out of the room towards the exit of the building.

"Hinata! Whats wrong?" Sugawara says before gasping. I push past him and slamb my hands against the door shoving it open. I dash through the field into the busy streets of Tokyo not knowing where I am but knowing all I wanted was to escape everything right now. I run and run as my tears begin to dry up and my eyes burn. I have no more tears left to cry but the farther I got from that place the more pain I felt. Its over. Everything I hid is over. Trying to be treated as equally as a man. Being respected not because I'm a girl but because I earned it. Showing just because I'm a girl doesnt mean I'm weak and that I'm just as strong as a boy!!! ITS ALL OVER. I scream at myself inside of my head. Stupid! Stupid! Stupid.

I stop running to catch a quick breathing and look up. I see the signs all around meand all the lights making my eyes hurt even more. People walking by smile and look at me bottom from top. . . no its happening. All there eyes. I walk to the closest darkest building and crouch curling into a ball. The eyes of judgment. Its all on me. All these voices go through my head.

Everyone is staring at me and judging me. I feel my eyes swell back up with tears pouring down my cheeks covering the already dry ones. I bite my lip to muffle my cries from the outside world as I try making my own in my head. Everything goes dark and I'm finally alone. All alone. I walk and echoes of my footsteps are sent through the halls of the darkness. I call out for someone, anyone but receive no reply. I begin to hear laughter and feel eyes looking at me. No-no-no! I shake my head trying to escape but I'm already here. In my own hell. I run as fast as I can trying to escape but it goes on forever.

I keep pushing myself forward until I trip. The will power to fight at all has left my little body. I was born a girl and I will always be seen as little and helpless. A girl who cant live without a man. My mom does it! But me. . . I'm so tiny I'm seen as a toy. I'm seen as a little girl and I always will be because thats what I am. I'm a little girl in a big world full of big people. Big people who will always be stronger and smarter. It doesnt matter how much I try to hide it or how hard I try or how fast I run. . . I cant run away from the eyes of public. . .

I suddenly feel a hand on my shoulder shaking me gently pulling me out of the darkness.

"Hey uhm, you might not wanna sleep there." I look up to be met with Kageyamas eyes. I drop my arms to my side as I feel everything from me pouring out.

"H-hinata? Is that you??" I guess he can't see me. . . I didnt realize all the lights went out.

"There is a power outage right now. What are you doing out in the middle of the city like this in pajamas?" He must not see me well enough. . .

"K-Kageyama." I stutter, my own cheers and saliva choking me. He gently touches my shoulder and reaches out a hand.

"Come on, we better get back before the others come out looking for you." I grab his hand and he gently pulls me up.

"Are you okay Hinata?" He says while looking at me concerned. I rub my tears away slowly while nodding my head then stop walking.