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Lost.

I didn't know what to do. I was stuck in the midst of wanting to wash away my sins but didn't know how to.

I was so lost and I suddenly had no one to guide me or at least slap some sense in me. I loved her but I was the person who destroyed her too.

Do I want her back? Yes, if there is any ray of hope but first I want to pay for the things I did to her. I was drunk for many days and didn't care about my business at all. What is the use of earning money when the same money had made me blind with power and made me do sins after sins?

I wanted to tell her how sorry I am and how much of an a**h*le I am but can a simple sorry be enough for my behavior? Can a simple apology be able to cure the wounds I gave her?

"Mr. Bianchi, I got the details of Mr. Abdul Sheik and you will not be impressed with what you are about to read." Rick said bring me out of my self-pity.

"What is it?" I asked with a stern business tone to which he forwarded the brown color file to me.

"It was not the first time for him to export women to their ring in the Middle East. They particularly go for Escort houses to gather fresh women as it would be a better way for them to escape from the law holds if anything should happen. He had traded almost 37 women and few years ago he also tried to get Phoebe out of the contract with Mr. Niccolo Russo so that he can have her traded but I did made sure he doesn't find any way to do so. In a week he is going to take eight women from different escort houses to Middle East and use them as bait in drug dealings." Rick reported the content in the file in short. I was so disgusted at what I heard. How can someone do this intentionally?

"Hmm, Tell Paolo to try and make a trade with him to buy those women and tell him to make sure he has everything recorded. I will be calling chief Commissioner of Police about this arrangement and get the squad to the site. You and I will act as another trading party to make this arrangement more real rather than a trap. You do what you do every time. Since he knows who you are, it would be good if you assist me to this trade and give him the information about my previous trading. It will put him at ease." I ordered Rick to which he nodded and went out of my office to get this done.

Two years ago, when I was so busy getting drunk and beat myself for my mistake, I just want to find something or the other way pay for the sufferings I have caused. That was the time when I suddenly remembered Rick, Lilliput's friend and guardian in escort house.

It took me almost a week to get back my sanity and let all the alcohol out of my system. When I was finally better enough to have a sane conversation, I met Rick. He didn't want to meet me at first but I said that it was about Sienna and her welfare so he finally agreed to meet me.

I didn't want to use Lilliput's name to meet him but I had to have this talk to him. The first thing he asked when we met was how Sienna was and I said she was in good hands and recuperating. I knew where Sienna was all the while but I didn't dare to meet her or see her because I have no face to do so. I know Niccolo is a good person and he's not like me to use an innocent person for his own use. I knew he took her to the grandma's house and I was happy that he did so. Lilliput needed an elder to take care of her.

When I met Rick at my office, the first thing he did was punch me on my face and kick me but soon enough he was sitting in front of me to get this talk done with. I was hesitant to take his help but I have no other so I had to swallow my hesitation and tell him the whole situation.

He was quite for a long while and asked me what I want to do and I asked him if there is something, something that Sienna had to go through at the time of her stay in the house. Rick was clear that any danger towards her was well taken care of by him expect the one time she was kept for sale. So, I asked Rick to tell me everything he knew about Lilliput to me so that I can get to know her dark days.

And one thing caught my attention when he was telling me about her days in the house, her goal. Her goal to relieve the forced women from there and give them independent life!

When I heard what her goal is, I shrunk deeper with shame. How come I loved such an innocent and a kind girl and hurt her to that extent? And that was the moment I decided that I would be achieving Lilliput's goal.

I knew I cannot do it without legal help so I had to work with government's secret agents and Rick was a huge help in it. He was ready to help me when I told my decision and I was happy that I could do something to pay for my bad.

At first what I did was for the forgiveness of Lilliput but gradually at a certain point of time, I didn't care. I didn't care if I would be forgiven or not because I knew what I was doing was meant to be. It was not just for her forgiveness but it was right to do. It was what I should do for those innocent lives.

I didn't know the hardship a woman goes through in this world because all I did was being born in a wealthy family as a male and enjoy the luxuries I was given. These two years has taught me many things that even my thirty years of years never taught me. They taught me of reverence and being satisfied with what we have.

Even after two years, Niccolo did not talk to me like he used to but he did warm up to me few months ago. He made sure the released women were brought to Lilliput's academy for a little knowledge of know how's before going on with their lives.

And Phoebe, she cried in my arms like a child when Nick told her what I was doing. She said that many woman like her would be indebted to me. She even named their first son after me, told me he want to raise him like me.

But I hope he never become like me. I wish he is becomes a good person.

Even when I was busy fulfilling Lilliput's goal, I always tried to watch her from afar at least once a day. She knew I follow her, that I watch her but never did she looked at me. Simply, she didn't care to look at me and I know I have no right to be disappointed.

"Sir, we got Mr. Russo's voicemail about his wife going into labor and admitted in hospital" My new secretary, Roger said and I just gave a curt nod.

I immediately got into my car racing towards the hospital. Niccolo must be so worried as it was said that Phoebe was carrying triplets and had complications. Her first delivery was complicated too but at the end of the day, she gave birth to two handsome boys who looked exactly like Nick.

By the time I reached the hospital, Lilliput was sitting on the chair outside Phoebe's room and was crying. Going into the room slowly, I watched Niccolo hugging Phoebe tightly and consoling her while she's crying.

What happened?

Is she okay?

Are the babies okay?

Why are they crying?

I noticed a nurse going into their room with a tray of injections and medicines. I stopped her and asked what happened.

"One of the triplets died during delivery. We could only save mother or child. We tried to save both of them but we could only save mother not the child. The other two are weak and kept in incubators for 48 hours under observation. Both of them are boys and the dead child is a girl. That took a toll on mother and she's in hysteria state. We are trying to inject some sleep medicine to calm her." Nurse informed me and walked inside to inject into the IV that was attached to Phoebe.

Niccolo looked pained but I know he was trying to keep his cool to take care of his wife and children. He's one strong person to swallow the pain and tears for the sake of his family. Phoebe and Niccolo shared the pain and happiness with each other and held themselves for each other in many bad times and how I admired both of them!

How I wish I had a family too. I would've had a very happy family but I destroyed it with my own hands.

I looked at Lilliput crying silently outside the room. I wanted to hug her and console her for the loss but I kept myself from approaching her. I itched to pat her back and whisper her sweet nothings but I know I lost the right long back so I just leaned on the wall near her fisted my hands to keep myself from hugging her.

Feeling my eyes on her, she lifted her head to look at me. I forgot how to breathe when I looked at her eyes directly looking at me. It has been years that she looked directly at me. Immediately as if she recalled something, she looked away and wiped her tears.

I stepped in front of her trying to talk to talk to her. I don't know what to but I just want to hear her voice. She may yell at me, curse me or slap me but I just want her to hear her voice just once.

And when she finally looked at me and opened her mouth to speak to me, I didn't expect those words from her.

"I forgive you." Her words shocked me and mostly left me baffled if what I heard is real or was it an illusion.

"W-what?" I stuttered looking at her with tears forming in my eyes.

"I forgive you." She repeated with a blank face, no emotions playing in her eyes, and walked away freezing me in bewilderment.