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It was so hard for me to walk away from Neil. I did not want to, but I had to. I could not look him the face any longer while knowing that I was no longer happy. It was not fair to him. It was not fair to either one of us.

"Are you sure that you don't want me to come with you, babe?"

The sound of his voice brought me out of my reveries. I shuddered. Letting out a sigh I turned to face him. A small smile spread over my face.

"I am sure, Ishmel. This won't take long. I will be back soon", I retorted before allowing him to kiss my cheek.

Again, I shuddered. His beard hairs scraped my cheek gently. Offering one last smile I climbed into his car before driving over to our house. Ishmel said that by using his car, he would have a better peace of mind. So that is what I am doing.

I do not want to alarm him. Nor do I want to trouble him. He has been good to me these past few weeks. He even apologized for being such a dick to me years ago, and that night at the club.

Letting out a sigh of frustration, I climbed out of the car. I did not want to be back here. Especially, not after the pictures I received of them together. It hurt seeing my husband with someone else. I still love him.

Making my way up to our floor, a feeling of nostalgia washed over me. All of the memories we made filled my head. I felt my eyes begin to water. I did not want for this to how we ended.

Ting!

The elevator doors swooshed open. Raising my head high, I stepped off of the elevator walking pass a smug-looking Madison that had been doing the walk of shame. I felt a pang hit my heart.

I said nothing as a tear spilled from my eye down my cheek as I continued down the hall to our door. Was it even still our door? He seems to have already moved on from me. I guess he really didn't need me anymore.

Raising my hand to knock the door swung open. My heart plummeted to the depths of hell beside Lucky's father. There stood Nathaniel with water still dripping from his hair and a towel loosely hung around his hips as if he had been in a hurry to get to the door.

His eyes did not meet mine though. They looked right past me meeting the figure of another. I did not turn around. I could not turn around. My feet were rooted to the ground.

I felt a presence approaching, but still, I made no move to turn. The scent of cheap perfume invaded my hostile as she came to stand beside me. Reaching out his hand, Nathaniel held a small clutch out to her.

"Oh, geez, thanks. I had totally forgotten to grab it. You're still saving my life, Nate. I'll see you later", Madison said flirtatiously.

A lump formed in my throat watching as he nodded his head in agreement with her. Then she kissed his cheek, too close to his mouth for comfort before casting me a smug look and taking her leave.

"Why are you here, Namoi?"

Swallowing down the lump I responded, "I live here, Nathaniel", I retorted.

This did not feel right. He called me by my name. While I called him by his out of respect towards him. It is the least I can do after everything, no matter how it hurts to do so.

We started at one another for a moment longer before he turned walking away leaving the door wide open. Silently I followed him inside closing the door behind myself. As the door closed, my eyes met those of Madison who was stood at the elevators still, waiting for the elevator to come to take her away. I took notice of her clenched fists just before the door closed fully ending our stare-off.

I took cautious steps through the condo walking towards our once shared bedroom. It is there I found Nathaniel standing in the doorway of the closet with his back facing me. I frowned walking up to him placing my hand on his bareback.

He flinched under my touch. I retracted my hand allowing it to fall at my side once again.

"Just get it and go", he quipped before walking into the closet.

I sighed running a hand through my hair. This is more difficult than I thought it would be. I do not really know hat I had thought this would be like, but this had been far from what I had envisioned it to be.

Going inside as well, I walked over to my side of the closet where some of my clothes hung. I felt my eyes begin to water again as I took in my now empty side of the closet. The closet that had once been full of vibrancy was now cold.

Without hesitation, I reached out yanking the clothes from the racks shoving them into an old bag I found. It hurt less this way. The coldness was beginning to seep into my heart. I hated this. I needed to get out of there as quickly as possible.

I had been such a rush that I had not noticed his presence behind me. I had nearly missed his touch as his hands slid around my waist pulling my body flush against his. I shivered in his embrace.

"Why are you in such a hurry, Omi? Does my presence bother you so much?", he asked lowly, his breath fanning over my ear causing me to shudder.

"Neil", I breathed at a loss for words.

"You don't miss me", he said, placing a kiss to my ear.

I felt that familiar sting in my eyes. I wanted to tell him that I did. That I miss him so much. I nearly did when Madison's smug face flashed before my eyes. She had worn one of my old shirts and probably nothing else beneath.

I bit my lip so hard that I drew blood. She had kissed him right in front of me. He had let her get so close. He allowed her to kiss him, to touch him.

I turned shoving at his chest angrily. He staggered backwards a step.

"Don't touch me", I seethed.

"You're my wife, Namoi! Or did you forget while you were with Ishmel!?", he spat.

I flinched as if he had struck me. He noticed running a hand through his hair, an annoyed look upon his face.

"Just go, Naomi. Fuck!", he shouted before punching the wall angrily.

I bit my lip once again, casting him a glance before rushing from the closet out of the condo we once shared.

I do not know how I made my way back to Ishmel's place in one piece. Tears seemed to pour from my eyes endlessly. I faintly felt his touch as he embraced me as I sobbed.

I just wanted Nathaniel. I just wanted my family back. I sobbed in his arms until my tears ran dry.

Instead, I laid in his arms as he carded his fingers through my hair. He said nothing as he held me. My mind was elsewhere. Therefore, I remained silent as well. I had nothing to say.

Visions of him with her swarmed my mind. Thoughts of my stolen children assaulted me as well. I felt tears spilling from my eyes once again as I thought of Aiden and Aryan.

Eventually, my eyes grew tired. I guess that the endless amount of tears expelled all of my remaining energy along with them. Ishmel's shirt was soaked, but still, he did not say a word as his embrace tightened around me.

'I hate them', I thought bitterly as my eyes fell shut.