As we made our way home, I vowed silently to become a better, stronger person. Not just for Fabian's sake, or Chase's sake, or anyone else's sake for that matter. I'm going to do this for me.

"Give him to me" I spoke suddenly, gesturing to Fabian's sleeping form, who was currently being held by Chase. He gave me a questioning look, but did as I asked, handing him over with care.

"So beautiful" I sighed, stroking the sleeping shifter's dark hair with my free hand, marvelling at how such a lovely creature could also be so strong.

"Huh? Urgh..." Fabian groaned, opening his eyes slowly and squinting. When he had adjusted to the light, he looked up at me with his big green eyes, nuzzling into my chest.

He's never felt comfortable enough with me to do that before... It feels... nice I guess?

I leant down to plant a kiss on the top of his head. "I'm sorry" I whispered into his hair.

He opened one eye to look up at me again, and goddamn it was the cutest expression! "Sorry for what?" He mumbled, his voice croaky from sleep.

"For everything. For all the hurtful things I said. For all the times I scared you. For loving you. I still don't believe I am anywhere close to deserving you and your love"

The house came into view through the trees just as Fabian was arguing his point that he didn't believe any of what I'd said was true. Wow, good timing for him to be awake.

"You're going to go and get washed, then we're all going to bed. It's been a long day and I'm exhausted. I think the same goes for Zion" Chase sighed, taking the lead down the well-worn path that led to our home.

"But I'm not tired anymore" Fabian whined, before coming out with something that surprised us both.

"I wanna do it. Please?"

Neither of them responded to my request, and we made it back to the house in the most awkward silence imaginable. Well, it was probably only awkward for me. I just wanted to curl up and disappear, before I died from further embarrassment. It took all my courage to ask, and all I got in response was the most uncomfortably minute of my life?

"Did you hear me? I don't wanna say it again" I whispered, not meeting their eyes. Oh god, please let me just become invisible!

"Of course! What do you wanna play? We have scrabble, monopoly, twister..." Zion joked, counting each game out on his fingers.

I shoved his shoulder, my cheeks burning bright red. "Please take me seriously! You're making me feel like a child!"

"I'm sorry, Fabian, I couldn't resist messing with you a little. We were both just so stunned by your request we didn't know what to say" Zion chuckled. "Are you sure though? We don't want you to feel pressured in any way, we want you to give us your everything voluntarily"

I grabbed his collar and pulled him down to my level -I'm short, okay?- and kissed him. He looked shocked for a moment, before closing his eyes. I may have initiated the kiss, but he quickly took the lead, and I closed my eyes, too.

I don't know how to explain what I felt, but it was amazing and I was getting hooked. I moved my lips desperately against Zion's, like a man starved.

"Woah, easy Fabian!" Zion exclaimed with a chuckle, pulling away. "I feel like you're going to completely devour me in a minute! Not that I'd be opposed to that, of course" he finished with a wink.

"Don't hog him all to yourself!" Chase grumbled, shoving his brother and proceeding to claim my lips.

The way he kissed was so different to Zion. Where Chase moved his lips softly and gently, Zion was the opposite, though no less addicting. I'm going to go insane at this rate, it's not enough!

"More!" I gasped desperately when I managed to pull myself away from Chase, only to have my lips taken again by Zion. But this time, I felt arms slip under my shirt and begin to caress my stomach, creeping higher and higher.

I didn't realise we'd been walking until I heard the slam of a door, and felt my backside hit a bed. I felt someone move behind me on the bed and start to remove my shirt as the other began to pull down my shorts, but I couldn't tell who was who as I had my eyes closed in anticipation.

The dull throbbing in the pit of my stomach began to grow stronger as the hands that had removed my shirt began to work on my nipples. I gasped aloud as they were pinched, balling the bed sheets up in my fists.

"Wow, already so hard?" Zion's mischievous voice sounded from behind me as my underwear was pulled down. I felt my face grow red, whether it was the comment or the exposure I wasn't sure.

Probably both.

I shifted nervously, my eyes screwed shut in anticipation.

"Fabian? Are you alright?" Chase asked, and I released a breath I didn't know I'd been holding.

"Y-yeah" I stuttered, slightly embarrassed. I know they've seen it all before, but still...

"Then I won't hold back any longer"

Suddenly, I felt his mouth wrap around me, and I cried out. I don't know how long he continued, but it was pure bliss. I'm going to lose my mind, I'm actually going to lose my mind!

"Are you ready to go further, my love?" Chase asked after he pulled away. I nodded eagerly, unable to form words. Now I have no doubts. What we have: this is what true love is.

"I get to go first since you got to taste him!" Zion exclaimed from behind me, withdrawing his hands from my chest and practically leaping off the side of the bed. I couldn't help but laugh at how eager he was. This is what he wanted from the start, but I know I'm more than just a quick fuck to him now.

"Don't forget the lube before you put in your tube!" He giggled, grabbing a bottle and pouring a cold liquid his hands. Wow, he can be so childish sometimes...

He then pulled me forwards and stood between my legs. "I'm going to prepare you, 'kay?" He questioned, cocking his head to the side.

Again, I nodded. He grinned, before I felt a finger probing my hole prior to it slipping inside. I groaned at the uncomfortable, full feeling, but I didn't get a moments rest as another finger was added.

When he'd somehow managed to get four fingers 'comfortably' inside me, he lined himself up and slowly pushed until he was seated all the way inside of me.

"Get that monster out of me! You're going to tear me in half!" I yelled, kicking my legs out at him. But kicking out only made the stretching feel worse, so I quickly stilled my body.

"Oh Fabian, you're being so overdramatic! I didn't know you were such a drama queen!"

"I'm not being dramatic! You're breaking me, I thought this was supposed to feel good!" I cried, looking at Chase for help. I felt a sense of betrayal when he just shrugged, leaning on the bedpost and continuing to stroke himself while he watched.

But oh god, did my feelings do a 180 when Zion moved slightly and hit a weak spot inside me, forcing a moan past my lips. My eyes opened wide and I almost screamed when he did the same thing again.

"Oh? Are you sure you're not feeling good? You're making me feel good"

He teased me like this for a few more minutes, before surprising me by pulling all the way out and then thrusting all the way back inside, and continuing to do so. I felt an unfamiliar feeling rising in the pit of my stomach, and then the feeling of something about to come out overtook me.

"Zion! Something's coming out!" I exclaimed, panicked. My mind flashed back to the time they'd touched me before and I thought I'd peed, but the pee was think and white...

"Yeah, me too! Don't hold anything back!~"

I fell over the edge when I felt Chase's mouth wrap around me, and I screamed in pleasure. I've never felt anything this intense, it's incredible!

A moment later something spurted out inside me. I know it was Zion's pleasure 'not-pee' as he'd so kindly explained previously.

I fell back onto the bed, exhausted, as he pulled out. Phew, I could sleep for days...

"Oh sweet Fabian, you can't sleep yet! It's my turn, and we're going to have you all night long!"