carla

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*please refer to the playlist (everglow)*

"jordan"

"i—um im so—"

"ok. im willing to listen jordan, always"

"i accept your apology."

"for good reason, you obviously dont feel comfortable sharing your feelings about it, and i am ok with that. i um i have something to admit."

"at first when we started phoning each other, i found you and these calls pretty annoying. but you grew on me like a fungus, and we quickly became close friends. the thing is, i havent been open to you, or in my life, to anyone really. and youre an open book. i—i dont want to say ive had it hard in life, because i definietly have not. but there are ups and downs, and youve been my friend throughout with very little judgement. im really glad we're friends and im glad that you influence me the way you do. you make a difference in my life, through ever single word shared through these devices."

"um in the past, i havent opened myself up to the people around me, which is why i dont have many friends."

"i have to admit, i want to be open to new people, new experiences, and relationships. talking with you, had me taking that first step towards the person i want to be. before, and well during meeting you, i thought that would happen because of some guy. i tried to fulfill what i wanted to be, by thinking i could use i guy i met to help me. ive been on countless dates, and im still me. you help me though."

"i um just wanted to get that out there, because youre my best friend"

"um, hello? you still there?"

"oh cheesy doodles, i scared you away didnt i?"

"oh."

"oh um"

"haha me too! ill probably be calling you at midnight daily again."

"get rid of that facade of sarcasm."

"of course. good bye jordan"

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i ! have ! so ! many ! UGLY ! bruises !!! anyway bonus chapter because band camp is done!! now im on vacation (hope i make friends and meet cute boys) and have a million and one mosquito bites👎

SO....theres 4 more chapters left + epilogues. im sad. but im willing to let this book go. if i have the time i might write a spinoff but i have to keep trucking through some of the things i planned to write.

i truly might delete some of the books ive started writing...im really not feeling it. why dont yall take a look at them and let me know!

vote & comment!!

-lila