"I'll kill you, I'll put you on a stick and roast you over a fire, and when they smell a burning Alpha, I'll be like ' No, it's just my stupid and idiotic boyfriend.' and then they will understand, I swear to hell, I swear If you ever put me through this shit again. I'll murder your face." Jamie threatened me, yelling at the top of her lungs while squeezing my hand for dear life; I'm so glad I'm a dude, that looks extrememly painful.

"Uh, is this normal?" I whispered to the nurse, "She can be a bit scary-Ow!" I yelped as Jamie squeezed my hand tighter and gave me her 'death look'. "Oh come on, babe. I was only trying to ease the tension..okay, nevermind." I smirked at her and gave her a kiss on the lips. She visibly relaxed and kept on going when the doctor told her to push. She pushed until we heard a wailing.

We waited to find out the baby's gender, of course, Lexi hated that because she didn't know wether to put the nursery in blue or pink, so she chose green; I don't know why, but she did. Jamie and I both stopped our thought processes to stare at the doctor, what blanket did they chose?

Blue.

Damn, I kind of wanted a girl, I mean I'd love a boy, but I wanted to be that protective daddy figure for my little girl...

"Ha, In your face!" Jamie yelled at me, I rolled my eyes, she's still crazy after birth. I hope it was the anesthesia. I kind of pouted before I saw Jamie gasp and clutch her stomach again. I rushed over and grabbed her hand.

"You son-of-a-crap head! I'm so killing you when I get out of here, where's my wolf? she should be here, she never is..." Jamie rambled on, her wolf was only ever present when she was desperately in need of her.

"I know, babe, I know." I went to grab her hand, but she clutched her stomach again. The doctor noticed and put a hand to her stomach.

"Oh my god, I don't believe it." he whispered.

"What? what don't you believe? Doc, what's happening?" I asked while he got his surgical gloves on.

"We need to have a C-section, Alpha, you're having another child." The doctor placed a comforting hand on my shoulder. "But, you need to listen to me Alpha, something went wrong, Jamie can't deliver the baby naturally so we need to do a C-section to get the baby out. Do you understand, Alpha?" The doctor questioned, I nodded robotically, it felt like there was water in my ears. I barely noticed being ushered out by the nurses.

I was sitting, holding my head in my hands, I should of been there for her during that C-section. I don't even know if she is alright...I'm going to be a horrible father, and husband. Yeah, I was planning on proposing to her after our baby was born.

"Maybe I should wait..." I whispered out loud.

"Wait for what?" a familiar voice asked, I jumped.

"Gabrielle?!" I nodded in respect, shocked to say the least. "What are you doing here?" I asked sort of confused.

"Isn't it obvious? I'm here to see my sis- uh, Jamie." she stopped midsentence in a sad pause. She lowered her head, and sat down next to me. Gabrielle and I might of had history but we now respect eachother, because we both have mistakes to makeup for.

"We've made many mistakes, you and I. Me with Spike and Jamie, who I should have treated like my sister from the beginning, and you with Jamie and the title of Alpha." she sighed. "I just hope one day, they will both forgive me. Spike has been great since our wedding, don't get me wrong, but I can still see the pain. It's horrible." Gabrielle leaned back in the chair. I have to say, she has gotten my mind off the baby, even though she was talking about Jamie.

"We have, and we'll spend our whole lives paying for them. I think everything will be alright, in the end." I nodded solemnly before looking down at my hands.

"But? there is a 'but' isn't there?" Gabriell shifted in her seat, so she was slightly facing me.

"But- what if Jamie never forgives me, I have this box burning a hole in my pocket. What if she says 'no' when I finally do propose? I mean I can see why she would and then I'd lose her and I'd lose the kids, and I'd be heartbroken and-" I rembled before stopping short. Uhoh, the proposal wasn't supposed to slip.

"Darius, you plan on proposing. That is amazing!" Gabrielle squealed. Oh hell, women.

"But-" I started to plan out my explanation for why I couldn't marry her, the horrible things I've done.

"Oh hush, no 'but's okay? If Jamie didn't love you she wouldn't be going through hell to deliver your baby. So shut your face, Darius. Everything will be fine in the end, you said so yourself. Of course, that was before you neglected to inform me on your planned marriage proposal-" Gabrielle took a breath.

"Unplanned" I correced.

"-and then Spike is the one to tell me that Jamie is in labor and is having a boy-" Gabrielle keeps on going.

"Maybe." I corrected.

"-Also, wait, what? Spike said it was a boy! Jamie always wanted a boy, that's for sure. Are you sure it's a boy?" she asked confused.

"Gabs, Of course I know the gender of my own kid." I chuckled at her light stupidity.

"Oh, then why are you out here?" she questioned, then looked around like an explanation would be hanging on the wall.

"Jamie is pregnant with a second wolf pup, she's in an emergency C-section." I mumbled the last part, Gabrielle gasped.

"Oh my god! Darius, why didn't you say that in the first place?!" Gabrielle jumped up to go to the delivery room.

"Gabs, don't! they kicked me out for a reason." I whisper-yelled. Gabs nodded and slumped back into a silence.

By the time the nurse came out, everyone was waiting to hear the news. Lexi and Jack missed the call I sent them, or else they would of been here sooner, Lexi was blushing so you can tell they were 'busy' if you know what I mean. Spike took time off Alpha duty to come and comfort Gabrielle-who was freaking out still; He also assured me that everything will be alright, and if he didn't come then Jamie might have killed him anyway.

"Alpha?" a tiny, shy and unfamiliar voice asked, behind her were my two gurads-the ones used to stop me from attacking someone out of anger. My heart plummeted, this can't be good.

"Yes." I answered simply, and gestured for her to sit next to Lexi on the other side of the coffee table.

"Something, um, something happened with the delivery-I'm sorry, but Jamie isn't doing so well. We had to put her in a medically induced coma. On the brighter side of things, you have a healthy baby girl, her weight is:-" The nurse flipped the sheet on the clipboard over. "-7 pounds and 6 ounces. Congratulations, Alpha and we will do our best to ensure Jamie's health. Thank you." she lowered her head in respect before standing up and rushing out of there.

"A c-coma?" Lexi stuttered, Jack wrapped his arm around her waist in a comforting gesture. I wish Jamie were here so I can do that to her...

"I-I've got to see her." I mumbled and stood up, I rushed down the hall from the waiting room. I shoved open the door to room 557. I paused in the doorway when I saw the most heartbreaking sight. The mother of my children, my future wife, was laying in a hospital bed with tubes going up her arms and down her throat.

"Babe." I whispered as I staggered forward and sat in the chair next to her bed. I'm not even to sure I'm allowed in here, but I am nonetheless. I'm Alpha, they wouldn't dare defy my right to see their Luna, they know better than that.

I held her hand for three days, I didn't move or eat, I didn't even see my children. I wanted her to be there, a hand clasped around my shoulder.

"Darius, you need to rest, Jamie wouldn't want you to waste away; come on." Jack tried to get me out of the chair but I just shook my head and shrugged off his shoulder. "Okay, but I'm bringing the food and drinks to you then, I'll have Lexi make you eat it, you stubborn-" Jack mumbled as he lightly closed the door.

I leaned forward and placed a kiss to my mate's forehead. "I've always loved you, even when we were kids; I just never knew it, I wish I did and I wish I told you before you went into a coma, I know its medically induced or whatever. Babe, It's still scary as hell." I paused as I smiled at a memory, a really good one.

(Flashback)

"Da-dari! pick me up! come on I want a pigg-um, yeah, a piggy ride." Jamie, at the age of 6, nodded. I rolled my eyes and laughed.

"It's called a piggy-back ride, Jam" My 8-year-old self happily placed Jam on my back, I usually did this, took her for a walk on my back. It was either through the forest or by the lake we always went to, it was the farthest place in my dad's territory.

We were walking, well, I was for ten mintues before Jam finally spoke up. I never felt weird hanging out with my best friend's little sister, we were just learning about mates and what that meant; deep down, I hoped Jamie was mine and if she was I vowed to make her happy forever.

"Dari, what's a mater?" Jam looked over my shoulder to stare down at me. I managed to balance her monkey movements.

"The term is 'mate' Jam, and It's a very wonderful thing. When there is one person in your life that you would do anything for, to love or cherish. Somebody you could trust who would never hurt you, mentally and physically and who will never stop loving you. He or she is your other half, your soulmate, and your bestfriend." I tensed a bit as Jam's long hair brushed my cheek and she hopped off me, her little arms linked with my one arm as we continued walking.

"I like it, If I ever found my mate, I would want it to be you okay? Would you want it to be me?" Jam questioned in her innocent little voice.

"I would." I responded firmly, in my own young, innocent voice.

"Dari?" Jam questioned, we were now sitting by the lake, our favorite spot. I set up a blanket here, and my mom made us PB&J sandwiches to snack on.

"Yes, Jam?" I asked, I swallowed the sandwich in my mouth.

"Why does the family not like me?" Jam asked, she asked this question alot; I always gave her the same answer.

"I don't know, Jams, but I could never hate you. pinky promise?" I held out my pinky and she just stared at it before smiling and nodding, clasping her finger on mine.

I don't know how, I'm so young, but If this feeling is what love feels like, I never want it to end.

Little did I know how much my that broken pinky promise would cost me, we could have been together so much sooner. I broke my promise, I merged with the pack againt my mate and Lexi and I'm still paying for it. I kissed my mate tenderly on the lips.

"Wake up soon, I need to start making up for everything you've been through. I hope one day, you will forgive me and let me love you so much more then I deserve too.