Oct 11

9:22am

hey hu

just wondering if you know any new info abt qiqi

nope, haven't heard anything new

ahh alright

this is kind of unrelated, but i heard that the bully who was suspended came back

the one who fought with xiao?

he didn't really fight with xiao, but he was part of it ig

i actually wanted to speak to him

need to talk to him abt smth

sure, his homeroom is room 204 if you'd like to go there

but xiao is also planning on talking to him

just thought you should know

oh...

hh that's fine

speaking of xiao

how are things between the two of you now

still the same?

yeah

ah i see

Seen at 9:28am

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As planned, you were on your way to find Zixin during lunch. His homeroom was a tad bit far from yours so you had to rush there.

But when you arrived, you wished that you had taken your time. You noticed that Xiao was already there and the two were talking. You approached them slowly.

"Zixin," Xiao called out to him. Zixin looked sideways at Xiao as he walked out of his homeroom. "Oh. Xiao."

Xiao crossed him arms, glaring at him. Silence followed as he was finding the right words to say.

You, on the other hand, hesitated to approach them any further. You feared what Xiao's reaction would be if you did. But nonetheless, you took a deep breath and went for it.

You had to only take a few steps forward for Xiao to notice you. And when he did, you saw see his eyes widen a bit as his body tensed up. You felt the entire atmosphere grow cold the moment he saw you.

"I— need to talk to you," you spoke, glancing at Zixin who only raised a brow at you. "And you are?"

"Y/n," you replied briefly. His eyes widened after hearing your name. "You're the driver?" he said, a bit surprised. You simply nodded in response.

Xiao averted his eyes from you. "I'll come back later then," he said while turning around to leave.

But you immediately stopped him. "Wait no— if you need to talk to him, you can go first," you said while avoiding eye contact.

Xiao furrowed his eyebrows and let out a sigh. "I'd rather speak to him alone."

You were taken aback by his response. "But—" you mumbled before being cut off by him.

"I said I'd rather speak to him alone. If you want to talk to him, then I'll leave. But if you want me to speak first, then you'll need to leave," he spat out, sounding more harsh than intended.

His words did slightly sting, but you couldn't blame him for this behavior. After all, he had every right to be upset with you.

Though, if you remained here any longer, you felt like you'd find yourself bursting into tears. To prevent that, you quickly took a few steps backwards and turned around. "I'll leave then." And so you did.

After your sudden departure, Zixin shook his head. "That was kinda harsh."

Xiao flashed him a frustrated glare. "Shut up. I said what I needed to."

"Right. And what did you want to talk about?" Zixin asked, despite knowing the answer.

"Why the hell didn't you do anything?" Were the only words that came out of Xiao's mouth.

Zixin sighed while rubbing his neck. "To be completely honest, I don't know myself. But I realize my mistake cost a lot. You can blame me if you want. It doesn't matter to me whether you hate me or not."

"I'm not looking for someone to blame. I only want an explanation on why you didn't do anything when you saw the kid."

"And I told you why. I don't know."

"Is that really all you have to say?" Xiao narrowed his eyes and took a step forward. "I don't care about blaming you. But your two dogs that held me back from saving the girl, are the ones whose mistake cost a lot."

"I know, but I'm not in charge of their actions. Besides, they've already paid the price. Now, I have a question to ask you as well."

Xiao raised a brow. "What question?"

"It's easier to blame yourself for what happened, isn't it?" He asked, causing Xiao to flinch.

"What do you mean?"

"I wonder who you blame for all of this. Do you blame me? Feng and Xue? Y/n? Or perhaps yourself."

"Why does it matter to you who I blame?"

A bitter smile made it's way onto Zixin's face as he chuckled. "Tell me, do you know the state Qiqi's in? What will happen if her condition worsens?"

"I don't know."

"What do you think speaking to me will accomplish? Or being harsh to Y/n? When in the end, you'll still end up blaming yourself."

"Why don't you stop speaking nonsense and just answer my question so I can leave." Irritation grew within Xiao. Although Zixin was speaking the truth, he couldn't help but be more and more pissed off by his words.

"I already answered your question. You won't find satisfaction by simply speaking to me. You should focus on yourself instead," he crossed his arms.

"I've focused on myself to the point of being sick of it. I don't think hating myself for this will do anything either."

"It won't, so why not be patient? You won't be able to find solace by blaming yourself."

"You're the last person I expected to hear that from," Xiao spoke bitterly. While Zixin remained calm.

"I know. But I'm tired of the blaming. I'm certain you are too. And Y/n as well."

"Why do you keep mentioning Y/n?"

"Why are you avoiding to talk about Y/n? You don't blame them, do you?"

"No, I just—" Xiao cut himself off. He clicked his tongue in frustration as he faced the other way. "Nevermind. I can see talking to you was pointless."

"It was always meant to be pointless. You're looking for something that cannot be found, Xiao. And you can't keep hiding from the truth forever," Zixin told, causing Xiao to look back at him.

"The truth?"

"No matter who you blame, whether it'd be me, Y/n, or yourself– there is nothing we can do to help the kid. You'll need to accept that."

Without saying anything more, Zixin walked away, which left Xiao to think to himself.

Xiao sighed once more. "You're right. There is nothing I can do— except blame my own stupidity."

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i am an idiot

oh boy

what happened

i realized i've been too harsh to y/n

really

what makes you say that 🤨

you don't need to be sarcastic

i do regret the way i've been treating them

talk to y/n

what

well i'm not the one you should be telling this

soo go talk to y/n

idk what to say

you'll know what to say when you talk to them

just tell them what you're telling me

i don't deserve their forgiveness

andd emo mode is turned on

...

look, just talk to y/n alr

talking to me won't do anything

fine

and also confess your undying love for them while you're at it 😹😹

wtf

kidding haha

now go talk to them

alr

good

Seen at 1:04pm