Sept 23

3:46am

Incoherent sobs could be heard from all around the room. It was hard to depict where exactly the noises were erupting from, but Xiao could hear them clearly.

He found himself sitting in the middle of a pitch black room, where the only sounds he heard was the anonymous sobbing and his own breathing.

He could feel sweat running down his forehead as he frantically looked around. But everywhere he looked, he saw nothing but the isolating darkness that surrounded him.

The teal haired male knew this feeling all too well. His eyes fluttered shut as he began to hear peculiar voices coming from all around.

He grimaced at each statement they spat out.

Help her.

Why don't you help her?

She needs you.

But you can't help her, can you?

All you can do is watch helplessly, right?

How pitiful.

A sorry sight.

"Shut up," Xiao mumbled despite knowing full well his words wouldn't do anything.

But to his surprise, the voices suddenly stopped. The male lifted his head up and looked around once again, confused by the sudden silence.

Then a small figure appeared before him. A figure of a small girl. She was sitting down on her knees with her head tilted downwards.

Xiao felt despair the moment he saw the little girl. He could feel his heart beginning to ache.

The little girl seemed to be sobbing very quietly. So quiet that it could hardly be heard by the other male.

She slightly raised her head and looked directly at him, but didn't utter a word.

"I'm sorry," Xiao muttered quietly, looking at the girl with regretful eyes. The overwhelming guilt he was feeling was unbearable. After the accident had happened, he could only feel hatred towards himself.

"I'm sorry," he repeated once more. The little girl kept looking his way, her expression unwavering.

He could see no emotions displayed upon her face. Her gaze upon him was cold and emotionless. It was almost as if she was dead.

The very thought sent shivers down his spine. He wanted to cry but didn't. He couldn't. He didn't know how to react, nor did he know what to say. He felt a strange stillness within him.

It was as if time had stopped moving. As if everything had come to a stop.

It felt like he was locked up in chains, caged by his own growing guilt. He was in constant suffering. A never ending battle between him and his inner demon-like voices that were constantly reminding him of what happened.

There was nothing he could do to forgive himself.

Absolutely nothing.

○

●

○

the club council meeting was announced to be tmrw btw

alr

oh

the what

did you already forget what that is

no...

it's the meeting the student council hosts

OH THAT

wait

xiao, who are you going to take with you

y/n

unless you'd like to go

what

NO LOL

especially since he's going to be there

if i go, we will both definitely get kicked out

i see

who are you referring to btw, is it the same person you fought with

yes, him

Coward

no tf i'm not scared of him lol

right

so the meeting is tmrw?

yepp

we still haven't came up with a plan for the club

oh yeah

hmm

we could just suggest doing a festival or smth for an event

i guess we have no other choice

a social gathering it is.

LMAO

don't worryy it'll be ok

besides, the other clubs will have their own ideas too

yes so dw xiao, it'll work out

ig we'll just have to see how it goes then

yep

Seen at 4:22pm

○

●

○

Sept 24

4:39pm

hey xiao

yeah?

so for the club council meeting

will i just randomly get added to a gc or

yea

if it is indeed being held online again, which according to hu tao it is, then yeah

ohh okk

sry for disturbing you if i did

i just wanted to make sure lol

are you nervous

no, what makes you say that lol

idk you just seem nervous to me

and if you are, don't be

i can assure you there is nothing to worry abt

well yeah but won't there be a lot of ppl there

i guess but they won't all be talking at once

ningguang is pretty organized

i hope you're right abt that

it'll be scary if there's a lot of ppl watching tho

so many ppl to judge me

why the hell would they judge you

besides, i can take care of the talking ig

but don't you also hate talking tho

yea but i'll be fine 

as long as you don't get overwhelmed 

omg you care abt me being overwhelmed

as anybody else would, i do

oh no you can't use the "i'm only doing what anyone else would" card on me again.

it will not work this time

wdym

it's obvious you see me as a friend now

and nothing you'll say will change my mind

archons give me patience

JUST ACCEPT IT

no

being a decent human doesn't mean i'm your friend

man

one day i will make you admit it

good luck with that

thank you

is that all you wanted to ask abt?

yes

ttyl then

alr

Seen at 4:44pm

○

●

○