On the flight back home I've come to realise that this trip was well-needed. For me at least. I enjoyed showing Selena where I grew up and where I went to school. We spent the entire day talking and just having fun. She talked to me about her family and told me she can't say much. She only told me a few snippets so I'm not too worried about her well being.

Before we boarded the plane I got a text message from Chris telling me the party will be held two days from now on. Just enough time to find an excuse not to go. I can always fake a flu. Like one does. It's not a big deal right?

"What are you thinking so hard about?" Selena asks me

"A lot of things." I say looking away.

"Are any of those things Scarlett?" She asks

"I chose to forgive Scarlett." I say

"What?" She asks shocked.

"I chose to forgive Scarlett. Not because of her. But because of me. I don't want to hold onto something that could only drown me." I say

"So what does that mean?" She asks

"Nothing really. I just don't hold a grudge anymore." I say plain and simple.

"Thats..that is good to hear." she says surprised.

"But I'm not going to the party though." I say

"Why? We can have so much fun. Plus everyone will be there!" She whines.

"I can't. I just don't feel like it Selena." I say truthfully.

"Is everything okay?" She asks taking my hand into hers.

"It will be." I just say.

"Okay. How about you rest for the remainder of the flight?" She offers.

"Not until you tell me your impressions of England." I say and she does just that.

Her impressions turn into a full conversation. The two of us spend almost two hours just talking about our trip.

When we got back we said our goodbye's and parted our ways. I return to an empty apartment and go shower. As I'm drying my hair I hear my doorbell. I check the time to see it is already 8pm. Maybe it's Chris. I open the door to see Scarlett there.

"Hi." She says quietly

"Hey." I say looking at her in shock.

"May I come in?" She asks

"Of course." I say opening the door for her to get inside.

"Are you busy now?" She asks

"No. I just showered. Selena and I got back home just an hour ago." I say looking at the clock on the wall.

"I wanted to spend some time with you." She says

"Is everything okay?" I ask

"I.. I don't know." She says looking down.

"Come. Let's chill in my room." I say and she follows.

"Now. Tell me what happened." I say.

"Nothing happened I just.. I just" She trails off.

I sit there in silence. I don't want to interrupt her. I give her time to get her thoughts in order. She starts to cry and I sit next to her and open my arms. In a matter of seconds she falls into my arms, making me stumble back and lay down onto the bed.

"Everything will be okay." I say

"No it won't." She says.

"Hey, try to calm down first." I say drawing circles on her back.

She stops crying and looks up at me. We're still laying down, with her on my chest.

"I think.. I think I fell for you Lena." She says and my world stops. Everything goes to silence. I try to answer but I can't form a sentence.

"I know it is all of a sudden but I've come to this realisation a while back. I think I've always known." She says looking at me intently.

I sit up and she sits next to me now. I can't believe she.. she actually said it.

"Say something please."She says now afraid.

"Thats..thats wow." I mutter looking at her.

"I know you probably got over me by now and I should have probably told you this earlier." She says

"It would help tons, yeah. Um..What made you realise that?" I ask her.

"That night the two of us shared. I can't get it out of my head. I.. I know I hurt you hut that was the closest I ever was to the real you. I never saw you like that." She says

I nod and look ahead.

"Do you want to take a walk around the neighbourhood with me?" I ask her all of a sudden and she says yes.

I put on some leggings and a shirt with a hoodie over it. It was a little chilly outside anyways. The two of us walk outside and the fresh air helps the dizziness I felt inside. It was all her fault as well. She likes me too? Is this good? I mean fuck it is fantastic but should I act on it?

We walk in silence and go to the nearby park. We sit on a bench and just gaze at each other.

"I didn't expect you to say that." I admit.

"Why didn't you?" She asks

"I.. never thought you would even look my way." I say fiddling with my keys.

"You do realise you're every mans and womans dream girl? Right?" She says

"I doubt that. I have enough trauma for ten." I say looking away from her.

"Would you like to tell me about it?" She asks putting a hand to my thigh.

"No. I wouldn't. I don't talk about them." I say

"Will you tell me what really happened to your arm?" She asks

"I..I punched the mirror and a few other things in the bathroom." I say, there is no point in lying right now. Not anymore at least.

"Was it the morning of?" She asks and I nod.

"It's not your fault. I have some anger issues I need to sort out anyway." I say quickly.

"I never thought you'd be the kind to have anger issues. Yoi're always so calm and put together." She says

"I am in a controlled area. Back then I thought I was alone. Or at least I felt like it." I answer.

As we continue of conversation it starts raining. I don't move because it isn't raining way too hard.

"Let's go back. It will pick up soon." She says offering me a hand to get up. I take and on hold on tight.

It starts pouring and the both of us are soaked and walking back to my place.

"We should hurry back." Scarlett says rather loudly

"We're already soaked why the rush?" I say and continue walking.

"I hate the rain!" She shouts because it is hard to hear anything from the droplets.

"I love it." I say and smile at her.

I offer her my healthy hand and she takes it as we walk back.

"I like you too." I say and she stops in her tracks.

"I've loved you from the day you filmed that scene." I say

"Can this wait. Let's get inside, you'll get sick." She says tugging my arm. I take it out of her grasp. I don't want to move. This is the moment. This is when I say all or nothing.

"I love you Scarlett. I've loved you for a while now. I have to admit. I lied to you when I said I don't feel as strongly for you as I did before, the truth is I feel the exact same. I feel everything. All of it. I hated that you hurt me. But I could never hate you for it. I can never hate you. Not intentionally not accidentally."

Without a second word, almost in seconds Scarlett grabs my face and my lips meet hers in a passionate kiss. One I've never felt before.

"I love you too. You.. you crawled into my heart without even trying. When I say you are the most beautiful being that has walked this earth I mean it. You Lena are.. extraordinary. A work of art even. Thank you for loving me. I never knew you loved me for so long.." She says hugging me and sticking onto my body like a leach.

The rain stops and we stand there like two crazy people crying our hearts out and holding each other like there is no tomorrow.

We walk back home with the biggest smiles on our faces, holding hands during it. I open the door for her and I run to my room to find her a change of clothes because we're both drenched. I gave her some clothes and she walked into the guest room. I quickly changed into some warm clothes and I even caught myself smiling while doing the most random thing. I was getting dressed.

"May I come in?" She asks

"It's open." I shout drying my hair with a towel.

"I need to dry my hair before I get sick." she says

"Of course. You know where everything is." I say and she nods walking to my vanity.

We finish drying up and sit on the bed in silence.

"What now?" I ask

"We could start to get to know each other. I mean we know the basics but we've never really went in deep." She offers.

"Sure, I can do that." I say looking at her.

"Stop looking at me like that." She hisses.

"Like what?" I ask dumbfounded.

"Like you want to eat me." She says and I choke on my own spit.

"Say what now?"

"You were looking at me like you were about to undress me." she explains.

"Fine, I won't look at you." I say turning my head. She laughs at that.

"Can we make cupcakes?" She asks

"It' almost 10pm." I deadpan.

"Yes and?"

"Alright. Hop off, we're making cupcakes." I stand up and she follows suit.

"What kind of cupcakes would you like?" I ask her.

"How about your famous cupcakes?" She asks

"Fine by me." I say and she nods. She sits down onto the island while I prepare the batter and turn on the stove to heat up. I get sense of deja vu. I remember we did the exact same thing. In the exact same place. Only then we were just Ms Johansson and Adams.

"How was London?" She asks

"It was nice. I spent the days walking around the streets of London with Selena. I showed her where I studied and also where I went to shop and café's from my university days." I say mixing the batter.

"Where did you two stay at?" She asks

"At my family mansion. She also wanted to see that. I remember I gave her a tour of the estate." I say getting the cupcake baskets ready into the pan.

"Family mansion?"

"Yeah." I say sighing.

"When will you go back?" She asks

"What? You already want me gone?" I tease.

"No. I just wondered." She says

"Well, probably on my birthday." I say not looking at her.

"Why then? Are you gonna hold- Oh... I'm so dumb. I apologise. I completely forgot." she remembers.

"It's fine. I'm used to it by now." I say and put the muffins into the oven.

I start cleaning the tables and putting dirty dishes into the sink while she keeps an eye on me.

"Why are you so quiet all of a sudden?" I ask her.

"Because I feel bad for mentioning it." She says looking at her lap.

"Hey, I am okay. It's been seven years Scarlett." I say grabbing her hand and making her look at me.

"I know, I just don't want to remind you of it." She says.

"It is okay. Thank you for asking. Not many dare to even go there." I reassure her.

"Can I hug you?" She asks

"Of course honey." I say and hug her tight. Her legs widen and she wraps them around my waist, while her hands tangle themselves around my neck.